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episode 24 misguides this feeling

pov raihan

I had completed the task faster than my friends, a habit I had never left. I will feel more comfortable when I have completed my obligations as a student.I do the tasks that will be collected next week in the library , here in addition to the place adem because full ac is also the quietest place on this campus.I all look for books for reference in completing my assignment, accidentally here I meet aisyah , I can exchange ideas with aisyah because I think aisyah women who are smart and also smart so that I do not feel the time I spent in the library.

I walked to the cafeteria besides being hungry I also promised my three friends to wait for me in the cafeteria.When I was walking while playing my hape arrived there was someone calling me.

"RAIHAN......?!" I looked towards the source of the voice.someone ran over to me.

" doni.doni" while panting trying to convey something.

" what's wrong with doni?" I waited for the man to catch his breath

" doni fighting with raisa?"after successfully mastering his breathing so that it is regular he immediately conveyed something that happened.

" fight with raisa?" I repeat myself a little doubtful

"yeah right..hurry up and get there?" point the man towards the canteen

"in the cafeteria" asked me again

"yeah..."

I rushed to the cafeteria from outside to hear the boisterous sound of children, I looked for the origin of the sound that sounded crowded.

as I got closer I walked slowly to see and observe what was really going on

I saw the doni being beaten by the merciless raisa, I saw the anger on Raisa's face, I don't know what the problem is that it makes Raisa so angry.I want to come closer to break it

" stop sa..! what are you doing?!" I tried to talk.I saw him surprised when I saw him.

" you have no right to beat a man like this even if he's guilty" I tried to talk to him again

" the problem can be solved well" immediately I saw a sharp gaze that pierced into this heart, ".dek ,the face that I had missed these few days was now in front of me looking at me sharply as if I did not like me to interfere, I tried to smile.

"what's the problem?" I tried to melt my pounding heart by asking her again?

" ask temen lo" and I try to ask my friends, they just say "later"

I tried to help Doni to stand up and sit him in the chair, I still heard he threatened doni about deleting photos or your family would be destroyed.

wait....photo......what photos? I try to think in my heart, do not the photo sent doni to me. When I turned to see it he was gone.

I who was curious about the truth of the photo was eager to ask him directly, I chased after him, I called him and at a stop .

I asked him about the truth of the photo and how surprised I was that he confirmed it, all this time I tried to refuse myself not to believe about the photo, there is a feeling of sadness in my heart, a sense of disappointment not to him but to myself.why this heart must choose him without being prevented.why is this heart so weak against him without me being able to understand .is this the person who is in love? his feelings became this weak.

I saw him leave me, this heart still refused to believe .I wanted to ask directly to the doni where he got it.

I went back to doni and my friend, I saw that doni was better, even though on his face there was a bruised scar from raisa. I sat in front of doni , I looked at my friend's face, I knew he wasn't comfortable with my probing gaze, he knew I needed an answer.

"what's..?"he looked at me while talking

" i...gue who has shared a photo of him in medsos...why?" now he asks me back.

I took a breath, deserved it so bad.

I looked at diki and davit, they just kept quiet about our conversation

"whatever a person's behavior we have no right to judge or blaspheme and even humiliate him.we are just as human not necessarily ourselves better than him."

" are you really in love with her?" the words of the unceremoniously stale word doni surprised me.

"why?. you think I do not know..we have been friends for a long time as you say and as you say I also know you outside and inside, and inside, without you saying I already know that you're in love with him"?

that's how easy my feelings are to guess by my friend, what looks once on my face,

" and I don't want you to like him , I don't want my friends who are so good to have a woman like that , he's lucky to be able to get lo but lo?.lo can be calmed..." doni was still talking even though I saw that he was in trouble because of the wound on the corner of his lips.

I am still fixated on hearing the word doni I see my two friends are the same.

" you've never done anything like this in all this time? care with a person whose name is female, even to be close you are reluctant .but with him ..lo once attention even you willing to take him .even if you know what kind of attitude he has toward you?"

" even with aisha you are not like this?, which is clear aisyah likes the same lo, even better than the woman .in all respects,.... you should choose the perfect female aisyah of the world acherat not the woman who every night went to the club.and I will be the first person who disagrees and you fit in the same way....

I can only hear the word doni without being able to interrupt...

" you can't talk about it don "snaps at what might not be nice to me

" don't judge someone like that if you don't know who he really is?"Now it's Davit's turn to try to talk,

while I was still trying to digest the word doni, is it true that my feelings are wrong....

I took another breath trying to find a solution to this problem

" you know.The three of you are my best friends there is nothing I have ever hidden from you, you know me more than myself.I love you more than friends.the three of us are like brothers, you know me more than myself, if one of us has a problem without us saying we will know and feel it, it is because of our very strong brotherly bond, "

"i've never felt my whole life what it's like to fall in love, how it feels to be in love, but I've experienced a sense of where I want to be always close to him, wanting to do all the things I could for her, wanting to make her smile even though it was hard" I smiled to myself imagining Raisa's face when angry" trying so many different ways that I could be with her even in ways that might be embarrassing, forgetting my common sense ." I shook my head in disbelief I was doing all this, leaving my pride for love.

"i want to convince my heart and my perception of all this, whether it's really a feeling of love or just my curiosity about a woman."

I saw my three friends trying to convince them of my feelings.

"what's so great about that woman?" I saw Doni looking at me with dislike

I took a breath back"I didn't know what was special about her, but this feeling came into my own without me preventing it....? "i want my best friend to understand how I feel the first time I feel.

" maybe you think this feeling is wrong, but to me this feeling is not wrong, God moves my heart maybe God has a purpose and purpose behind it all ...

" your feelings are still wrong because you chose raisa "doni still with her opinion

" many women are more than raisa out there but why should he , that's what makes me not willing"doni is still cluttered with his opinion

"only God can turn back the heart of man,..Many women out there are more than raisa..but why does God move my heart to him?.I myself am confused by everything" I looked at my three friends, I wanted them to support me instead of cornering me.

" don ..we are friends, but we shouldn't interfere with his feelings" Davit tries to mediate

" because I'm his best friend.gue wants the best for him, I don't want him to regret choosing the wrong choice...

the three of us looked at each other and patted me on the shoulder.." later I tried to talk to him.." I just nodded..