Find you

episode 72 is trying to understand you

It turns out Raihan was just joking when he wanted to bathe Raisa.

he sat Raisa in closed, Raisa could not hide her nervousness and embarrassment, all of it implied through the face of Raisa who blushed red.Risa really did not wrinkle she could only lower her face, but she could only look down,the other hand holds the shirt and plays the tip of his shirt while his left hand he put on the side holding the closed side of his fingertip he moves to make the letter formless .

Raihan stood in front of Raisa while mischievous smile still adorning his lips

" i bathed myself yes.." with a little nervous Raisa asked.Raisa's face looks clear she bit her lower lip she hopes Raihan will fulfill her request.

in his heart he said"It's easier if he faces ten thugs than it is to face a prize"

"but....." Raihan paused his sentence

"but what?" answer Raisa quickly

"you..must fulfill one request Brother?" with a stifled smile he wanted to tease Raisa, his nosy soul suddenly appeared

Raisa looked at the man in front of her she was really played by a handsome male figure who became her husband for almost two months

"what?"while rolling his eyes lazily, he knew Raihan would trap him with this request.

" later you haven't thought....you have one debt with Brother......?"Raihan said while pulling down his eyebrows

Raisa took a deep breath and threw it away violently, she turned her face lazy

" Son picked up the clothes that were given umik" Raihan turned around he walked outside with a big smile because it managed to make Raisa annoyed with him

Raisa was still sitting in the same place she saw the sky sky bathroom Raihan

in his heart he wondered if he should be at peace with his heart.

coming to terms with a situation that made her a little afraid to step up because of the shadow of the past.

"this is her shirt "Raihan put Raisa's change of clothes on the bathtub

Raisa who did not see Raihan's arrival felt surprised .

" don't take a long bath, just healed this?"

Raihan immediately went outside the bathroom he did not want long with Raisa in this place, he would be difficult to control his desire that he had been holding, Raisa only saw without answering

when the sound of "check" Raisa just moved from her seat she then began her ritual

when Raisa came out of the bathroom she did not see Raihan in the room, she walked to the balcony where she saw that on the balcony Raihan was not there.

Raisa walked back to the bed, she sat on the bed she circulated her gaze, recently she looked carefully at the contents of Raihan's room.

the correct room is neatly arranged, all objects are where they should be, the combination of wall colors painted with white and furniture made of teak wood in lacquer. Raisa was really amazed by the choice of raihan turned out to have a high artistic soul.

Raisa who was bored in the room decided to come out, she went down the stairs slowly, and, in looking around there was no one in this room except the figure of a woman who was sitting alone at the dining table while playing her hape.

Raisa walked over, hesitatingly sitting in front of a woman who was none other than cyanum.

" srek.." the sound of the chair that Raisa's sliding made the shanum turn his eyes, and,

syanum glanced at Raisa who was sitting in front of him, he refocused on his hape.

Raisa who saw the cyanum cuek to him getting confused should start the conversation from where.

he himself is difficult to get along with others what else someone who is already clearly not like it.

he could have ignored the cyanum, but seeing that they were now a family he could not ignore

Raisa who is confused to talk what prefers silence, she then also busies herself with her own hape.only the clockwork beats are heard in this room

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in the distance precisely in the pesantren mosque there were voices of students and leaders who were meeting through loudspeakers, those who had been appointed were discussing whether to talk about what.

"can you leave my brother" in a slightly low tone, he deliberately talked about this because it was the right moment to think of the shanum, they were alone.

Raisa who is focused on her hape is slightly jolted at the word syanum, she then looks at cyanum.she sees sadness in the beautiful eyes of cyanum

" i spoke as a sister who wanted happiness for my dearly beloved brother" she looked into Raisa's eyes hoping Raisa would see through her eyes how much she loved her brother.

" my brother is a perfect man and he should have a perfect woman as well" there was no anger in the heart of the shanum as he spoke, he just begged Raisa to let go of his brother

Raisa confused to answer what , she took a deep breath in she knew it would be difficult for people to accept her existence

" if I don't want to......" Raisa glanced at the cyanum at a glance, she circulated her gaze and looked at the very handsome photo of Raihan with her family

syanum gasped in shock at Raisa's reply he looked at Raisa with a look of disbelief.

"if I want to stay with her "Raisa looks back at the shanum

" didn't you not want it!?" syanum shook his head slowly, increasingly distrustful of what he heard, he looked into Raisa's eyes looking for the truth through those eyes.

he wanted to see through Raisa's eyes whether she was lying if she just wanted to play with her brother's heart.

"are you able to stand on equal footing with my brother in every way?"syanum looked sharply at Raisa he could not think of the woman in front of him.

"then why did you hang out with him?" syanum slightly pursed her lips as she spoke, she was also slightly stirred by emotions.

Raisa took a breath, in her heart she realized she would not be able to stand in line with Raihan...

Raisa was silent for a moment she noticed the slightly bewildered face of cyanum.

" you won't know.because you never felt it" Raisa rubbed her face with both hands.she tried to make peace with her heart,

" the pain will last forever here" while hitting his chest as if he wanted to let out the pain stored in his chest.

"you don't know... and never feel the pain when the people you love and love leave you for their own pleasure" Raisa can no longer hold tightness in her chest, a clear water fell on his cheek

"all your life you'll be away from the happiness that lies before your eyes"

" what's in your heart is hate"

the two of them were silent, only the sound of the ticking clock was heard in the room.

syanum was a little surprised to see Raisa crying, women who always look strong in front of anyone can cry too.it turns out as strong as any woman they are still a weak creature.

"i've been left behind and felt a lot of heartache, so to open my heart to the people around me is very difficult" Raisa's mind glared into a very painful past for her.

"i don't want anyone to feel like me" Raisa said.

" what's your girlfriend staying at?" finally, Syanum ventured to ask Raisa even though she hesitated a little because of her curiosity.

" i'm not going to share my life story with anyone else, what else does that person obviously hate me"

"i don't want people to pity me"

"i could have just walked away from your sister," Raisa took another deep breath

" can you guarantee that your brother will be okay?"

"maybe he'll look fine,"

" but do you know what his heart is"

Raisa notices the silent cyanum whose hand toying with the hape shows that if she doubts and worries, Raisa knows she just wants her brother to be happy.

" i just want my brother to get a woman who is equal to him."While squinting his eyes at Raisa.

"do you think I'm happy in this situation"

"Raihan the perfect male figure dreams of all women, all women hope to get his love," Raisa paused her sentence

" and I........" Raisa pointed to herself

" i'm the luckiest girl "

"a man as perfect as Raihan wants to love a depraved woman like me?"

"as a hypocritical woman if I don't want a man as perfect as Raihan "

"but here"Raisa again pointed to her chest

"i'm depressed "

"her love hurt me" Raisa closed her eyes again a clear water fell on her cheek.he took a deep breath, she wanted to take it all out at this moment...

"against ten thugs alone I dare !" Raisa was still looking at the cyanum who was also looking at her

" but to walk beside Raihan I need to gather a lot of courage ?"

" walking next to a man as perfect as Raihan made my confidence disappear instantly, I felt like trash while beside him.

"do you think I'm happy"

" you're wrong" while shaking his head.

" to repay his love I dare not"

"i have to suppress my strong feelings to keep this heart in place" there was sadness in the eyes of Risa who was trying to hide, and cyanum saw that.

"if perhaps half of this heart had become hers" in her heart Raisa said to herself.

"to do my duty as a wife I can't afford"

"because I don't want Raihan to get a girl like me"

" i know who I am"

" Raihan is too perfect for a woman like me" with a voice that sounds soft but still heard by the cyanum

Raisa looked at cyanum with glassy eyes.

"let the time define our relationship"

Raisa got up from her seat she stood up and left the shanum without saying anything else.

raisa feels sad.things she feared happened, she does not want to be hurt again.he does not want to be left .

when Raisa had left, she thought what had happened to Raisa, what she had gone through in the past, he has to find out and he has to know how.