Love is Named Us

Disclosure of Feelings

" Yuna..."

That raucous voice felt very pitiful. Martin forced his smile on me.

" Come in" he said, inviting me in. " I'm sorry this room is a mess."

" It's okay" I said. " Are you okay?"

" Not really."

" I'm sorry for making you this way. I don't know how to make up for this mess. I really didn't ruin this place and I never wrote my resignation. Hearing this news I was also very shocked and you must have been hurt."

" I know it's definitely not you, Yuna. I've known you for a long time. But why are you being targeted to be a suspect in the destruction of this place. When I found your resignation letter in the middle of this mess, I was in shock. Is it really you who did it? Can you bear with me? I don't know, my mind was fucked up."

" Sorry..."

" No Yuna don't apologize. I was just afraid that Mom would hear this news. But, fortunately, my mother is in Malaysia, so she won't know much less about this matter."

" That's what I think too. If only the manager had known, he would have been very disappointed."

I turned my face away. Not far from where I was sitting, I saw a letter that I assumed was the source of my problems. I walked over, and I took the letter. I open it and read it.

Suddenly Martin snatched the letter from my hand, I was a little shocked by the treatment.

" What is my resignation letter?"

" Yes."

" Who did it..." I thought for a moment. " What about CCTV? We'll know if we see it, right? Have you checked it?"

" Sadly CCTV is being damaged."

" damaged? How long is it hard?"

" About two days ago."

" Oh..." I'm a little disappointed. " We can know what did it."

" That's it." Martin told me to sit down. " What about you after I drove you back?"

" Umm. I'm fine. You don't have to worry."

" But Yuna. ever since you knew Gafi, there's been trouble with you. Didn't you notice?"

I smiled wryly. " I already know the consequences and accept everything. I'm an ordinary person who comes into Gafi's life and it won't be easy."

" And you're gonna survive?"

I nodded.

" Why?"

" For me this marriage I have thought carefully. My choice then and now is to live with him. That's all I can say, Martin."

" He doesn't appreciate you, Yuna. Just look at yesterday, he yelled and hurt you. He could've done more than that and you still want to hang on."

" You don't know Martin. He's not like that."

" You kept defending her, even though you didn't know her very well either, Yuna!"

I'm speechless.

For the first time I've seen Martin explode. His emotions were so visible on his face.

" I have to defend him, he's my husband, regardless of his bad attitude towards me. I'm not entirely good either. You'll never know Martin."

" Yes, you're right. I will never know, but I am always with you. Why not me, Yuna."

" A-pa?"

" I liked you a long time ago. Do you think our relationship is just a friend? Hearing you get married frustrates me. Why not me? What can I do so you can be with me?"

" You like me? Why?"

" Is there any reason to like you?"

" But all this time you haven't said anything."

" Because I assumed you wouldn't walk away from me!"

I'm speechless.

What Gafi said was right. Martin sees me more, not just as a friend.

" I'd better go." I was about to move, but Martin pulled my hand. I'm staring. " Jin..."

" Please don't go. I'm sorry if my words just made you awkward."

" I'm sorry." Suddenly Martin curled up, and I approached him. He looks like he's in a lot of pain. " I'm fine."

" But you're in pain Martin."

" Please get me the medicine that's on the table there. I'll be fine if I drink it."

" I'll take it."

I rushed to get the water and medicine that Martin meant. However, by the time I turned around Martin was already in front of me. To his surprise I almost fell backwards, but Martin quickly caught my body.

" Thank you. I'm sorry." I was about to release myself, but Martin pressed his hand. " Jin..."

" Yuna, I'm serious. I've liked you since the first time we met. I still feel the same way."

" Martin, don't be like this. I understand how you feel, but I can't accept it. I'm married."

" Let go and live with me. I'll make you happy."

" I can't. Please let me go."

Martin shook his head.

He looked at me and did not even look away.

" It's wrong, don't do it. Please Martin, let me go" I asked as I tried to escape.

Martin pushed my body into his body. Of course I was very surprised.

" I'm sorry."

Martin tried to grab my lips. I pushed her body with all my might, but no matter how strong I was in the end I would lose strongly to her.

I didn't think he would do this to me. This friendship that I thought of as a brother turned out to have to end this way.

My tears are dripping. To escape, I bit her lip. Martin was in pain and the tight grip slipped. I hurried off before Martin caught me.

I went out and passed Tia and Herman. They called me, but I didn't touch him and kept going.

The rain that suddenly fell added to my sadness. I don't even care about people's eyes looking at me crying. My clothes are soaked too.

Sayup-sayup heard a voice calling my name. I was scared and dared not look back. I ran as fast as I could so Martin wouldn't find me.

Not being careful, I fell down too. I quickly got up, but a hand held my shoulder. My reflex screamed in fear, but the man hugged me instead .

" Yuna, relax, it's me, Gafi."

Hearing her voice, I suddenly calmed down.

" Gaphi..." I hugged him tightly and cried. Gafi seemed confused at my attitude.

" Yuna..."

" I'm sorry. I'm sorry I should have listened to you."

" It's okay, don't cry anymore."

I shook my head.

" I'm so mean to you "

" Yuna, what's wrong? What the hell's been going on? Did Martin do anything to you?"

I nodded my head.

" What did he do to you."

I'm speechless.

" Yuna...."

Gafi was wide-eyed as soon as he saw a mark on my neck. His blood boiled knowing what Martin had done to me.

" Is he the one who did this," asked Gafi pointing at the marks that were on my neck. I was a little surprised I didn't realize there was something there.

Gafi pulled me forcibly, then kissed my lips. It was as if removing the marks that Martin had left there. The kiss that Gafi gave off felt different than usual.

Our breath was shaken because of that kiss. I looked at him.

" What else did he do to you, Yuna?" Gafi's voice was so softly heard. I've done something bad that's even hurt her.

I held her face with both hands. Stare at him deeply, then kiss him softly. Gafi returned my kiss. And my tears don't stop dripping.

Gafi ..this is karma for not listening to you. I am guilty and do not deserve to be a wife.

Please forgive me, although an apology may not be enough to describe your disappointment with me.