Love is Named Us

Make Peace With the Past

I went back to my usual activities, doing the work I used to do. Still as usual, the spy still looked at me cynically. I chose not to care because explaining was useless as well. In addition to the reality now, I am the wife of the man who is the source of my problems. They must think I really took Gafi from Diana, when in reality they didn't know what it was like. Sometimes people only care about what they see rather than hearing the explanation. It feels weird, but that's how it happened.

This afternoon the cafe was as crowded as ever. Passing by is an inevitable picture at lunchtime. The activities we do must be extra fast so that no customer feels disappointed. Customer satisfaction is number one for us.

Me and Tia were sitting limp while sipping a bottle of mineral water. We were relieved to be able to rest for a moment after the inevitable crowd earlier.

“ My legs are really very tired,” complained Tia while stomping her feet. “ Good luck has already passed, so we can rest.”

I nod my head.

“ But, I'm happy instead,” my chirps. “ Finally I can feel this again.”

Tia. “ Yuna..you are really weird.”

“ Me? weird?”

“ Hmm,” nods. “ You're weird, why do you have to go back to work. Isn't Gafi a rich man, he can handle your needs. You can brag about yourself now, why are you back as a waitress, ha!”

“ What's wrong with being a waiter.”

“ At least you can lift your head in front of Widya.”

“ Tch..you're this,” said I want to hit him. “ I think your advice is good, it turns out off as well.”

Tia laughed a little.

“ Anyway if in thought it seems like being a Madam is not a thing that deserves me. Working like this is more fun than at home, do not know what to do.”

“ I understand you mean, but I'm sure Gafi must have refused you work again, right?”

“ Yes..initially he objected, he also had time to be angry with me. But he helped me in the end. If his family knew I was going here, they would be furious.”

“ But thanks to Gafi, you survived, right?”

“ Yes so.”

“ Umm...feelingku is not wrong, Gafi is a good person. The proof is in plain sight, right.”

“ Ha? Why are you suddenly saying such a strange thing?”

“ Strange what, stranger his friend it.”

I was a little surprised because Tia always mentioned Aril in every conversation we had. I also became curious about the relationship that I thought was special.

“ I'm so curious how close is your relationship with Aril? You just keep getting upset with him. There's no way that you're just getting to know, right?”

Tia scrunched her forehead. “ I don't know,” he said melengos go. I just fell silent with that one magic act. If he was not forthright, his last path would have been to avoid. And I can only understand his nature on this one.

After Tia left, I went to the cafe terrace to clean the table that had been left by the owner. The glasses and plates on the table, I removed them and cleaned the table clean. Every now and then I greet the customers who come with a big smile. Until I realized that one of the customers was still standing in front of me. I didn't think he would come to this place.

“ Why are you here..Dimas,” my question suddenly.

“ Finally I can meet you after I searched you here several times.”

That's what he said that made me immediately remember the story of Tia a few days ago. There was a man looking for me, not just one but two, I don't know who the other is, but I'm sure that one of the men must be Dimas.

“ Please sit down,” I said please allow it as if it is one of the buyers. “ Do you want to order something?”

“ Yuna, sit down first. I want to talk to you.”

“ If I order something, will you give me a chance to talk?”

“ It...” I'm a bit confused as to what to answer. On the one hand, I'm still working, on the other hand Dimas is definitely going to keep seeing me. I don't want to see him again regardless of anything.

“ Yuna..”

“ Alright, I'll give you a chance to talk. But I can't linger.”

Dimas smiled at my words. Those are the words he expects from me.

“ Yuna. A fatal mistake without looking at you was the thing I regretted the most in my entire life. But even then I couldn't do anything, my mother would have hurt herself if I were still with you back then. I chose to disappear without looking at you. You must have been so disappointed in me for leaving you when you needed me back then.”

“ Yuna. I was looking for you but you disappeared. There's no trace of where you're going. But the unexpected meeting back then made me happy. After such a long search I was finally able to meet you again.”

" Yuna, I want us to solve the problems that are going on between us."

I took a deep breath. However I still keep the pain to him, but I also do not want to keep it constantly. He is not the person in my heart anymore, I should have wasted this pain a long time ago.

“ Lie if I have forgiven you until now. The pain you gave me and my family will not just go away. However, I shouldn't linger with this feeling of disappointment. No matter what happens, we are not fooled. It's not our fault, but it's destiny.”

“ Apologies for now should be the right word for both of us. I forgive. That's all I can give you to lose your guilt for me. I forgive you with all my heart.”

“ Yuna...you forgive me?”

I nodded.

“ I'm grateful you'll forgive me. I'm a little relieved.”

“ But, after this can you not see me again?”

Dimas was silent for a moment.

“ Why? why can't I see you again?”

“ It's for the good of both of us. I don't know if you're married or not or maybe you already have a boyfriend. If anyone sees me, I don't want any misunderstandings. I don't want complicated.”

Dimas nodded in understanding.

“ Alright, I get your point,” he said.

“ And I'm married.”

“ What?” Dimas. “ Are you married?”

I showed the ring on my ring finger. And Dimas understood.

“ I love and love my husband. Actually that's my biggest reason. So, later on don't see me again.”

“ I envy, very envious of your husband. That position eventually became someone else's. I promise this is our last meeting. I won't interfere with your life anymore.”

“ Thank you for understanding.”

“ Yes.”

I saw a clock curled up on my wrist. Dimas understood my attitude. He said goodbye to me and thanked me for giving him the opportunity to talk. But actually I am the one who has to say thank you, if I do not meet him, maybe I still hold a grudge against him. Letting go of this pain is the best thing for me. Even though I have to lie with beautiful words, love and like.