Guardians of the Heart #2
Extra Part 1
Yumkim, pov
Bandung, 2017
This is the day, the day of the return of women I have longed for to my homeland after several months living abroad. Of course I had a big hand until the woman decided to leave her family, friends, friends and homeland… by keeping and making her happy, even though I had to sacrifice my own happiness.
A few months of not seeing it made my longing unstoppable again, I ran my bike as fast as I could. Imagining meeting her again made a smile not separated from my face, although I knew she might not welcome my arrival like before.
And my guess was right, he just looked at me in disbelief when he saw my arrival while I wanted to hug him tightly to channel my longing. But I know now I have no right to it.
I tried to be as habitual as possible to get rid of the awkwardness between us, trying to behave like a friend, including when he said that he had a lover in Japan.
When I heard that I even stopped chewing the dinner that Mom had prepared for us. Is that how quickly he can forget me? Is that how quickly he can turn to another man? Me and the stupidity of my time make me have to accept this harsh reality, if now he is not mine anymore.
I'm disappointed, of course, jealous? Don't ask me how jealous I am when I hear it, but I have promised to be beside him as a guardian of my heart even though it is no longer mine.
What kind of man has been able to heal his heart that was wounded because of me? Is he a good guy? Can he protect her? Can he always rely on her? Is he willing to sacrifice for her?
“He's good, he always makes me a top priority in his life,” his reply makes me a little calm although with a hurt heart hearing him praise the other man in front of me.
But it turned out that the man wasn't as good as he told me, how could I calm down after hearing him yell at the woman I love and the woman I'm trying to guard her heart just for some absurd reason. If he were in front of me I would make sure he would no longer be able to breathe calmly!
You know what I'm disappointed about other than knowing that the man she's now in contact with is an asshole?
Yes, he defended her.he defended the man's guilt, as if it was commonplace when a man who was in fact just a lover dared to yell at and scold the woman he should have cared for and loved.
What when people fall in love they will be that million to consider unnatural things to be natural? Or is he angry just to channel the anger that is still hidden in me? I don't know, for sure I was disappointed and angry at that time to make me physical exercise at midnight just to channel emotions.
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For more than two weeks I did not meet him, not because I was angry until I wanted to from him but because of the task I had to take. I was grateful because after the incident that night I immediately got a task that could take my mind off the problem.
But the heart can not be denied even though he was disappointed, not meeting him for two weeks makes me miss him very much. And didn't I promise to always be by her side to look after her?
With that thought after my duty straight to Padjadjaran, upon arrival at his house I saw Dirga was preparing to go on his motorcycle.
“Where are you?”
“Eh, Mas... usual so the motorcycle Brother.”
“Emang Kekey where?”
“Kakak now works at Braga.”
I nodded in understanding, “Let Mas Yudha pick up your Brother,” I said as I turned the motor back on and immediately slid towards the address Dirga gave me.
From a distance I saw him standing in front of a design office, my longing was erased even though I had to be satisfied just by looking back at him looking at me in disbelief when I stopped in front of him.
“Dirga has a college assignment he can not pick up,” I said while handing over the helmet to him.
Along the way he just fell silent even as if he was reluctant to hold on to me. Is he still angry? I know his nature, he's not the type of person who will dissolve in anger but is it possible that he has now changed? Or is he just like that to me for not being able to forgive my mistakes?
“Sorry!” the thrill made me stop the bike after lowering it in front of the house. “I didn't mean it that way.” His voice began to tremble with teary eyes making me smile inwardly.
Ahh.. It turns out that he has not changed still spoiled, whiny and stubborn! He's the one who's angry but says I'm the one who's angry.... hehehe, adorable isn't it? Ah was anxious for me to hug her that night but I have to remember my position now, so all I can do is ruffle her hair, for now that simple thing is more than enough for me.
From the incident that night I could see that there were still feelings stored for me, even though he tried to hide as hard as he could.
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I feel like she's getting more comfortable with me, whether as a friend, a best friend or maybe even a sister. But I don't care what he thinks of me as long as he's by my side, I like him, I like it when he whines forcing me to drive him anywhere while I'm on holiday including buying clothes, hehehe, he's spoiled, it's a little boy, but I like it.
“Which one, this (she put a light blue long dress in front of her body) or this?"
“Not the same huh?” I asked as I stared at the two clothes on his left-right hand that I thought resembled only one of his older colors.
“Different dong, this one is slanted in front, this one is in the back, the same color flowers are also different, keep this hand there are buttons that are not there buttons only use rubber.”
I was silent at his explanation but still I thought it was the same.
“Ya already that's it.. the seleting in front so you easily use it is not complicated.”.
“This one?”
“Iya.”
He looked back at the two clothes looking thoughtfully.
“Yakin this one?” He asked again as he moved the clothes in his right hand that I had chosen.
“Iya.”
“But I don't like the flower motif. The motive of this bagusan trus hand is buttoned so more funny.” He moved the clothes on his left hand making me raise an eyebrow.
“Ya that's it.”
“Which one? This one or this one?”
I sighed before finally answering, “That one,”I pointed to the one on the left making her smile widely.
“Ok!”
Oh God!! What's with your creature on this one? if he wants the left he shouldn't have to ask anymore, and I can only sigh while shaking my head at his behavior.
****
The second day of the year coincided with his birthday, he thought I forgot to be seen from the shock on his face when I said my gratitude to the Mother who had given birth and raised him as now.
But not only was she surprised, I was surprised by her introducing a man who turned out to be her lover. My heart is heating up but I am trying to behave as usual.This is another punishment I must accept for my mistake, and the risk I had to take because of my promise to protect and be by his side despite what happened.
A few minutes of sitting down and talking to the man allowed me to judge his character that he would not be a match for him. He was too arrogant which of course would have no effect on me, the more arrogant he was the more I was happy to take him down. Ah, he was wrong looking for an opponent! Moreover, there is an Arga who will support me to bring him down.
It wasn't just his arrogance that made me dislike him, but he was the type of person who couldn't hold back emotions. If I may be arrogant, I have a strong enough instinct and can judge a person's character a little because that's why I can't trust the woman I love to a man like the hammer.
The next day the hammer invited me and Arga to lunch, not only us but Arga also invited Irene and Karin. That day I came along just to further confirm my assessment of the hammer, but my arrival had to be paid for by watching him kiss the cheek of the woman I love.
I regret my arrival, I shouldn't have come back then because it was too painful. Even though he promised to stay by his side even though his heart was no longer mine, but still I was just an ordinary human being who could feel the heartache when I saw the woman I loved being hugged and even kissed by another man in front of my own eyes.
So great is this the punishment that I have to live up to having to watch it all? It's better that I fight the enemy on the battlefield empty-handed than to have to watch it all, at least on the battlefield I can counter-punch and fight unlike now who can only remain silent with a wounded heart.
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Mixed ice for everything 😁
