Guardians of the Heart #2
Chapter 20
I was surprised when Mr. Rahmat, my supervisor at the office said that our office will cooperate with the design house from Yogyakarta for the resort project in Tanjung Lesung - Banten. And now standing in front of me Mas Raihan was equally surprised when he saw me. At first we felt awkward but we had to remain professional when it came to work, but still I could not look at him directly because as if reminded of Widy, the woman who made my dreams fall apart.
After work I immediately contacted the Lieutenant to tell him the big news, but his reaction was only…
“Oooh.”
“Oh only? No surprise?”
“Regularly.”
“Aah..niesel deh back and forth directly story, whereas from noon I can't wait to tell.”
“Hahaha... seneng dong meet Raihan again.”.
“Engga, regular aja.”
“Ciee.. meet the fans, his name is the same again rich guy Tukul... be careful ah, Key.”
“Iiih... fans fuck.”.
“Raihan will like your ma.”
“Hah! How did Mas Yudha know?”
“Sesama the guy can see that the guy again likes the same girl.”
“Oooh... Mas Yudha jealous?”
“Why jealous, who likes him is not you.”
“Ckk... Mas Yudha mah never jealous.”.
“You like ma Raihan?”
“Hmm.. ordinary aja.”
“If you like her, then I'm jealous.”
“I like Rey but Mas Yudha is also usually not jealous, even twinkle.”
“I'm jealous, Za, but I also know that I have no right to it. Now we're just friends while she's your boyfriend… and didn't I promise that I would be the guardian of your heart? So how can as the guardian of your heart I take care of my own feelings, which I have to deal with that your feelings are not my feelings.”
I was silent to hear his words.
“Because Mas Yudha likes to ask if I am happy?”
“Yes, because for me the most important thing is your happiness.”
“Mas Yudha should also think of the happiness of Mas Yudha himself.”
“Let's relax, Za, I'm already happy enough to play with the crybaby.”
“Chiih!”
“Hahaha.”
“If Mas Raihan ngajak Kekey chat how?”
“Hahaha.. ya chat, time to run.”.
“But every look he inget the same.. former fiance Mas Yudha.”.
“He has nothing to do, Key.”
“Is his Brother.”
“But he doesn't know about.. it's all.”
“Seriously don't know what pretend not to know, we don't know the truth.”
“He really does not know, Key, he is as shocked as me and Kak Dimas when he heard it, Widy also initially did not know until finally.
“Ckk.
“And their selfishness is what makes us like this.”
“Yes, their selfishness that made our love both shattered.”
We are speechless to remember the events where our love, hope and dreams of the future were shattered in just a short time because of someone's lies and selfishness.
“Ya already, you are mediocre with her. To be honest I can trust Raihan more than the Tukul.”.
“Kok, can?”
“He sincerely likes you, Key, I can see it is different from the pretence-filled Tukul. Anyway if he's not a good person do you think Kak Dimas can be friends with him until now? So you don't have to worry, just calm down ok? We bet he'll be far away feeling guilty every time we see you.”
And the Lieutenant's guess was right, I thought I was the only one who couldn't look him in the eye, but for a different reason. I am with my anger while he is with his guilt.
Until finally we were in position not to avoid each other, me and some of my colleagues who were assigned to the project this time should be under the leadership of Mas Raihan as Team Leader, we often meet for meetings or discussions. Like at this time we just finished a meeting and Mas Raihan deliberately held me in the meeting room together with him.
“Sorry, I don't know your true relationship with Yudha.”
“Nothing, Mas, it's over.”
“You guys... not back together?”
For the first time I looked him in the eye and I could see guilty eyes there.
“What Mas Raihan thought I would return to him after his betrayal with... sister, Mas Raihan?”
She looked at me for a moment and then bowed, her hand playing the ballpoint pen she was holding.
“At this time we are friends but no more .. Our hearts are both broken because of that incident, even though I tried to rearrange it but it was difficult and I did not know if it would come back the way it was or not. The betrayal for women is the cruelest thing, she said, although it may be forgiving but believe me we will not forget it.”
He looked back at me with the same guilty look.
“Force us, it's our fault.. Yudha is innocent, she.. only victim.”.
“Yes, he is indeed only a victim of the selfishness of the Mas Raihan family, but still.. he betrayed me, excuse me.”.
I stood up and walked towards the door when I heard him say, again,
“One more time on behalf of my family, I'm sorry.”
I was silent saying nothing just to leave him alone. Wicked? I know, but believe me, forgiving and apologizing is just as hard.
The moment when I came out of the office I was surprised by the Lieutenant who was chatting with Mas Raihan, the Lieutenant who realized my presence now looked at me with a smile his hand was directly stretched out to stroke my head as usual, as if it was our new ritual every time we met.
“Past time yes, later we chat again.”
“Cautious.”
“Akrab really,” said when we had started splitting the crowded streets of Braga that afternoon.
“Kan knows, do not know nyapa.”
“Say you want to chat with ex-sister-in-law.”
“Hahaha, former sister-in-law.” candidate
He emphasized the word candidate made me cluck, then hugged his waist, leaning my head on his back. Like I used to inhale the fragrance of his body as if to replenish the energy I had spent today.
“So I also talked to Mas Raihan.”
The Lieutenant was silent listening to me tell a story behind his back.
“She's sorry, but I haven't been able to forgive them for ruining our dreams, and making me. I can't trust Mas Yudha like I used to.”.
“I understand,” said the Lieutenant, “Because to be honest I also have not been able to forgive them.”
I nodded at her back because I understood that until now she had not been able to forgive her ex-fiance's family. That night we spent the rest of our journey in silence, the presence of Mas Raihan as if to recall the events of the past that was almost buried, as if, also reminding me of the pain and anger that once plagued this heart.
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