Dimadu Tak Semanis Honey

Bonus #6

..."Help me hate you, I love you too much. You are so, mean to me. After you left to live here on my own, I felt something that was missing in my life."...

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"Teh, buy another new toy for Aksa." asked Zidan, as we were enjoying the chicken splint while looking at Aksa who was playing the cart-mapping given by Mr. Johan three days ago.

I smile. "No, it's a gift from papi."

"The one that Aksa always talks about?"

"He-em. She turns out to be Gisel's papa, Aksa's temen at school."

"Owh, kirain who. Thank goodness it's someone you know."

"Yes, I'm also relieved. I'm afraid someone else has bad intentions."

"Well, if that's the case, there'll be a guard." I frowned at Zidan's words. He realized I was astonished, not wanting the chat to get any longer, he turned it on to something else.

"Aksa, would you mind breaking up? yummy. Spend it later."

"Don't, I want to." Aksa approached immediately, fearing the break-in Zidan had completely spent. He eats in a hurry and haste.

"Slow down, it's the mayonnaise until it's broken." I wiped Aksa's mouth that had been blown away. He was still chewing voraciously.

"Bun, said papi I should be a good boy, let Mother not be sad." I smiled. Then stroked her cheeks soft like cotton.

"Aksa's a good boy, isn't he? mama Bahagia has Aksa." she's still chewing, whether I hear or not what I say. "Honey, why do you want to accept all the papi gifts? is it because he's good?"

"He's a handsome, Bun. Aksa wants to have a papi." Zidan and I stared at each other.

"Darling, you can't have papi. Aksa's got a father who can't be replaced by anyone."

"But I want to replace Dad. After all, said papi dad was happy there. His life is happier than ours."

"Did papi just say that to you?"

He just nodded with his mouth full of food. I'm speechless. I don't know what Johan did to Aksa. And anyway why he thinks he wants to be the father of my son. We met once.

"Mom, there's a guest outside."

"Who, Bi?"

"No idea, Mom. But men bring girls."

I'm speechless. Trying to figure out who's coming.

"That must be Gisel." said Aksa. I turned towards Zidan and Aksa alternately.

"Send to come in, Bi."

"Good, Mom."

Justright. Not long after, Johan and Gisel show up. Johan carries a sizable bucket of red roses, while Gisel carries fruit parcels. Zidan and I stood up.

"Good afternoon everyone ..." I smiled stiffly to welcome their arrival.

"Tante, this is for Auntie." Gisel gave me a fruit parcel. Following Johan who approached and gave flowers to me.

"Thank you, sir. Repot brought all sorts."

"It's okay, I'm happy to do this."

I'm getting awkward hearing Mr. Johan's statement. I don't know what I have to do now, when I have to tell him to come home when he just came. But, let him sit down I was afraid he would be long to meet him.

"Teh, I'm out for a second, yeah" Zidan said.

"Why?"

"Nothing, just for a moment. I'll be back here again soon after Teteh."

"Yes. Bi, sorry, please get me a drink and some snacks for Gisel, yeah."

"Yes, Mom. What do you want to drink?"

"Anything, Bi."

"Good." Aunt left us.

"Please sit down, sir."

"Receive the box."

I saw Zidan back in. However, I saw a strange look on my face. Zidan why? is he sad? but, why?

"Zidan, what's wrong?" He shook his head. Then sit near me. Aunty came to bring warm sweet tea, as well as melon juice for Gisel. And some snacks.

"I'm sorry, come without confirmation first." Johan opened the conversation.

"It's okay, sir. We're not busy either."

"Yes, maybe because he's lonely at home too."

"Yes." Yeah."

Silence back. We were both confused not knowing what to say.

"Sir, may I speak to you for a moment."

"Yes?"

"I need to talk, we'll be out for a minute. Can you?"

"Oh, yeah, sure."

I'm taking Mr. Johan to the yard. While Gisel and Aksa play under Zidan's supervision. We sit in chairs.

"Sir, I apologized earlier. It's just that I have to discuss this matter with Father."

"Call me Johan, or Jo. I feel old."

We laughed.

"I'm sorry, if you feel that way."

"God, you called him."

"Eh, yes. Sorry, sorry, Jo. Uh, but jeng Ami called Han, not Jo."

"Oh, that. Free is actually the origin of not a father."

We laughed again.

"All right, Jo."

"Then what do you want to say?"

"Oh, that. I forgot to say something."

"Hem, it's usually like that. Women will feel hypnotized when they are with me."

"What's? are you trying to be narcissistic, Jo?"

"Reality, the hell."

"Ckckk. Is there a guy like this? Pede is amazing. Good luck."

"But you forgot to go back to the core of the problem we're going to discuss." his words once again made me speechless unable to dodge.

"Ah, yes. Emm, I was sorry, Jo. I kind of minded a little bit about ...."

I don't know why I'm confused about what to say. Johan looked at me, raising one eyebrow.

"That, yesterday Aksa said something that made me a little uncomfortable. He declared that he wanted to have you."

Johan was expressionless. I don't know what he's thinking. Hopefully he doesn't think that I'm asking him to be Aksa's father.

"That's not the point of the problem. What I don't like is, that Aksa said her father could be replaced by you. He he he. I'm a little sick hearing that ... To be honest, until now no one can replace Erlangga in our hearts."

"We or you?"

"I'm sorry?"

"You can keep your late husband in your heart. No one will be able to force her to remove her from your heart and memory. That's certain. Just not with Aksa. After all he was still a child who wanted the figure of a father by his side."

"Johan ...."

"Regardless of who will be the father Aksa continued. Whoever it is, essentially Aksa needs a father figure. Perhaps you are preoccupied with your own feelings without wanting to look deeper into Aksa's heart."

"He's my son, Jo."

"Gisel and Aksa have the same life story. Their desire is the same, having a full-fledged parent. It's just that, until now I still haven't found the right woman for him. I tried to find, but you even closed the door of the heart to everyone. That's our difference."

Not denied, my brain meng 'yes' is what Johan said. Merely, I find it hard to accept another man in my heart. What am I supposed to do?

"I never said anything to Aksa. Never once persuaded him to accept my presence. But, he himself had a desire for it."

I scrunched my forehead.

"Oh, don't misunderstand me. I mean, Aksa doesn't want me, he just wants me. That's all."

"Sorry, but I have to go in."

Not giving Johan a chance to say anything, I went straight into the house. Passing children who are still playing. Then lock yourself in the room.

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