Let Time Talk

Decisions behind despair

That night I enjoyed the sound of crickets and friends I had never met in the city.

It was only eight at night, but the mother and the others had already entered into their respective rooms.

While I who had been asleep this afternoon, have not been touched by drowsiness.

"Cobain coffee products our factory.."someone put a cup containing black coffee spelled next to me.

I turned to him, Mas Ryan sat on the opposite seat separated by a jengki-style table.

"I don't like black coffee." I'm flat.

"Hmm.i know. Relax, this barista still remembers your taste, try it first..."

To appreciate it I grabbed the cup and took a sip. It's true, this latte coffee tastes delicious, not too bitter and concentrated exactly as it was once made. At that time I was invited to a coffee shop owned by his friend, and with the pedenya he who took over the duties of barista because he wanted to mix coffee specifically for me.

"It's still the same as it used to be.."my smile.

Hhh.I shouldn't say that. He smiled again satisfied, because he managed to take me to that time.

Minutes later we were both silent enjoying the silence of the night in these air-conditioned mountains.

"So you know, mother's plan ..."

"Hmmm..."

"And you support him..."

"Why not? Aren't you also supportive when mom wants Devan to marry me..."

I heard her breathing was so heavy.

"I'm sorry.I saw mom so happy when she knew you, she always excited to tell me about you. I plan after you get married, I'll get away from you guys.because I'm tormented to see you with other people even though she's my most beloved sister though.I'm sorry I'm Kinan..."

"Have not blamed fate.all have been outlined by him. Now, happy mother..."

"Is it just by marrying her the way I make my mother happy?"

"I think the answer is obvious, right?"sahutku

"Then...how about you?"

I looked at him, and he did the same. When our gazes met, I saw worry there.

"What am I really why? I have a mother who loves me very much, I have a legacy from your sister, are you worried that no one wants a widow like me?"

"CK..you know that's not what I mean." he said sewot.

It's always like this, when we meet you will want to debate it. It's so wanting to rebel. Wanting to shout get away from me, get out of my heart.it feels tired to throw him out of this corner of the heart...

"Why do we argue about me, even though you are his sister mas Devan, you are not at all obliged to take responsibility for me, so there is no need to worry about me.."

"That's what makes me dizzy, if I obey my mother's wishes, I can't find my own happiness.."he sounds resigned.

"Life is a choice..."

" How to make you smile happy like you used to.I haven't seen him in a long time..."

"Give me mother's request." I said as I sipped my coffee which had been lost in the heat.

Ryan was silent for a long time. Maybe a lot of things ran amok in his mind.

"All right.promise to smile again, as I used to know you. I'm going to obey my mother's wishes." she finally said it.

After saying his decision, he got up from his seat and went inside.

I should have been relieved to have managed to persuade her, but why did the circle of tears start to melt into my cheeks.

However I had promised when she decided to accept this match, I had to show that I was happy. I'll show you that I can stand up straight to see her with another woman.

The next day, there was a furore when the mother did not find her son in the room, even though there was an appointment with an important guest this morning.

"Ck..Where is the boy, hape also TK brought!!!" said the mother who paced in the guest room.

When I asked Miss Rismi, Ryan after dawn was out of the house, she said she wanted to jog. But almost 7 o'clock has not been seen the trunk of his nose.

"Bu Rismi where are you going ..to the market?"I saw Miss Rismi carrying a grocery bag.

"Eh yes mbak..mau take orders, in the market impromptu..mbak Kinan want to come?all the streets look at the crowd..."

For a moment I weighed in on Rismi's offer. There is still no seven o'clock, and my agreement with Adel at eight, there is still time ..

"Yes Mom, I'm coming.I'm saying goodbye to mom..."

"Mothers...Kinan goes with Miss Rismi to the market.."

My mother looked at me with a worried face.

"Alright Kinan, but you have to be careful yes, do not split with Ms. Rismi.later stray.."finally mom let me.

It was like an SD kid that his mother was so worried about. Isn't there a cell phone now, if the stray stay cring ..But I don't want to argue with you, because my heart feels warm with your attention.

I walked down the road without asphalt that can not be passed by four-wheeled vehicles.

Several times meeting the friendly locals greeted us, making my feelings warm. This kind of atmosphere is hard to find in the city. If in the city when walking must only pass fenced houses, or busy people who drive so it is very difficult to argue like this.

"Bu Rismi is a real person here..."

"No, my husband was born in this village. We decided to stay here because when we got married, my mother-in-law was old, so sorry to be left behind..."

"Oo.. and Miss Rismi immediately felt at home or not?"

"Alhamdulillah I am also originally a village person, so it does not take long to adapt to people here.let alone the residents here are quite good to me.."

"Pretty good?" ask me

" Yes mbak, of course because the nyinyir there where included here he.he.."

I laughed when I heard it. For me this kind of atmosphere is really fun, for a moment can forget the complexity of my life.

Just fifteen minutes from home, we had arrived at this crowd. It's not like the market I imagined with so many buildings and sellers. Here there are only a few sellers with a field, or open tub cars that contain various household tools, but the buyers are very much, making the atmosphere so crowded.

"Bu Rismi, I want to buy snacks market.later we meet here ya.."capku after finding a seller who peddle a variety of wet cakes that attract my attention.

"Every mbak, I just for a moment kok.so it's been ordered yesterday, it's just take it.."

I nodded and went back in line because there were so many buyers.

"Kinan.." the voice of a man greeting made me turn my head.

"Mas Dika.. is shopping also yes.."

" Mother nganter, stay there." he said, pointing to the fishmonger.

"Ooh.ini I also drove Miss Rismi, but was stranded here because I was interested in market snacks .." I said with a smile on her face

"Hmm.iya, I also like it, you should try the typical snacks here as well.."

I felt awkward because his gaze and smile felt strange to me.

When it was our turn, we pointed at some cakes and the seller wrapped them. When I spent the money, Dika immediately paid for us both.

"Wow mas , how come I'm treated.." I feel bad because I just knew yesterday already asked for a treat...

"No papa Kinan, just gini aja..or you want another one?"

"Ah no, this is more than enough mas.." I can only grin at answering it.

Moments later Rismi came up to me and took me home. After saying goodbye and once again thanking Dika, we both left the place.

"Ehem..kayaknya mbak Kinan is estimated the same mas Dika deh..the view is Lo.." said Bu Rismi on the way home.

"Idiih Bu Rismi baper yes, lha wong just talk talk daja said to have a crush.." kilahku.

"But honestly I'm not too happy with the kid kades mbak, because quite handsome he likes to change girls.."

" Ordinary mah.sakep people most playboy .." I said later

" Eh not also mbak, if I keep ngefans the same two brothers mas Devan and mas Ryan are much more cute than the Dika mas. Although cute and well-established, Bu Yahyu's two children are loyal to a girl only Lo mbak..."

"Oh yeah..."

" From Bu Yahyu's story, I'm sorry I just heard the story, that Devan used to love a girl so much, that he couldn't get close to another girl even though her tribe had died..." said Mrs Rismi carefully.

I smiled because I understood how he felt.

"It's easy, Mom, Devan has already told me..."

"And now mas Ryan is also the same, because of the same marriage left with his girl, Bu Yahyu to try to be close to mbak Adel..."

Wah.wah.ibu tuh apparently like to confide in others too anyway..

"Hmm.complicated is also the story, ma'am." I replied origin.

If Miss Rismi knew what was happening to me, she would be even more excited..