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episode 33 being there for you is always my choice

pov raihan

I was reading the quran after praying isya' at home because I had not had time to attend the prayer isya' in the pesantren mosque because I had to complete my pending college assignment .finished the magrip prayer earlier I said goodbye to my brother and some boarding school who were discussing.I immediately went home not waiting as usual.repeated phone calls forced me to stop reading the quran. I got up from my seat picking up the phone that had disturbed me so much that I did not want to read the Quran, but I had previously kept the Quran on the top shelf.

my forehead frowned when I saw the unknown no, I hurriedly picked up the phone before the phone I was holding back died.

"hallo assalamallaikum?"...I again scrunched my forehead a voice I had never heard before.

"yes, I know who this is with" I think of who called me and called me son.

" his aunt raisa".I repeated the words of the person opposite.

I was surprised to find out who called me turned out to be her aunt..

" i'm sorry I didn't know if it was auntie" I really didn't expect that auntie would call me something out of my mind

" what's the bik? anything important? "i frowned more and more as someone on the other side spoke, I listened before saying

" i will follow Risa bibik calmly, just,

I promise this time raisa won't compete" I took a deep breath, deep, this time maybe people will think I'm stupid for fighting for something that maybe people don't deserve to fight but I think he deserves to fight, there is something that draws my heart to him whether the aura he has so that this heart cannot stop loving him.

" waalaikumsallam bik" I ended our conversation..I started calling my best friend Diki who has a connection where he can also quickly find the location easily.so as soon as possible I can find out where the location of the wild racing game is done. ten minutes later he contacted me he already knew where the location of the match was, I quickly put on snaikers shoes and grabbed the jacket I put on the chair .diki was waiting for me at the gate of his house he wondered why I asked him things I never cared about at all.

while in the car he strapped myself to various questions but I didn't answer I just said later he would know for himself..at high speed I drove my car one more thing I never did.riding the car at high speed.came to close his eyes and screamed

" why ...?!"

"dog....lo ..ya....can you slow down?"

"if you want to die..just die by yourself.." take a breath to neutralize the panic.

it feels like seeing diki like that I'm so kasian, but I have to be quick before it's too late, I have to get there before the raisa competes, if I'm late.. getting there and raisa has competed it must be free.

finally I was relieved when I got to the right time .I stopped my car right in front of him. When I got down I saw him was looking at me. The sharp eyes that make me always miss , eyes that looked at everyone coldly.

the moment he realized that this was me. I saw shock on his face. I began to negotiate with him so that I wanted to replace him in the match.various ways I did until I threatened to report to the police.Our debate is very difficult I feel a little was was what if he kekeh no want me to replace it.

diki who saw me want to replace raisa competing felt I was worried.he knew everything I experienced about the motor.when I started riding the motorcycle raisa, my body shook violently.I should be able to fight this panic .it's time I had to learn to eliminate panic when I was riding the bike.I closed my eyes to reduce the fear that struck.

I heard the sound of the audience screaming.Back I opened my eyes, I started the engine trying to find comfort with the motorcycle raisa.

when I could slightly manage my fear I looked at anto, I nodded giving a sign that I was ready.

anto began to count, the first count of my body vibrated.the count to two of my body as if shaking and on the count to three of my body as if floating my body felt weak ...but here I must be strong I must be able to overcome my trauma...

in the first second the antonio motor bolted first, I strengthened myself so that I could overcome my trauma as well as this is my way to get a ride even though it had to go through the wrong way .this time let me do the wrong thing, this is the only way I have in mind.

I began to pull the gas slowly feeling the sensation of riding a motorbike that I had never done for a long time.I began to increase the speed.and my body shook again, flashes of past flashes reappeared in my brain, the sound of screams that echoed in my ears was clear.The accident six years ago was again clearly reflected in my mind.

" i should be able ... I should be able to.." I encouraged myself. I began to think about relieving my panic.In the first round I was far behind, suddenly came raisa's cold face as if sneering at me...I imagine if I lose for sure he will be happy but if I win I make sure he will be very upset and I like it when I look at his annoyed face so adorable 'if he is halal for me .every day if he gets angry I will kiss him until his jutek face turns into a tomato.maybe he will be more angry with me.I also smile myself" ah"..I said softly without realizing.why do I imagine strange things anyway.

and strangely the shadow of the accident disappeared with a cold face raisa .." I certainly can" I re-energized myself

I started to increase my speed again now there was only a shadow of a cold face of Raisa who smiled mockingly at me if I lost...

now out of nowhere my courage and spirit suddenly appeared.I again increased the speed.I started chasing antonio, and a little more I can overtake him , if my calculations right turn in front if I increase the speed a little I can overtake him...and.this is the time I go directly gaspol motor that I ride .and finally I can overtake him..just a little more until the finish line, I did not reduce my speed.

finally I breathed a sigh of relief.I can cross the finish line.I won this match.I stopped my bike tepar in front of the raisa.seyum happy can not I take from my face. I opened my helmet when I got off the bike I smiled at him but as usual though surprised he still had a cold face.

I walked up to him with a smile that I still couldn't stand because of happiness.

when I said I won and he had to fulfill the promise he made with a jutek he answered "want lo what," immediately crossed my mind what I wanted. "married to me," back his face looks surprised and angry it looks beautiful in my eyes.Why charm is so great that I can not resist..

everyone who was there was very surprised as well as my best friend, he and diki had cursed at the same time, but this was my choice even though everyone was against even if the rest of the world did not accept, he said, I will still love him, our world is different but I sincerely love him.Maybe there will be many obstacles in the future, but this is my way to have him, but this is my way to have him, according to people he was so bad but I think he was like an angel.His kindness was never shown that he showed only the bad side, until everyone misunderstood him.

I also saw a man I did not know approaching us.he was very angry with me.I saw in his eyes there was love for raisa, I felt dislike for the man in front of me. there is pain in the heart when there are people who pay attention to raisa.only I can pay attention to her, only I will make her happy.only I will give her a lot of love.

I saw him getting angry, his sharp eyes on me implying deep anger.

"gue will fulfill my promise, give me time" it's a word that makes me like getting an immeasurable gift.the thing I've been waiting for the most .I promise I'll always make you happy, I'll always be there for you, 'cause I chose you.