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episode 25 of the guilt

pov raisa's

" Stop sa...what are you doing, you don't have the right to beat people like that, problems can be solved well, what is the problem?"

the words always burrowed in my ears, the soft and firm voice still heard clearly until now.

moreover, the disappointed look that he addressed to me when he asked about the truth of the photo, I justified it because it was me, making this chest hurt .is this not what I want and hope for .with him knowing my ugliness he will keep away from me... but that disappointed look was once again clearly drawn in my mind.the more I closed my eyes the more his face became clear.

what's with me ? the question came back to my heart.This is what I wanted. many times I convinced my heart .

with a single order my man has managed to delete the photo. now I'm here more isolated, the photo has already spread and some people have seen .they seem to sneer at me, but I don't care because I'm used to it .

I'm like this why do I have to be covered up? I am depraved for the size of a woman.

they can only blame without knowing the truth.they feel as if they are right, whether one's attitude and behavior can only be seen from the outside, but they don't see anything I can do.

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raisa is currently in semarang with sam as previously planned.he is now in the notary's office to sign the land transfer file and his house on behalf of the orphanage.

he did not want anyone to disturb this place one day, so he told sam to take care of this place immediately on behalf of the orphanage.

this house is his property obtained from the inheritance given by the grandmother to him.from this place is not useful he used to accommodate orphans and abandoned children.he also paid some people to take care of all the needs of the parlour..

it used to be that sustains the entire life of people who are in the orphanage, over time he finally thought to make an effort so that the life of the home does not depend on it,...sometimes he also has no money while the needs of children's lives depend on him, he is afraid if relying on the giving of children home could be lacking even hunger.

finally he had an idea to open a printing business and photo copy. moreover this place is very strategic .located close to the famous state campus in this Semarang city, this effort is a suitable choice.

at this time the orphanage is no longer relying on him, they are all well-off .printing efforts and this copy of the photo he named the orphanage .he did not want to interfere in his management he only watched if the manager was cheating, every month there was a section that sent a report to him.

he never even visited this home, only sam and sometimes aunt who took the time to come and check the condition of the home.

this printing is an orphanage business, the workers are children's orphanage, the, they are divided into several groups according to their schedule to go to school.they get a salary that may not be large but can be used as their allowance and for their daily needs this parlour is very spacious behind the orphanage there are several plots of rice fields whose crops can be used to feed them.

he kept Sam in charge of this home, he did not want someone to take advantage of this home that he built with great difficulty.

" we go to the parlour first? I wanna see them? "without talking sam turned his wheel towards the parlour.

" and let's go down" take sam to raisa

raisa gets off the car, her sight sweeps the whole parlour.Memory drifts into the past, back when she was a child she often came to see grandma with her father and mother , grandma lives alone until every weekend father and mother took the time to visit it.It has been almost fifteen years this place has not changed favorite place in the form of prosotan still stands tall ,swings made of wood also still standing there he remembered first he asked his grandmother to make swings and prostotan.

"i want a swing grandma"...

" i want proselytism" too"

" promise later if you come here again everything is already there" and grandma supports it

" there's a fish pond here, huh Grandma?"

he still remembered grandma nodding twice as a sign of agreeing to his request

a week later, Grandma called

" the swing is already sa"

"the proposal too"

" what fish would the pond be in? let aunt buy him fish"

and that was the last sentence Grandma spoke to him.

both of his parents became so busy, every day he whined to his parents to invite him to go to the grandmother's house

" weekend to grandma's house"

" mom's busy with dad"

" dad busy sa ...anytime any time?"

everyone gets busy, mama gets busy once every day comes home at night on the grounds of overtime, her work is piling up.dad becomes rarely home..

every time they come home with them they always fight

" you're busy why blame me"your yelling always scares me

"you who have time for family never take care of a husband?"

every day is always like that until someone calls mama

" mother died a mas"bout crying tell her father" we're going to semarang now"

" i have to get out of town on your own" and back a fight ensues...

" he and his mother to semarang take care of his grandmother's funeral.

the man always hugged his mother

" i can't stand it anymore " between her tears, Risa heard the conversation between her mother and the man.After the funeral of the grandmother was comfortable without rest they immediately went home and it was her last day to meet her grandmother and became the last day in the grandmother's house.

"ayo in....? sam awakens Raisa from her daydream

" you come in first I'll catch up"

sam left Raisa alone, he walked into looking for the caretaker all to greet the children.

raisa was walking near the park that her grandmother had built for her so she could stay here.

he sat his body on a wooden swing that looked still very strong, he felt enjoying every inch of the swing chain that was firmly attached.he missed his grandmother, there was a drop of tears that fell in the corner of his eye.

"brother dong dong swing his brother was already big, later his swing collapsed saolnya big brother"seger bunch of children shake sway swing and managed to make him aware of his daydream.

he looked at the child one by one?

" you guys want to sit here"

"yes".

raisa laughs.." Okay brother will go....."

" you play with heart yes" raisa's message to the boy.

" thank you pretty sister?" said one of them

raisa smiled again, she got up from her seat and stepped towards the house.want to catch up with sam.

" beautiful sister what her name is" asked one of them with a shout.

raisa turned her head she felt funny with the child's attitude

"just bangil raisa's sister" with a little scream because it's a little far from the child.

" ok raisa" answered one more while forming an o on her finger.

now he was inside to join with sam to listen to the caretaker's explanation of the current condition.

he circulated the view of seeing the room which also did not change much, only here in this room now looks very spacious it turns out the room was dismantled , they make this place as a place to learn children as well as a place to play.

after feeling enough ..sam and raisa said goodbye to the caretaker to go home, he decided to immediately go home missing from the initial plan.

yesterday he decided to stay for a few days in all holidays but a call from someone forced him to go home soon.