Heaven Under Husband's Foot

Two Beloved Bima

To Orange, the woman who managed to snatch my heart from the moment I first saw her in the 1-1 class, thank you for all the memories you've given me all along. I'm Abimana or what you used to call Nawa, now we can't be together like I used to expect.

I would love to marry you, to live happily in a household with four children, two women and two men. I want us to live together in a place far away from the city, a place of peace with green grass surrounding our home.

But honey, I was diagnosed with cancer by a doctor after I successfully proposed to you, the doctor said that my life might not be long. I started to despair at that moment, until I finally thought about canceling our marriage.

You've lost both your parents, and I don't want you to be sad about losing me either. But in the end I still want to marry you, and an accident happened that made me have to be hospitalized for a long time.

The accident made me think, maybe I should get away from you so that there is no more sadness. And yes, I faked my death as Nawa and lived by the name of Bima again. I try to forget you and wait for the time of my death to come.

For several months I was hospitalized without telling anyone, only Zara knew at the time. And I'm grateful that Zara helped me keep everything a secret from my parents. Right after three months of my treatment, I decided I wanted to meet my mom and sister.

I realized that I had to meet them in my last days, for twenty years I didn't even find out about them. And when I got back, it turned out that my dear sister was married. And who would have thought he married the woman I've loved all along.

For the first time I felt like I wanted to stay alive, I wanted to see you for a little longer. But on the one hand reality made me realize that my presence was actually meaningless. Therefore I want to keep using the name Bima to lie to you.

The day I found out that Arkana was being rude to you and causing you to be in the most critical condition, I was very angry and almost wanted to tell you who I really was. But I kept my patience and held him back, I saw that you already loved Arkana and forgave all his mistakes. And I also have to accept all that, because that's your best choice right?

My condition is getting worse by the day, I rarely see you again. After I found out you disappeared after giving birth it was really painful. I had to postpone my treatment to find you, I wanted to do something before I died.

And when I found you, it was stupid that I kept you from staying. I selfishly kept you away from Arkana, making baseless lies. I actually turned into a scary guy back then, you must be pissed off by me.

In the end, I told doctor Ririn to give my heart to you. My life won't be long, even if I have surgery, it won't make me recover. So I'd love to do something meaningful for you, my heart will remain in you. Wherever you go, I will always be there. So please, stay alive, be happy with Arkana and Keenan.

**

To my dear sister, Arkana.

We have only been together for ten years since you were born, after which we separated for twenty years. When we met for the first time, your attitude was very rude and surely you hated me right? But you should know, I may not be the best brother to you. But you are the best sister for me.

Can I say rude?

You son of a bitch, what kind of man are you? being gentle with a girl can't be? Just be careful if you are still wicked Orange, once you hurt him, I will never forgive you.

I love you both, so please take care of Orange for me. Make her smile continue to expand, do not let her cry, pain, or loneliness. Orange likes to look at the twilight sky, he likes sweet food, he hates dark and insects, he likes to chat, he does not like excessive shopping so just enough.

You have to promise, watch out for me.

And about mama, I'd like to ask for a toolog with you. Mama is sick, she has Bipolar which might interfere with her health. I haven't had time to take her for treatment, so I want you to help mommy for her to heal.

Mom is so stubborn, I know everything. But I believe, behind all that, mama must be easy to ignore. He just needs a helping hand, so don't leave him alone. I'm sending my mom to you.

**

Everything Bima said was very painful, they could not even speak anymore. Bima's message of course they will listen, but it feels so heavy now to release people as good as Bima who have to go first.

“ Mas, we postpone our departure for a week. True what Nawa said, we should help your mama recover. “ Orange Sahut after he finished with his sadness.

“ But persuade mama it is not easy, if it is easy, already long ago he tried to recover.”

“ What's the difference with you mas.?”

Arkana was silent at the orange's words just now, she realized that before she was very difficult to change. But he begins to change when the orange manages to snatch his heart.

“ Alright, if you really want to help mama to heal. We try to do it.” Reply Arkana later.

**

The next day, Jingga and Arkana came to take Keenan also to Widya's mother's house. They think that bringing Keenan will make Widya's mother's heart melt, however Keenan is the only grandchild in the family.

When Mama Widya looks so lonely, there used to be some people who are on guard but now it is no longer. And when Arkana and Orange arrived, they were greeted by bi Ijah.

“ Den Arka, non Orange, den Keenan, jeez. Aunty has long wanted to see you three.”

“ Mom where bi.?” Arkana asked a glance inside the house that felt so cold just from the outside.

“ Mistress has never come out of den room, it has been almost two weeks.” Reply Bi Ijah.

“ I can enter right bi? I want to talk to mama.”

“ Actually the madam forbids anyone to enter, but because I was already worried about the state of the mistress and that person is den Arka. So I may, please come in.”

The three of them began to enter the house until the family room, Arkana asked Jingga to wait there while he climbed up to see his mother.

Arkana was a little nervous and afraid that her efforts would only be in vain, but in the depths of her heart, she was so eager to help her mother out of her troubles.

Now that Arkana was standing in front of Widya's room door, she knocked three times before opening the door and glancing into the room.

“ Ma, this is Arka.”