Guardians of the Heart #2

Chapter 5

It's been almost a month since that night and I haven't been reunited with the Lieutenant, there's a guilty feeling when I remember that night. I'm angry at myself, why would I be like that? It's like it wasn't me. I told this to Arga and he was also disappointed that I acted that way.

“If I had heard him yell at you, I would also be angry at the same rich Lieutenant, Key! all this time Dad, your brothers, Lieutenant, me, none of us ever yelled at you. And now that she feels like your girlfriend, she dares to yell at you?!”

“He's like that out of jealousy, Ga.” I'm still defending Rey, even though I know it's wrong.

“Jealous not to be angry and yell, Key. I'm asking now, has Lieutenant ever been angry with you because of jealousy? No, Key, even though I know he's jealous of me because it's more your way than his. But he understands that, he believes more in me than he tells you to take an angkot, taxi or motorcycle taxi, or motorcycle taxi, and now your new boyfriend would rather you take a midnight taxi than your own friends who have won the trust of both your parents.

“But he apologized, Ga, tomorrow he apologized and admitted that he was wrong, he also sent me flowers.”

“You like receiving flowers from him?”

“Ya, like.”

“You directly sorry him?”

“It is, Ga, anyways it is not a big deal, it is important he has already apologized.”

“Not a big deal? Remember, Key, because of this problem you lost the most valuable person, the person who protected you the most from anyone, he said, and I'm sure that he is the man who loves you the most on this earth.

I took a deep breath remembering Arga's words when I told her about the events of that night. Every time I receive a message I open it hoping it's from the Lieutenant, but it's not and it's disappointing to me, but I'm also too stubborn and embarrassed to call him first.

I am currently standing in front of the Be D’Sign office located at Jl. Braga-Bandung where I worked this week was waiting for Dirga who picked me up, but instantly my eyes were wide when I saw the 7 o'clock ninja motor that I knew stopped in front of me.

“Dirga again there is a lecture assignment,” he said while handing the helmet to me.

With my heart running I put on a helmet and climbed on the bike...Oh my God, I was really awkward at that time, what should be the handle behind the rich motorcycle taxi man? Just grab her jacket, or hug her?

“Handle,” he said coldly made me doubtfully hold his jacket.

Not a word said from our mouths, only the roar of the motorbike accompanied the night's journey. I was still sitting awkwardly and wanting to say an apology, but that simple word turned out to be very heavy to say.

Several times I opened my mouth to say it but until the bike stopped in front of the fence, the word was not spoken. I got off the bike and handed over the helmet I was wearing.

“Later, if your guy calls him home who is it? Just say the taxi driver,” he said as he prepared to leave.

“Sorry!!” I shouted to make him brake his motor, “Sorry, I was wrong.. I should not have been angry yesterday with Mas Yudha, I should not have vented my frustration with Mas Yudha, I should not have spoken like that.”

I looked at him who was also looking at me on the motorbike, for a while he was silent before finally speaking.

“Key, I don't mean to interfere in your personal affairs or hinder your happiness, no! It never crossed my mind to do that. I'm excited to hear you already have a lover.”

“Mas Yudha is happy to hear I already have a lover?” I asked him not to believe what I just heard.

“Iya, I'm happy even though I'm disappointed.”

She smiled slightly as she said that and I could really see the disappointment in her eyes.

“I'm happy because it's a sign that your heart is back in one piece, and whoever that man is I should thank him for healing your heart. But I am also disappointed because the man is not me. I am also disappointed because it is a sign that you have completely forgotten me as you said yesterday, now I am nobody else to you.”

“It's not like that I mean.. I say it when being emotional.”.

“I swear, I didn't mean it that way!” I said in a trembling voice almost crying realizing my mistake that night, and like Arga said maybe I'm really going to lose it now.

“Hey, why cry?”

“Hik-hik... Mas Yudha does not want to forgive me! Don't believe me! hik-hik.”

Now I'm really crying, I don't know why in front of him I always show my weaknesses and shortcomings, I'm angry, I'm whiny, I'm stubborn, I'm like a child, I'm like a child, he knew it all and I never hid it from him.

“Have not been crying, it is not good to look neighbor thought I wicked you.”

He now stood slightly bent over to wipe my tears.

“Mas Yudha is evil, don't want to forgive me! Though I have apologized, I really do not mean to say that Mas Yudha is nobody, hik-hik .. Mas Yudha is also a lie! He said he wanted to be the guardian of my heart, but Mas Yudha was even angry and did not want to see me just because I was emotional again. hik-hik.”.

The Lieutenant wiped my tears again, his hands holding my cheeks raised to look at him who was smiling at me.

“Without you asking me to be the guardian of your heart as I promised you, until I meet a man I can truly trust to care for and love you. And all this time I didn't come not because I was angry with you, Key, but I had a job out and just came home this afternoon I went straight home and came here, mom said you were working now so I went to pick you up.”

I was silent for a moment while looking at him, “It's not because I was angry that night?”

“To be honest I was also angry and disappointed with you that night, Key, but I promised at the airport that I would always be by your side even if your heart was no longer mine, and I will keep that promise. All that can be held from a man is his speech, remember that, Key.”

I was silent at his words, there was a feeling of peace in my chest when I realized that he would always be next to me to look after me making me smile then nodding in understanding, and had stopped crying.

“So yesterday there was a task?” I asked while removing the remains of tears on the cheeks.

“Iya.”

“Where?”

“Hmmm... confidential.” She smiled as she said that and I understood that which meant that I could not ask any further questions about her duties.

“Tomorrow holidays?” he asked who answered a nod of encouragement by me.

“Mamah nanyain, he said you have returned to Indonesia but have never met Mamah.”

“Astagfirullahaldzim! Everyone wants to go there must not be mulu, continue to rush to work, say to Mamah sorry, tomorrow I go home deh.”

The Lieutenant nodded in understanding as he climbed onto his motorcycle and put on a helmet.

“Already, do not cry anymore ugly know already big also still crybaby. If your guy knows you're a crybaby he must have run away.”

I just looked down embarrassed to hear it, “I cried because Mas Yudha was angry with me.”

“Hahaha... who's angry, who's wrong, iiiihhhh.” He ruffled my hair.

I really miss her so much that she ruffles my hair gently every time we meet after becoming friends. I used to probably always miss hugs and romantic words from her mouth, but now I miss such a simple act. I kept seeing his departure until the bike was out of sight before finally coming inside with a smile on my face.

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