Love is Named Us

Regretting

In the end, regret is useless. I acted in an emotional landscape and because of his words that had touched me, even brought me into deeper problems. No more misunderstandings but a deal. And I don't know how to fix it.

" Why is this so..." I was limp thinking about it.

" Repent too there is no use" chirped Tia who suddenly sat in front of me. " Congratulations." He shook my hand with a meaningful smile.

" How...."

" I can tell," Tia cut.

I nodded.

" Of course I know even the results of waiting for me are not in vain either. I see more drama than watching television. You're really amazing" she gave me two thumbs up.

" Just die there."

" Don't curse me, I'm a witness to your life."

I breathe heavily.

" What should I do?" my lament.

" Yes, what's the trouble."

" Don't say it like that. What do I have to say to them."

" They?"

" My brother and father."

" If that's what you have to be good at. I don't know your condition, so I can't give you any advice."

I was silent for a moment.

" Yuna."

" My dad will be sad." My eyes started to glaze over.

I leaned my back on the chair. My mind started to drift somewhere.

" What's that heavy?"

" Hm." I nodded my head. “ I'm afraid my father will be sad if I'm really going to get married later. I also don't know if my sister would be happy if I married suddenly like this.”

“ Turns out a lot of things I didn't know about you.”

“ Why are you so obsessed with me. Do you like me very much, ha!”

“ Like.” Tia looked at me seriously. “ Never mind, it's not time to argue. Think about it, won't you guys meet tomorrow?”

I nodded. " We'll meet tomorrow and I don't know what will happen.”

“ Calm down, all must be well.”

I nodded my head.

“ Yuna, do you know the man who was with Gafi?”

“ Aril?”

Tia nodded.

“ You know him?”

“ Not really, but he's the guy I told you about back then, the guy who gave me the business card, do you remember?”

“ I remember. So he's the one who gave you the name card.”

“ Yes, I think he is also a good man,”. “ But why are you curious about him?”

“ I'm not curious, just want to know. He seems to be very attentive to you.”

“ Attention to me? Why that?”

“ I know. Anyway I don't agree that you call him a good guy, he's a real bitch. You don't know how upset I was when I was with him, it feels like I'd love to beat him up.”

“ Ha! Sounds like you guys are very familiar.”

“ Familiar from where? you are not to conclude.”

“ This time I did not wrongly conclude. Let's bet, he'll definitely be looking for you.”

“ You don't scare me.”

“ Why are you so scared? It's even strange that you're afraid of such a thing, even though you look very fierce with other people.”

“ Don't you equal right, this thing and it's different.”

“ Your words even make ambiguous.”

“ Why you pissed me off, never mind, I don't want to talk about it anymore. I'm hungry, buy me a meal.”

“ Whatever, just order there.”

...****...

Me and Tia split up because I had to go somewhere. Looks like I'll see Aydin today too. I thought there was no other way but to tell him as soon as possible.

Just thinking about how her expression scared me. Either Aydin would react like what if he heard this sudden news.

" Thank you for accompanying me today" I said with a smile.

" Yes, you're welcome. I'm enjoying this day, too."

I smile.

" My bus has come, are you okay I'm staying?" tia asked a little worried.

" No problem, I'm used to it" I replied calming him down.

" All right, you be careful."

I nodded. " You're careful too."

Tia got on the bus and waved her hand from behind the window. A moment later the bus left me.

I was waiting for a bus to take me to his place. While waiting, I opened a book that I had brought from home. Reading it slowly and occasionally looking towards the road confirmed whether the bus I was waiting for was visible or not.

A red car that seemed familiar to me stopped in front of me. Slowly the window of the car came down and the owner of the car was seen. My guess is not wrong, he is Martin.

“ Yuna, come in,” she told me to get in her car.

I shook my head while smiling at him.

“ No need, I'm going somewhere,” I replied.

“ Yuna, just for a moment, there's something I want to talk about. Please.”

Her request made me feel bad plus the people around me were looking at me. I put the book I read in my bag and walked towards the red car. I opened the door and went inside.

For a moment, the car drove away from the bus stop. Walk this very crowded street. The sound of horn honking deafening, especially if not the action of public transportation scrambling passengers on the streets.

Martin turned his face towards me who was looking straight ahead. There hasn't been a conversation between us since I got in this car. I also don't know what to say to her after what happened yesterday.

“ Sorry for forcing you to be with me,” he said apologizing, but I didn't comment. “ I know you are still disappointed and angry with me after that incident.”

“ Don't apologize, the effect is that you did the wrong thing. What you're doing is not wrong, but I'm just disappointed you don't believe me.”

“ I know and I also realize it. I kept calling you, but you ignored me. I'm so wrong must how else to make up for my mistake.”

I put on a smile.

“ You got the reply. I ignored you, so you know how I feel.”

Martin was confused.

“ So you purposely ignored me?”

“ Of course, I also want you to be annoyed.”

Martin looks relieved.

“ This is the new Yuna I know. Don't ignore me anymore, I don't like you like that.”

“ Right now you're not my boss, so don't rule.”

“ I'm not your boss, but your friend.”

I laughed too.

“ Seeing you laugh makes me happy. There's nothing more fun seeing you like this.”

“ Why are you being so poetic. Have you learned to string words since I wasn't around.”

Martin just smiled.

“ Where are you going? Let me take you there.”

“ Hmm...” I looked at the clock on my wrist. “ I don't think need.”

“ Why?”

“ I have to prepare my heart first, it looks like I'm not too ready yet. I was going to be reckless, but it's not that close yet.”

“ Where are you going?fight to the battlefield?”

I nodded.

“ You are just there. Where are you going then?”

“ Go home.”

Martin nodded his head.

“ Okay, fine. I'll take you home.”

I leaned my head against the shoulder of the chair. It turns out I wasn't ready to meet Aydin at the end. Calming yourself and your mind is the best solution right now before you fight tomorrow.