Guardians of the Heart #2

Chapter 14

“Now you notice why Brother Dimas always tells you to be careful with guys? What else do you just know?”

Right now I am with my brothers and sisters gathering in the living room while my parents are away. Kak Dimas who was there a raker in Bandung was surprised to hear what happened to me and immediately lectured me along with Mas Juang who was on duty in Bandung.

“Iya,” I replied while bowing to realize my mistake.

“There is already a person in front of the eyes who is clearly good, unfortunately not only the same you but all our families as well, his parents are also very fond of you rich children themselves, too, but still another nyari,” said Mas Juang made me more down while drawing an invisible tangled ball with my fingers on a sofa pillow.

“That's why Dirga didn't like it when Brother said that brother already has a guy in Japan, where talking in front of Mas Yudha again will pity him.”

“Inya is also ordinary when I heard I have a girlfriend.”

“So you want him to go berserk?” tanya Mas Juang made me go back to being silent, “Or did you deliberately tell him to make him jealous?”

“No.”

“You don't need to ask her as jealous as she is, but she's not the hammer who will curse and hurt you out of jealousy.”

“Do not know, Mas Juang is not here so how can I know if he is jealous or not." I whispered softly while bowing down for fear of hearing Mas Juang who would have been even more furious if I heard him say that.

“Kak Dimas knows you still want to have fun by getting to know a lot of people.but be careful, not all men like Arga or Yudha will take very good care of you, who will succumb to your stubbornness. Many********* out there, Key, you have to be more selective from now on because your age should also think about finding a partner for your future not only for fun especially just for an outlet.”

I fell silent, Brother Dimas who is smooth when speaking different words with Kak Juang who is hard, and, but it even made me more afraid and obedient to Kak Dimas than Mas Juang who usually ended up fighting.

“Sometimes we do not realize that there is someone valuable in front of us and even bother looking far.”

“True!” exclaimed Mas Juang and Dirga heard Kak Dimas' words, making me look at them annoyed.

“I know kok!”

“If you know why even dating Tukul?”

“I... I'm afraid that I will get hurt again like before,” I said slowly making them look at each other in silence, “You don't know what made us break up first? What if it happens again? I won't be able to get up again if it happens again.”

“We know, Key, we know what happened between Yudha and Widy.”

“You know?” I just can't believe it.

“Kak Dimas was there that day, when he found out the truth.”

“How can Brother be there?” I'm still staring at Brother Dimas in disbelief.

“You remember that on the day of your departure Brother has an appointment?”

I remember remembering that day.

“The promise is to accompany the Raihan family to discuss the wedding date with the family of Widy's future husband. That day he was so enraged when he learned the truth that the Reihan family was trying to hide from him, Big Brother could see he was trying to hold back his anger when he found out that he had been lied to and used by them all along. He said that because of them he had lost the woman he loved the most, brother could see how devastated he was back then for losing the person he loved and Brother was even more shocked as he loudly shouted your name as the love of his life, not only that but you can also see the look of affection when mentioning Father, Mother, Juang, even he called Dirga as our little sister… that's when big brother found out how much he loves you and our family.”

My throat was choked to hear the story of Brother Dimas.

“And look at him now, he still stands beside you as a friend and takes care of you despite knowing you have a lover. Do you still not understand how hurt and jealous he was then when you found out you had forgotten him by having another lover? But he put his feelings aside, he still supports you no matter what.”

I became more silent with the increasingly heated throat made my eyes start to tear. Brother Dimas stroked my back gently as he said,

Now everyone is silent and I know now everyone is looking at me wishing I had said something, but I don't know what to say.

“Slow-only, Key.” I looked at Mas Juang who was looking at me with a smile, “We know your heart must have been broken back then and at this time may not have returned completely, so while waiting for your heart to come back intact slowly you make sure again about your feelings and look for answers from the question Kak Dimas earlier... I will only give you one question, can you really live without it? Think it over carefully.”

Mas Juang patted my shoulder gently making me smile at him because that question was the one that had been stuck in my heart the most all along.

“Dirga also has one question.”

We were all looking at Dirga who looked very serious looking at me.

“If you are back with Mas Yudha, ask her... Can you not have her leather jacket for me?”

“Euuh! Batur keur tea slave is serious! (Basic of small children, more serious people)”

Mas Juang immediately clicked on Dirga who grimaced in pain.

“I'm serious too!” dirga said while stroking his head.

The new Mas Juang will again catch Dirga when the front door opens along with greetings from the sound that always makes my chest beat great.

“Assalamualaikum.”

“Wa’alaikumsalam.”

The lieutenant stood handsomely with a leather jacket and a smile on his face as he greeted us all, but his smile disappeared as his eyes glazed over.

“You cry?” his worry-filled questioning made me want to cry even more, maybe he was right when I was with him I would be whiny and spoiled, but I didn't care.

“Why? Her hand hurts again?”

I shook my head then looked at my brothers, making the Lieutenant fold his hands in front of his chest and stare at them intimidatingly.

“Not Dirga! Mas Juang tuh who made Brother cry!” Dirga stood with a scared face when he saw the Lieutenant who looked at him sharply, after seeing Dirga escape he now looked at Mas Juang who looked wrong then stood up.

“Not Juang... Kak Dimas!” Mas Juang-pun immediately fled into the room like Dirga earlier.

“Ah! Brother Dimas forgot, Brother hasn't packed for night tar.” Brother Dimas even escaped into the room leaving me who immediately laughed to see them all run away like that just because of the death gaze of the Lieutenant.

“So why cry?” I asked after sitting next to me.

I was silent to see him for a moment, indeed he was extremely handsome with sharp eyes, a sharp nose, thick eyebrows and a sturdy jaw overgrown with short beards made me stroke him, making him slightly jerked in surprise, I smiled as I felt a tingle in the palm of my hand.

I looked into his eyes eagerly I answered that question with ‘because I miss you, miss you so much, Mas Lieutenant.’ But what came out of my mouth was.

“Because I'm crybaby and spoiled like a child.”

She clucked with a smile then ruffled my hair as usual.

One day I will say it out loud if I miss him, but for now I am not ready and still have to strengthen my heart again.

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