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episode 71 don't love me this big

the voice of the ashar adhan made Raihan aware to end his kiss, he remembered that Abi had told him to pray ashar in the mosque because after the completion of the prayer there were activities that must be done .

when the raihan ended his kiss there was a sense of unwillingness that emanated from the look of Raisa's eyes.

"sorry" her eyes looked at Raisa sayu.

raihan gently wiped Raisa's wet lips with her fingertips because of her actions.

Raihan took a heavy breath he tried to dampen the passion that had not been channeled.

" She prayed first? there will be activities that need to be discussed.

Raihan kissed Raisa's forehead, as long as Raihan's lips stuck to Raisa's forehead he wanted to enjoy a moment like this every time

Raisa felt the warmth in her heart, she felt very loved.

Raihan let go of his kiss he looked at Raisa softly

" sleep to the mosque?"nodding Raihan said, he seemed reluctant to leave Raisa, but he had promised Abi to discuss important matters.

Raihan got up from his seat he went to the bathroom to take a bath .

when he came out of the bathroom, Raihan saw that Raisa was sleeping on her bed, he smiled to himself when he saw that his heart was asleep.

Raihan opened the door very slowly so that Raisa was not disturbed.

Raisa actually did not sleep she just closed her eyes so that Raihan did not see her wrong behavior

" check" when the sound of the door closing slowly Raisa opened her eyes.he looked at the door to make sure that Raihan was really out

Raisa then rose from her sleep she walked to the balcony she wanted to see the children of the santri children were chatting with friends.

he stands behind a flower so that children do not see it, he feels he is the lowest human being when he sees them.

he who looked at the familiarity of the santri was envious, he who never had friends saw they were all familiar made his heart touched.

he smiled at his own smile when from above he saw them throw jokes at each other.Once he captured their moments with his hape camera shots.

the thing that Raisa felt in her heart she felt so peaceful when she saw them laughing, and joking together.

suddenly someone hugged her from behind, Raisa jerked but she immediately knew who the man who hugged her, from the fragrant body Raisa memorized properly.

" here the wind is strong.inside only" Raihan increasingly tightened his embrace.

" bosen's inside?" Raisa let her body in the embrace of raihan.ia felt the breath of Raihan in her ears, the feathers sat as if standing all

" has just healed?....what about the relapse?" Raihan put his chin on Raisa's shoulder, their cheeks stuck together.

raihan glanced at Raisa at the sight of the woman he loved looking straight ahead.

" just now Abi said his meeting was in Isyak's delay, let's have a longer time"Raihan put away Raisa's hair on his shoulder with his hand he put Raisa's hair together and put it on the other shoulder

raisa's neck which now looks level makes Raihan occasionally land his lips on the white neck belonging to Raisa, the gentle kiss that Raihan gave made Raisa close her eyes, closing her eyes,

raisa's hand held the iron barrier of the balcony.he again felt an incredible sensation that he just now felt

although Raihan's kiss was so soft and not demanding but able to damage Raisa's heart.

all his might he held back from letting out a strange sound from his mouth.

" what are you looking at?" the soft voice and breath of Raihan sounded in the ear of Raisa. scented mint that came out of the mouth roihan clearly smelled in Raisa's nose.

"look at them.....they look happy?" without taking his eyes off

" are you not happy with me?" raihan still hugged Raisa tightly

Raisa does not answer she herself is confused with herself.she feels happy when she is next to Raihan, but if she remembers who she is she becomes not confident, she becomes self-assured,

" maybe in life I'm less grateful?" his sight turned into nanar

"happiness that shies away or I that rejects happiness"

Raisa turned her face to face Raihan, now they were facing each other very close, so they could feel a warm breath .

"never deny the happiness that lies before your eyes?" Raihan looks into the beautiful eyes of Raisa he wants to convince through his eyes that he is able to make Raisa happy.

"how can you make your brother happy,....... tell your brother? " raihan's hand moved gently stroking Raisa's cheek, the gaze of sayu that Raihan pointed at Raisa made Raisa pinch her heart

"give me a moment when "Raisa turns her face away she can't see eyes that look sad.

" to when? "

"how much longer do you have to wait?"

"give your brother a promise?"

"promise" said Raisa confused he looked back at Raihan

"yes.promise." said Raihan while nodding his head.

" as long as you ask for time you will wait.but you must promise that your goal is Brother?" Raihan looked gently into Raisa's glassy eyes, Raisa felt so loved...does his bad self deserve so much love from a handsome man and Sholeh like Raihan, does he deserve to be with this man in front of him? his heart wanted Raihan but on the other hand it was unfair for Raihan, the perfect man should have gotten the perfect woman as well, there was an inner contradiction in Raisa's heart.

"never love me this big, ever,"

" because I won't be able to give love as big as your love" Raisa looked at the man in front of her her heart grew even more sad

"Abang knows.." said Raihan while hugging Raisa .

"don't you let your brother fight on his own?"raihan's voice sounded desperate in Raisa's ear.

"it's not that I don't want to fight "Raisa's staring at the fragile looking man in front of her because of him

Raihan slightly frowned, yesterday Raisa has changed my call to me, but now it seems to limit this relationship .

"the more I want to be with Lo the more I feel so low"

"to be with Lo so perfectly, this leg is so heavy to step on"

"to climb Mount Lo already at the top, while I am still at the bottom.

" this hand will not be able to reach you who are on top"

Raihan shook his head in a sign that he disagreed with Raisa's opinion

"these feet will not be able to walk in line with you..."

" it's too heavy and hard to sit with yourself"

Raihan still shook his head

" no.....Brother will stop at the top of the mountain, will be there waiting for you until you walk after Brother"Raihan held onto Raisa's two cheeks with both hands he looked into Raisa's eyes hoping Raisa would see in her eyes so much love that she had for Raisa.

"gue doesn't have much energy to walk up" his tone slightly taut he avoids Raihan's gaze by rolling his eyeballs to the side .

" you just give up on this relationship?" raihan looked back at the eyes that always avoided his gaze

"understand me.The more I'm with Lo the more I feel low.." Raisa's eyes are a little glassy.

"during with your brother does not grow a little love in your heart?" Raihan is eager to find out if Raisa has a taste for him even a little

Raihan looked into Raisa's eyes a slightly demanding look.

"tok ..tok..tok..tok.. darling...ini umi..." Raihan had not had time to get an answer from Raisa, outside someone knocked on the door,

"iya mik" Raisa who heard umi knocking on the door immediately answered her as if saved, she hurriedly breathed Raihan's hand and walked over to open the door

but he had not yet stepped Raihan quickly held his hand

"we'll finish later?" while looking at Raisa softly, why with Raisa he could not be angry or hate all he felt was so much love for his wife.

"let your brother open?" Raihan stepped inside to open the door of the room

there was a speck of clear water coming out from Raisa's beautiful eyes, she immediately wiped it away fearing umi seeing it.

he walks Raihan into the room where he sees Umi talking to Raihan

" dear ..how does it still hurt?" umi saw him coming from the balcony

" it's healthy mik" he walked closer to Umi who was sitting in a lounge chair in front of the television, Raisa was sitting on the chair as Raihan stood giving her place to sit,Raihan then sat on the handle of the chair beside Raisa.

"it's umik bring a change of clothes, it's still new..intentionally buy for you if you come here.."

"really healed?" back umi made sure her daughter-in-law was still sick or healed

"already mik...if you don't believe ask your brother?" while looking at Raihan

" later if sick there will be Brother mik" Raisa again reassured umik

" just tell me brother?" Raisa smiled gently at umi, turns umik so worried about her.

" is it really bang?" raisa looked back at Raihan

raihan who saw Raisa's attitude towards him in front of umik felt a little relieved.It turns out Raisa still respects him.

" right mic said Raisa....Brother will be on guard twenty-four hours.he.he..he.."While rolling his eyes to umik.

" yes already..umik down first....?"

" if you're not healthy, don't take a shower?"

"iya mik" there is a haru feeling in Raisa's heart.here he feels loved.he wants this.

"keep your wife bang.." umi gently stroked Raisa's head before getting up from her seat .

" ready mik....." Raihan smiled grimly......

after Umi leaves Raihan's room, they both return home .

Raisa looked up at Raihan, who also saw him smiling at her

"sorry.." said Raisa Lirih who is still able to hear Raihan.

Raihan gently stroked Raisa's head.he just nodded at Raisa's apology.

"can you shower?" hesitantly Raisa asked Raihan

" maybe....." Raihan paused his sentence "asal Abang bathed?" Raihan smiled mischievously

" what?!" with a slight shout out of shock at Raihan said

" yes....Brother who bathes?"....with a big smile

"not a shower?" raisa quickly answered

" late.......?" while lifting Raisa's body from the chair towards the bathroom