Let Time Talk

Don't look around anymore

" Ck..mom, may I eat quietly.." the sound of sewot is heard from my sister-in-law's mouth.

"Mother is very upset with you, try to introduce her to mother, surely you will not break up from the girl.." mother still chattering while occasionally enjoying her cooking.

" Have it been, ma'am, didn't you have something planned.." mas Devan replied by glancing at his only sister.

"Heh....what do you plan to do?" the man who was still sewot immediately turned to look at his mother.

" Later it's time you also know.now finish your food. Look at Kinan from now on silent because you are noisy ..!"

I could only look down and try to focus on the rest of my food that had not been reduced. Even though mom's cooking is so good, how can I enjoy it? Several times I refrained from sighing because I felt uncomfortable.

" I think my phone sounds, mother's cooking is still the best, thank you Mom.." My sister-in-law moved on and kissed her mother's forehead and stepped into her room leaving us.

Hhh.. felt more relieved when he left and no longer shared oxygen in this dining room. What should I call him now? Grandpa? Be strong Kinan.

Tonight, for the first time I slept in the same room as my husband. I don't know what to feel now, should I feel relieved when Devan decides to sleep on the couch?

I was like a fool, even though I had been lying on the bed, even the veil from earlier was still attached to my head.

Or is this what makes Devan choose not to share this big bed? Yep..Allah forgive me, please grant your servant the sincerity to accept Devan as his true husband.

Maybe because of the new atmosphere, I did not close my eyes. I turned my body around, looking for comfort in a place that is still unfamiliar to me, but still I do not feel sleepy even though the clock ticking wall shows almost 12 pm. Maybe because of the dizziness of my head, which makes it harder to sleep.

Because I couldn't stand it anymore, I got out of bed. In that dim light, I approached Devan. His handsome face looks good enjoying his sleep.

Mas Devan also had a past that made him strongly attached, but willingly accepted me for who I was. What is wrong with me doing the same.

After watching my husband, my feet stepped in search of a headache cure and went out of the room to the dining table.

I poured water from the teapot into the glass . I sat in one of those chairs and I drank a glass of water and headache medicine. I massaged my forehead as the voice of the man I knew came out of the kitchen and carried a cup of coffee in his hand.

"You sick?" he said as he sat in front of me and put his coffee on the table.

" No. It's just vitamins.."so I got up from my chair.

" I'm sorry.it makes you uncomfortable..."That stopped my movement.

"I'm only here two weeks, after your wedding reception I'll definitely go ..."

I also looked up to dare to look at her directly, something I hadn't done for a long time.

" Yes, you haven't congratulated me on my marriage..."

" Mas Devan will definitely make you happy.."

" Thank you.sister-in-law.."so I continued to walk without looking again.

This is what I should be doing, I should look to tomorrow, let the past be a lesson in my life.

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A few days later, I applied for a four-day leave, because the day after the reception that always made my mother-in-law excited. Perhaps that is the expression of a mother's happiness when she first married her child. Moreover, during this time Devan always managed to avoid marriage, so proudly mother will show off that her son is not a weathered bachelor anymore.

This morning as usual, I tried to avoid meeting Ryan. However, I am an ordinary human being, sometimes the feeling that always disturbs my peace of mind.

Today my mother took me to care for her subscription, hhh. Or maybe when meeting with the right man for the second time the mother will also release her bachelor...

" Ryan's been in a relationship with a girl for a long time, but somehow in recent times he's been taking on distant projects. Whereas before, he only wanted to join a project that was close, he said he could not be far from the girl."

I tried to dive into his decision that our relationship should end from his point of view.

" Pas mother asked that he immediately propose to the girl, he said waiting for the girl to finish college. Ryan was really hard to guess, he never took a girl home, yes I guess single, and then I knew with my friends, eh he said there was a candidate...it was suddenly fitting that I show off your picture that Devan already has a candidate and will marry them together..I'm not thinking it out.."

So like that, even though I had previously convinced myself that this was all a coincidence, it turned out like my other heart said. That he purposely gave me to his brother... So I am not so valuable in his heart, willing to let go of me without thinking about my feelings...