Let Time Talk

Make a sincere effort

Both of my hands were cold, my body shaking complemented such great anxiety when we were asked to leave the room. The condition of the father who dropped back made me weak and upset.

I was still leaning on the side of the door, with tears constantly drenching my cheeks. Although Bu Yahyu approached, and invited me to sit down, I shook my head slowly even though my whole body was feeling very tired.

A few minutes later, the doctor who handled the father came out of the action room.

"How's doc? " asked Bu Yahyu to the doctor. While others moved towards us.

"I'm sorry, God has another will, Mr. Rusdi has passed away..."

The doctor's voice buzzing loudly in my head made my chest feel tight, my vision was foggy and finally my body was hollow like boneless. I don't know what happens next.

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In my dream I saw my mother sitting together with my father. They both looked very happy and there was no face of pain like I had seen all this time. Both are so beautiful and handsome. As they were about to step away, I followed him but my legs seemed to be unable to move as they moved further away from me...

"Ayaaah." My voice choked when I opened my eyes.

I saw a white ceiling in a room I didn't know. When I put my hand on it, there was an infusion hose attached there.

My tears came back and realized that my father had left me forever.

The sound of a wall clock ticking makes me turn my head, 2 o'clock? it was early in the morning, and I saw a man who was now entitled to me.

Yep...God, I'm giving my life to you. You are the wise one who has made Devan my soul mate, so remove the image of this other man from my heart.

I do not know how long my mind goes around in circles, re-recording the journey of my life until now I have been a wife of a man who had never imagined before.

Tired of my own thoughts, I fell asleep again.

The next morning I woke up, when the wall clock showed seven o'clock more. When I opened my eyes, I found no one.

I finally tried to get up, because I had to go to the bathroom. Slowly I managed to set my foot on the floor, then I reached for the infusion pole connected to my hand.

At that time I was just focusing on the strength of my legs to be able to step up, to not realize someone entered this room.

"Kinan...! Let me help..ayo.." mas Devan came in and immediately approached me when I saw me get out of bed. He led me by holding my arm, instantly it made me flinch because I was not used to his touch.

"You go to the bathroom.a.a.I can do it myself." I said awkwardly.

"I'm afraid you're falling.."he said in a worried tone.

"I'm strong, not pa pa pa.." I still reassured him.

I slightly looked at him who was still looking at me anxiously.

"I.iya mas.." I continued my steps slowly, and finally managed to get into the bathroom with a roaring heart.

Oh Allah, I forgot to be his wife. How'this? What I should do next. My head was still throbbing thinking of my life as if it was spinning 180 degrees from its axis.

After the doctor's visit that morning, I was finally allowed to go home.

Before we got home, we stopped by Dad's grave. I sat down on the wet ground. Back I felt weak lamenting the departure of father. Although after several heart attacks my father had prepared himself that every moment would be like this. But when you really left, I still felt unprepared.

I pray for my father and mother, I must be sincere, must be strong, at least I have been a little devoted to them. Now only prayers can I offer to widen their path to his paradise.

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Actually, Ms. Yahyu, asked me to come straight to her house, but I begged to be allowed to go home to my father first.

"Mother..Can I stay at my father's house first?"I asked my mother-in-law.

" Now you are Devan's responsibility, Kinan.talk to him" said the smiling mother, who made me realize that my husband was here.

"Will you stay here too?" ask Devan to his mother.

"No.mom will start preparing a feast for you. Oh yeah you guys should also talk about when we're going to have a reception.mom according to you guys" said mom.

" We have to wait for Tukik and Ma'am, he's only been there a month, how can permission.."sahut mas Devan.

"The child let the mother take care of it. What about Kinan? When should your reception be held..? Oh yes Devan, you must immediately confirm your marriage to KUA, if not later you will be counted as a kebo gathering ..."

Geez, this mom likes to be slippery. My face became hot hearing it.

"E...mother..kalo Kinan thought, should we not wait until forty days what father?"

" Is it not the same as Kinan? A month more Lo...!"

"Mother.I agree with Kinan, I want Tukik to be present as well. In a month he will be able to condition his work there." replied Devan.

"Hmm...apparently you underestimated the power of mom to tell her to go home?"and then mom took the phone out of her bag" I'm gonna call her in front of you right now..."

I also looked at Devan, while he could only shrug his shoulders looking at his mother's silly behavior.

"Assalamualaikum.iya, I asked for five minutes to talk seriously.your brother finally got married, yes ..with the girl whose picture I showed you first... that's why you have to go home at their reception" said the mother at length, then change the mother who was silent listening to the voice from across.

"What!! can you just go home next year? nothing, I'll call Romi directly. He must let you go home, if you need not go back there, it is time you take care of our plantation here. Point, Wassalamu'alaikum.."