If You Love

Eps. 21. Dreams

Something interesting, someone could make her granddaughter so emotional, and it was a girl. If the grandson gets sad and angry but a moment after discussing the girl his mood quickly changes means there is indeed something in his granddaughter's heart for the girl, he must be interested in the girl even though the girl's physique can be said to be unattractive.

"Mom..."

Susan's smile grew wider. This girl is important as it turns out, her face is changing now, so enthusiastic and excited.

"What oma?"

Brill could not wait for the reply of the oma who was still smiling at him.

"When did college get into the test? We're leaving after you take the entrance test..."

"I don't want to go to college..."

Brill replied with annoyance.

Same with mom.

"Brill... What do you want to do if you don't want to go to college?"

"Nothing."

Brill looked away from the look of the oma.

"No plans, right?"

"No."

Brill's answer is getting shorter. Oma Susan was patient, she understood that Brill had grown up with this tendency of Brill's attitude, being stupid and naive. From the story Markus Brill tends to extinguish the desire to learn, no matter the education, no wonder there is no desire to continue school.

"So what do you do at home if you don't want to continue learning..."

Brill shrugged his shoulders.

"Okey.. oma just glad you're here with oma every day. but... oma is old, I don't know how much longer the age of oma, if that time comes, when the oma is no longer with you, before that oma actually wants to see you live a happy life, enjoy your own life..."

Brill looked at the Susan with a slashing eye but reluctantly responded to Susan's long sentence.

"Oma will regret for a lifetime if you don't achieve something for yourself... You must have Brill's dream, what will it be. It may still be stored in your heart, but you have to find out what you want the most..."

Brill leaned back his head against the couch, pondering on Susan's words, his eyes glaring, he dug into his own mind, did he ever have any desire for his life? Oma Susan had seen the pent-up potential in her so that she could play music and sing. Does he have an interest in deepening his musical abilities? Or deepen his singing ability?

He doubted if he should study again, ever since he got his first quitar, he had taken all the musical instrument courses he liked, he said, but he doesn't feel like he has the drive to add to his abilities or do anything in this area.

He had a problem defining what dreams he had, and he began to digest the concept that Susan explained, one day he had to live alone, with his own abilities, but where does he have to start? He's used to years of not thinking about what the future should be like.

"I have to what oma?"

"Do what you want..."

"There's nothing I want to do. I just want to go to Jakarta now."

Oma Susan returned smiling, the girl's influence was incredible.

"That you can do many times as you like. Nor should oma be accompanied..."

"Where can I not allow mami. mami dictator or what, strange. with his people he likes breakfast together while accepting their input, just like me... I have to follow all her wishes."

Brill complained with a hardened face with an angry harboring voice, the voice of a child who was confined but did not have the ability to escape to get the right to realize his own wishes but could not make a sound let alone rebel.

"Yes.oma is also not out of thought with the ways of your mother now, far from what oma taught and exemplified... But. oma wants to tell you one important thing..."

Brill only glanced for a while, ora Susan continued to tell stories about her life slowly, did not want to suppress Brill, only shared the experience, who knew her granddaughter could open her mind.

"The father of the oma is very hard and disciplined. In the era of oma the parents beat their children with rattan is common, it happens that the most active oma among the sister, so oma really like to join the organization here and there, so, as a result, he likes to go home late at night and often neglects oma duties at home. Papa and mom do not have ART and the children have an obligation to do household chores. Oma was most often hit with rattan, beaten until her blue skin swelled, sentenced to stand for hours, punished for doing all the work at home, very embarrassed at that time.Oma felt that papa was a cruel parent and did not have the same affection oma..."

"Oma ran away from home. did not want to go to school again, finally oma to Manado. to live oma was forced to work, because there is no diploma of Oma High School can not apply in offices, can not apply in, so the working oma became a shoe store keeper, once a cloth shop keeper, a restaurant employee. Until finally papa died, oma came home and regretted only being able to hear papa's message, that papa just wanted to educate oma to be a child who understands life. Brother and sister oma. they can get a good job and oma regret for not finishing school, more regret for not hearing the same papa..."

Oma's hand rubbed her grandson's hair back at the top of the head.

"The cruelty of parents is that no parent will give a stone when his son asks for bread, or gives a snake when he asks for a fish..."

"I mean oma?"

"Any parent always wants the best for his children, even though they cannot know the right wishes of the child but they certainly will not plunge the child on the wrong thing... papi and your mama are distracted with all their affairs, but they still want you to have a good life later..."

"So I have to follow my mother's will again?"

"If you have no desire of your own, why not try? Thanks to the child in the future depends also on the attitude of the child who respects parents... and according to the oma it has an impact on the life of the oma now... including you..."

"I haven't been anything oma..."

"But it wants to be something, right? For your life's sake only.not for the sake of your mom or your daddy..."

Brill remembered a piece of his conversation with Rilly...

¤ flashback ¤

"Have you ever wanted to go to college?"

"Udah can't..."

"But what's that wish?"

"Oh yeah, but Rilly's afraid to hope..."

"Why?"

"Because Rilly's situation isn't possible, Rilly doesn't stand a chance. Brill had. Brill was supposed to go to college..."

"For what? It's no use to me..."

"Of course, for Brill's own life, no one knows the future..."

"If there's a chance you'll go to college, Ril?"

"Yes.want..."

¤ End ¤

Something rose in his heart.The two different generations of women had the same view for him, he had to do something for his own life. Something began to grow in his heart, a seed named dream had been watered by two women through their simple sentences. An invisible seed that is directing Brill's heart to reach for something in him.

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🪧 The right word at the right time can be the best motivation for someone.

🪧 Everyone has a dream.The dream may still be hidden, not yet realized or recognized. Dreams can be destroyed or developed.maybe we can trigger the growth of a dream or even make the dream die...

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Happy greetings to all...

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