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Bonus #11

I was still staring at my little hero who was now lying on the bed. He's not human yet. The doctor said he's okay, but why hasn't he realized yet.

I held her fingers tight. This fingers are shaking violently. A cold chill all over my body.

I want to cry but I can't. Only leaving tightness in the chest that is very painful.

O Allah. Take care of him, please.

"I'm sorry."

"It's okay, Jo. They're just kids. Don't overreact."

"Aksa, after all, because of Gisel. Really, I'm sorry."

I closed my eyes deep. Get up from the chair. Staring Johan.

"I'm sorry, too, your plan is a mess."

"For that, you don't have to worry. It's okay, I'm fine."

"Go home, take Gisel, pity he's waiting here, not good. Don't be upset with him for this. Promise me?"

"Yes, I'm saying goodbye."

"Be careful on the road. Tell Gisel, Aksa's fine."

"Hm."

I still see Johan as he walks. His back disappeared behind the door.

My body went back weak. My head hurts a little.

"Honey. Please wake up, you don't want anything to happen to you. Mother please."

I was crying as much as I could. Kissing her cheeks many times. He whispered a verse of qursi in his ear.

Time is running very slow. Why is the morning not coming? why isn't Aksa moving?

Weary. I feel so tired today. Until 23:40 this eye has not been closed. How can I sleep seeing Aksa's condition like this?

Phone's ringing.

"Zidan's? astaghfirullah, I forgot to tell him. Hello, Zidan."

"Teh, why so long? it's the night why haven't you been home yet?"

"Awlton ... Zidan's...."

"Teh, why? what was? why crying? Lame."

"Aksa in the hospital. He fainted and was unconscious as well."

"Astaghfirullah's. Why are you just telling me? yes, I'll send the address, Zidan will be there."

"Bawain Teteh gamis equal veil. Teteh want to pray tpi clothes teteh dirty. Bring me over too."

"Yes, Zidan wait for the address, yeah."

"Yes, be careful on the road."

Phone disconnected. I keep my phone on the nightstand.

"Physically, Aksa has no injuries. Perhaps, he was just exhausted after a long walk. It's just that, there's a chance he's feeling scared or stressed too much."

"Stress, Doc?"

"Yes, it can also be the cause of a person fainting. In the meantime, we don't worry too much. Because Aksa's vital signs are still good. Once we're conscious, we better consult a psychologist."

Really am. This time I'm the one who's stressed to hear an explanation from the doctor. What makes Aksa so stressed? o Allah, what kind of mother I am to not know the condition of my own child.

"Bun ..." I immediately raised my head, as soon as I heard the voice of my little angel calling.

"Darling, you realize? son ... This is mother, Aksa."

"Tea."

Zidan who just got to running immediately. Then she went back with the doctor and nurse.

The doctor checked Aksa's pulse and chest. Opening his closed eyes.

"Aksa, if the voice of the Doctor is heard, any movement that Aksa can make. Okay, champ."

Aksa. He scrunched his forehead.

"How's Doctor?"

"He was conscious. However, not completely. Leave it alone for a while. Later if he wakes up, do not cause movement too quickly, let him be fully aware. Give me a little drink. If you're really conscious, stand. Yes, Mum."

"Yes, Doctor. Thank you." Thank you."

"Together, I'll excuse you first then."

"Yes, Doc.

There was a little relief in my heart knowing she was okay. Just have to wait a little more time.

"Zidan, where ...." Lee's? is he here? since when?

Our eyes meet each other. For a moment I felt something I knew. I can't explain anything. My feelings right now are not bad. It's just, I'm feeling at ease that he's here.

"Where's the Tether shirt?"

"This. Take a shower, I've brought it all."

"Yaz thanks Zidan." I picked up the bag that Zidan was carrying, passed towards the bathroom the previous time I glanced back at Lee, making sure that he was really here. Not just my hallucinations like yesterday.

Slightly feels fresh when the body is flushed with warm water. Clean yourself and change clothes.

Finish salat isya.

"Here, eat first. Don't let you get sick."

"I'm not hungry."

"Don't eat because you're hungry. Eat because you need energy to be Aksa."

"Yes, Tea. Be eating. The Tethes must be strong for Aksa. Yes, he woke up sick. It's not funny."

I took the food Lee gave me. Little by little I chewed, even though it felt bland.

"Teh, Zidan's home, yeah. Tomorrow we have to go to school to do something."

I was surprised by the food that had not yet fully entered my mouth. I don't want to be here alone.

"I'll accompany you here. Let Zidan go home. Cassian she'll stay here." Lee seemed to understand what was on my mind.

"Zidan pamit, Assalamualaikum."

"Getishalight."

Zidan's gone. Now, it's just me and Lee here. I don't know, I can't move at all. Sitting in a chair, Lee just stood up.

We kept quiet for a long time. Until Lee sat opposite me.

"Remove, you must be strong."

"How can I eat, when my son is lying helpless. I. ..." These tears began to fall nonstop. I was crying like that. Bring out all the hardships that are held in my heart.

The tightness that has been held up all along. The matter that has been imprisoned in me, flowing with my tears.

Lee shifted the table that gave us the limit. He knelt down and held both of my shoulders.

"Hey, don't be like this. Where is the Siti I know, the strong female figure who is Solehah."

I kept crying, couldn't stop these tears from coming out. Lee wiped my tears with his finger. I rubbed my head gently.

His treatment made me even more unable to stop crying. O Allah .. Can I sin just once? I want to embrace Your creation that is in front of me now. Is it a great sin if I embrace her for a moment? O Allah .. strengthen the heart of the servant.

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