Handsome CEO Shadow Wife

Just Want to be Loved

The two waited for an answer and looked at Om Mirko with a questionable gaze, while the man smiled while cleaning all the equipment.

"Where's my wife, Om? He's all right, right?"

Om Mirko patted Dirga on the shoulder. "Much better," said the middle-aged man as he extended his hand to Dirga, "happy Dirga. You will soon become a father" continued Om Mirko staring at the surprised faces of the two in turn.

"What do you mean, Om, Dhatu?"

Om Mirko nodded. Dirga immediately turned his head towards his wife, happiness implied clearly on the beautiful face of Dhatu. Dirga immediately hugged the woman tightly.

"Thank you, Honey. It's the most beautiful gift." Haru's tears began to fall and wet Dirga's cheeks. His heart was filled with joy.

Dhatu shed the same tears. Both feel so happy. Unexpectedly behind the bad news, they even received happy news. The two hugged tightly and cried sobbing. The sight before it warmed Om Mirko's heart, a smile engraved on both corners of Om Mirko's lips. He now began to understand why Dirga's mother hated Cana so much.

On the other hand, in the doorway a woman was observing the two with an envious gaze. His tears flowed more and more, the tightness in his chest as if killing him slowly. He did not know, whether the feeling that enveloped the heart was just an obsession or indeed such a feeling called love. A taste he never knew before. A sense that should never have existed, so that he could become like his old self, heartless and thinking only about money.

***

Early in the morning, Kana said goodbye to Dhatu and Dirga. He would no longer deny, he had long lost. Kana said an apology repeatedly. He knows that he does not deserve to be forgiven. Perhaps no one will apologize to him, a sinner who only knows what is around him.

"I hope you find your happiness, Kana," Dhatu said as he let go of his embrace, "didn't you say that you have found your dream again? It's time to make it all happen" Dhatu continued, rubbing Kana's arm.

Kana smiled listening to Dhatu's words. Seeing the eye gaze between Dhatu da Dirga also made him feel so lonely. His life was so dark that he could not see the light around him. He is guilty, fate too cruel to him or maybe he is too stupid? If only, he did not release the love that is either real or just pseudo, then he will be happy. He doesn't have to act crazy like this right now, does he?

"Thank you for everything and once again, forgive me." Kana said, then glanced at Dirga, "Mas .. I'm sorry," he continued. Kana's tears fell again.

"Without being asked, I have forgiven you, Kana. Live as a righteous person, and you will find the happiness you have been looking for. Happy, don't have to hurt anyone else, Kana."

Kana smiled softly. Kana never knew what it meant to be happy because she never once felt that feeling. Does happiness feel like a sense of pleasure that he feels when he can shop for a lot of expensive items? No, because after shopping and reassembling these items, he again felt alone, his heart was empty, and all he could do was stare blankly at all his groceries. In the end, he realized, if the polished appearance in such a way he did just to cover up the loneliness in the heart, as a cover to hide his sadness.

"I'll do my best" Kana said, smiling.

"You can occupy that apartment for as long as you want. After all, the place is unused. Every day for these two months, Bi Ina will come there and help clean up your residence. I want you to know that you're not alone anymore."

"Thank you very much, Mommy." Kana then gazed towards Dhatu, "Still a lot, Tu. I'll be happy in my own way" he continued.

They're all separated. Dhatu and Dirga stared at the woman's departure. They hoped that, this time, Cana would find her own happiness, just as Dhatu and Dirga were happy. Both of them hope, Kana can see more beauty around her. The world is not as cruel as the woman thought.

***

*If you hear this message, I'm dead. Yes, Dirga. I want to leave this cruel world. A place where there was never any love for me. Maybe that's how I am. From the beginning of birth, until this crazy decision, there was never any love in my life.

You remember, when I told you that love is bullshit and you kept convincing, if it felt real. Your feelings for me. You are right and I am wrong.

Know it? I'm tired of being the one who's never been loved. Solitude pierced my soul and humiliation sliced through my skin, leaving a deep sense of pain.

Do you think I'm being too dramatic now? But that's how life is, that's how I am. The melodramatic dork. It's okay Dirga. This isn't all your fault. I am too weak. I am happy in my own way. Leaving this world, means no longer feeling alone, no longer need to cry when the silence hugs my soul tightly. Everyone has their own way of being happy and this is the way I choose.

Thank you for being present in my life. If one day, life is real again, then I just want to be a loved one.

Goodbye, Dirga*.

Dirga dropped his phone. Yesterday, after Kana left. Dhatu and Dirga turn off their phones, both of them decide to enjoy togetherness. Take time to celebrate the children of those present in the womb of Dhatu. They do many things and do not care about the flat objects that have become the gods of many human beings in this day and age. More people prefer to spend time with a mobile phone than other humans, until both decide to have quality time without a gadget.

Who would have thought that decision had even made them listen to the bad news. Dhatu who heard the voice message was unable to hold back his tears. How could the woman have committed suicide? Didn't Kana say yesterday that she would be happy in her own way. Is death not the way to find happiness? How can anyone think that death is better than life? Death means you have no chance to atone for sin, lose the chance to make things right. No one in this world should feel that death is better than life.

Death ... means you lose everything. Including the love you're waiting for.

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