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episode 15

pov raihan

It's been a few days every morning

I invited Raisa, the thing I have never done in my entire life , against the opposite sex.I was also amazed by myself ,why the heart and mind are inversely proportional.my mind said I should stay away from her, being close to her will cause a lot of problems and I also try to stay away from her, but whether by chance or fate, we are always met in various situations.she is a woman who is far from perfect as a Muslimah. the clothes he wears are always open, when he is a Muslim, his man is also far from his nature as a woman, he likes to fight, he likes to race wild, he also likes to hang out with thugs .but my heart says another, this heart wants to always see it, to look at it silently so that no one sees me when he looks at it. This heart also always wants to be with him, close to him even though he always looked with a dislike gaze.This heart also wants to always take care of him even though he can take care of himself.This heart wants to have it even though our differences are very far.feelings that I have never felt in a lifetime my life ..is this the name of falling in love.I who used to keep my eyes on the opposite sex, now unable to fight its charm...what is so special about you that it can shake my heart and for the first time my heart shakes when our eyes stare.whether I should reject this foreign feeling or let it grow here. am I wrong with this feeling the feeling that is present without me noticing .there is a good thing in her that no one else has, even if it is me .even though I was a child I was taught religion, even when I was still in the womb, but the social and sympathy I have or even that of others towards street children or orphans is not as high as he is, he has a concern that deserves not only two but four decrepit.it is able to arouse my heart to admire him., he said., every morning when leaving for campus he will distribute the money to the buskers who are at the intersection of red light ,he also provides shelter for orphaned children.His life he uses to help others, his appearance is simple, well , he also never wears luxury items .unique woman, impressed cold and indifferent but behind it all save gentleness. all I know is that he only lives with mang juju and bik imah. while his father and mother I never saw him in the house of raisa.

if both my parents knew their children loved such women, would they agree. the opposite of my heart is choosing or letting go of the first new feeling I feel......

it's been a few days every go to campus I always get picked up raihan.ya..raihan , a new name I know after a few times met, I, whether the appointment what he said with the doctor dimas, he said the appointment was a debt and I had to keep it. I had refused raw raw.Segal way I did not go with him, but strangely all failed, moreover, the same aunt supported him.they every day taught me to go with him. said the aunt and mamaang "he's a good man," always that's what they say, they said they were perfect men who deserved to be made husbands, in my heart said" Well from where, whoever wants to get married, I will never get married" I just keep quiet when the aunt is talking about raihan. The uncomfortable feeling still surrounds my heart, new things that enter my life sometimes make me uncomfortable..whether the trauma that was so imprinted made it difficult for me to accept strangers, the indifference that I showed woke up by itself, because of the trauma that I had. I was always clumsy to him, he said, and I always act cold.I do it so that he away from me.I really hard to accept strangers, but this self is still unable to accept it. The closer why I hate it the more, after my return from semarang he still standby at home to pick me up... it feels so lazy to go to college.if the time to go home sometimes I lie to him so that I do not go home with him, sometimes I leave him silent silence.actually there is a feeling of guilt to him , moreover, the time he had been waiting for me for so long but I did not go home with him, but I don't know what his heart was , I've treated him like that he still invited me to go to campus and I don't want to finally leave with him....

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raisa is currently sitting alone in a cafe. she enjoys an afternoon in a cafe that shows the sky that spurts a reddish color , the cafe is designed open with a view of the sky reddish the effects of the sunset.he enjoyed a cigarette favorite accompanied by a bottle of mineral water. his eyes focused on the flat object in his right hand.Sometimes he frowned as if he was thinking, sometimes he looked around to expel saturation and then refocused on the object in his hand.all that was not escaped from the attention of someone ,the man stood up from his seat he walked towards the place of Raisah, leaving behind his friends who were gathering."where are you going?" one of his friends who noticed him asked" he only replied by pointing at Raisa, his friend just nodded with a smile and raised his hand to form a sign ok. he immediately sat in front of Raisa" you here too? " raisa only caught a glimpse of the person sitting in front of her as she knew the person sitting in front of her was a pride, she refocused herself on her hape. angga who for the second time in cuekin raisa feel angry, only this time he really not considered".what attitude lo always like that to everyone , do not have morals or manners".raisa stared intently at the pride "at least you appreciate the person who invites you to talk" raisa sighed" I have no morals".he still looked sharply at the pride "o..oooo.."angga smiled mocking "beautiful kok proud have no morals".raisa again busied herself with the object in her hand.Gangga was really angry, she felt ashamed of her friends, what they thought about her, what they thought about her, a most wanted woman who is always pursued by women is now being cuekin by a girl. Without permission he snatch raisa hape from the hands of raisa, raisa who did not expect the person in front of her would snatch her hape felt surprised.diki smiled mockingly while swaying raisa hape shake," what the hell you see until I'm handsome this lo cuekin.ia began to see raisa hape, but he had not seen raisa has moved to seize it , unfortunately raisa did not manage to seize it , angga has already avoided." balikin not?" raisa standing from her seat looks annoyed on her face. "gue will turn back if you want to be my girlfriend" raisa grunts" lo balikin or lo will be embarrassed "raisa increasingly unable to resist his frustration........still with a seductive smile as well as mocking the mango playing hape raisa in his hand. raisa walked round towards the mango, he made a distance so close" you who chose this" as his hand raised a fist towards the handsome face of the pride, the pride that was unprepared if raisa would do that felt surprised, his body staggered to the side .the pain lodged in the face of his look felt so great that his eyes were cawed firefly . he did not expect the blow of raisa so strong.has not been able to avoid raisa back hit him in the abdomen , he took a step back to the back he shouted "akhhhh" until hape raisa fell to the ground.The cry of anguish drew the attention of everyone including friends of the house.they ran towards the host .they were astonished to see angga holding his stomach.they took turns to look at the mango and raisa. angga who was sick and raisa who looked so angry.