Dimadu Tak Semanis Honey

CHAPTER 15

The beauty of the city of Bali today is not in the sense of beauty like the first Siti standing in the city of a million temples. Not because Bali is not beautiful, but because Siti's feelings have been scratched. Yes, Lee did not answer the call from Noura, but Siti knew and realized that in her heart there was a woman that was not her.

Wanting to feel Siti crying, but she held it all her strength, Siti took a breath many times quickly, so that her tears dropped.

While Lee's thoughts drifted, he thought about how Noura would react when they met later? it was the first time Lee had not answered a call from Noura, not only did not answer but Lee refused Noura's call.

The car drove down the streets of the beautiful city of Bali, many people passed by along the road, a variety of clothes that people wear there are even those who only wear underwear and casually they walk on the side of the road while talking to their friends.

The scenery that makes Siti continue to be privileged in the heart.

"Where are we going?" Ask Lee.

" ... "

"We just eat, there's a restaurant by the beach, the food is good and the view is beautiful"

"Hemm"

"Why?" Lee asked softly, his grip the more he moaned, squeezing Siti's springy fingers. Siti shook her head slowly.

From the start of eating until they finished and arrived at the room where they were staying at a resort, Siti simply fell silent.

Lama Siti spends her time on the prayer mat. He was thinking non-stop. Sometimes his tears fall. He tried to strengthen his heart, in his mind still heard Lee's voice when asking for permission to leave.

"I'll be out for a minute"

"Walked him?"

"Hemm, just a minute I'll be right back"

"Oh ... " Siti's lips are vibrating. " Be careful on the road" he continued.

Siti closed her eyes deep, she squeezed her chest firmly making her face look very tangled. His fingers continued to move around the prayer beads that he had been holding earlier.

Her tears now flowed unbearably, Siti's body collapsed, she prostrated on the prayer mat with her tears that sounded so bitter.

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"You why the hell, brother?"

"sorry"

"Is she so special that Big Brother did this to me"?

"It wasn't because he was Raa, just now..." Noura's lips kept Lee from continuing his words, with Noura shrewdly playing his tongue inside Lee's mouth.

"I miss Kak" Noura said softly on the sidelines of her kiss.

That night they spent making out despite not getting to bed. But Noura's upper body was touched, not an inch was missed by Lee's naughty hands.

Noura squeezed Lee's hair violently as the peaks of the two Noura twin mountains danced with Lee's tongue.

Their breathing rang quickly, both Lee and Noura looked tired with imperfect pleasure.

"When am I gonna do this till it's over? It feels very painful Brother". Noura was pampered in Lee's hands.

"It's not yet time"

"I can't wait, sister, want to really feel your body as a whole"

"Hemm"

"Sister! Why anyway? Brother Lee, what are you thinking?"

"Raa, I'm home now yeah, it's 2 p.m"

"Udah bobo here, tomorrow the show is also malem"

"When you hire a bodyguard to look after us, I don't think it's just a regular bodyguard, Mama must have them spy on me and Siti"

Noura withdrew her and snorted in annoyance.

"Yes, but tomorrow's lunch is the same as me?"

"I can't promise Raa, but I will.

"Ohh, Brother Lee!" his face was angry.

"Don't do it, gemes knows!"

Lee pulled the young girl's face and returned****** her lover's sensual lips aggressively. Noura's hand coiled around Lee's neck tightly. The occasional sigh of Noura coming out of his mouth made Lee so ferociously explore Noura's front body

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Pensive Lee stared endlessly at the darkness of the night. His hand held the steering wheel with the engine in a dead state.

Lee found himself very disgusting, he clenched his teeth firmly, visible jawbone lines protruding on both sides of Lee's cheeks.

This is not the first time Lee and her lover make out, but whether what she feels at the moment is not so she enjoys, there is guilt in Lee's heart, Lee said, maybe because Lee now has the status of another woman's husband, but more than that Lee feels very guilty to Noura, how not when they make out at first Lee felt not passionate, but not, but suddenly in his brain on the morning incident where Lee made out with his wife, Lee's passion became more passionate, how could Lee touch Noura's body while the one in his mind was Siti.

Lee turned on the car engine that Siti called 'short' slowly, passing through the streets of Bali which was still so crowded and seemed to be very crowded.

Lee saw Siti's body curled coldly on the floor in her alphabet while in the room. Lee quickly approached Siti and tried to develop Siti, in her rocking right slowly shoulder Siti, but did not budge.

Siti's face was so cold, immediately Lee carried her wife's body onto the mattress. Lee slowly put Siti's body on the bed. Lee's body was lying down, tilted with his arms, in his face full of guilt.

Lee's face approached intending to kiss his wife's cheek, but the intention was unsettled as he remembered his lips had been making out with another woman, Lee feeling disgusted with his own body

"I'm so dirty" he whispered. Lee sat pensively on the edge of the pool, the cold piercing the bones he ignored. His feet moved slowly in the water, making small waves that seemed to chase.

Lee glanced at the Rolex watch on his arm, time showing at 3am.

"She should have woken up for tahajud"

"Guild..."

"Hmm?"

"Not slept?"

"Not sleepy"

"Just come home?"

"Son, that's it from before"

"Sleep first Yuk, later in the afternoon the show is afraid you cape"

Yuk's?

"I'm used to not sleeping all night not to worry"

"Not good for health, I pray first yes"

Siti turned over leaving Lee still playing his feet in the water.

Seeing Siti leave, Lee lifted his leg up and followed her into the room.

"it's change clothes, keep sleeping yeah"

"hemm, wake me up when it's dawn"

"Yes"

After changing clothes Lee lay his body on the mattress, he just rested his body does not intend to sleep.

In the face of Siti who was solemnly praying, Lee heard Siti mention her name asking that Lee always be in good health, asking that Lee always be in the protection of God, he said, asking that Lee always be spared in all his affairs.

"O Allah, if Lee is best for the servant, then bring him closer to the servant to protect the marriage of the servant. But if Lee is not the best for the servant then keep him in your best way Rabb aaminn"

Siti's last prayer left Lee speechless, his heart seemingly pausing for a moment. There was a sense of pain in his heart, somehow the feeling always cursed Lee's heart, their marriage was not up to 30 days, but Siti was so attached to Lee, who was so attached to her, this marriage was originally due to Bu Amira's coercion of Lee's grandmother, not knowing even just a glimpse, not knowing, but Siti was able to make Lee riled not because even he was able to present in his mind when Lee with Noura, a woman who has been in a relationship with him for 8 years.

"Sites ... "

"Yes?" Siti opened her palm which still covered her face after praying earlier.

"What do you want from our marriage? we don't even know each other?"

"I want God to give the best for our marriage, not knowing each other but can be one room because of the pleasure of Him, all this is the destiny of Lee, Lee, we can only live it well and sincerely"

"Siti, me and Noura have been in a relationship for 8 years" Lee got up and sat at the end of the bed. His fingers were so tightly interlocked, his two elbows he put on his knees with his body leaning forward, his eyes looked at Siti with regret and sadness.

"Destiny is unique Lee she will never be changed, maybe now I am your wife but who knows I just stopped by in your life, we don't know what God wants to give us Lee"

"hm"

"If you are indeed a soul mate whom God has written, then in any way you will be united, but..."

Lee's lowered head looked up so that he could see the face of Siti who did not continue her words.

"But what?"

"But. if..." Siti bit her lower lip, her hand rubbed the face she was wearing

"Why?"

"If God wants the two of us to be united then Noura must be sincere and go from our lives, as well as you, you must sincerely live it"

Lee could only look at the face of Siti who was like her feeling embarrassed and regretful with her words earlier.

"How do you want God?"

"As a woman and a wife, I am just doing my duty and duty well, whatever my feelings and your feelings are now the reality of our husband and wife, no matter what, there are rights and obligations in it that we have to live"

"Answer up briefly"

"I want you"

Lee's eyes were now at a glance with Siti, they were silent with their respective feelings, not a word came out.

"Euh. but it's me..."

"Are you starting to love me?"

Siti's hand that moved around because it was stiff and felt wrong behavior, she pulled into her lap, her face that was originally blushed now began to look serious.

"Don't worry Lee, I won't ask for more of my current feelings, we are husband and wife but the heart is not something that can be arranged by a bond"

"Do you love me?"

"What wrong? i'm feeling..."

"Do you love me?" Now Lee's voice was so resolute.

"I don't know Lee, it's just that I feel sad every time you see and call that woman"

"Tell me, do you love me?" Lee snapped while standing upright with more emotion.

"How can I say that? I don't know what love is? I've never felt how to love and be loved! this is the first time Siti feels so sad, sad because you met the woman" Siti's voice is no less loud... Siti's cry broke.

"Don't force Siti to say something Siti doesn't know, even if Siti asks the same thing what's your answer?"

Lee is confused by Siti's question, he himself does not know what is really happening to his heart at this time. A taste she had never felt even for Noura.

"Why silence? can't you say anything, either?"

"I'll just be your husband, try to be a good husband, we'll see where the qdir will take us?" Said Lee flat.