Dimadu Tak Semanis Honey

CHAPTER 4

I look at the sky so beautiful, the creation of Allah SWT is so perfect. That's where the sun hangs, and that's where it rains. That's where the moon shines and the stars twinkle.

I saw that Zidan and Father were fast asleep, they seemed so tired.

"Siti, I think the hell. You just accept Ms. Amira's proposal, at least for the sake of the Zidan, her tea life will be guaranteed, she said, Your elderly father will not cape his work to others anymore and will not stay in your home that reot it"

I just let out a long sigh, what Mr. Kades said was indeed very true. If I become the daughter-in-law of Ms. Amira, my life will change. Zidan will not wear a pencil that is only as broad as a finger anymore, he will not wait long to replace his pencil, nor will you be busy working to find money for us to eat. They will not eat vegetables that contain only water.

Uh! If my future husband was Ustadz Zein, maybe I'd agree, although not very familiar with him but at least he knows the deeper science of religion so that he can live the household according to religious teachings.

But....

"arghhhh! how's that cynical guy gonna be my husband?" my screams in my heart.

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Everyone's eyes looked at me, so I felt awkward.

"Did Siti not tell you, sir?"

"Yesterday after returning from Mr. Kades' house, Siti was asleep so I haven't told her yet"

"Oh, he deserves to be shocked" said Mr. Kades.

" Daughter, we mean the family called you here, we want you to be the daughter-in-law of our family" said Ms Le

"But Ustadz Zaelani had a wife"

Silent.

Some of their families laughed amusedly behind their fingers covering their mouths.

"Aren't I Siti, but Lee Teuk will be your husband?"

"Teu eling O Allah" I said spontaneously.

"What does that mean" Bu Lee frowned.

"Euu means, Siti surprised Bu Lee"

"aaah ... " Mum Lee opened his mouth while nodding his head.

"Do you mind Siti?" Ask Miss Amira.

I looked at all the faces of the people in the room. They all hope to be anxious waiting for my answer. Only him! yeah he that looks like he's indifferent to me. Lee Teuk Kartasasmita is so cold.

"can the answer be later, Eyang? Siti is still confused. Siti has to think first"

I saw them looking disappointed including Father, I saw him close his eyes for a moment. The man who would become my future husband got out of the chair and went up the stairs.

"Y...!" shouted Bu Lee while following the steps of his son.

"Sorry yes Eyang, Siti is also confused" I lowered my head inside.

" It's okay, Eyang understands. Now go to sleep, it's late".

We all went to our rooms that were prepared by the waiter.

I entered the room that was upstairs, while the others were downstairs.

I was fascinated to see a bedroom that could be twice the size of our gubug reot in the village. The bed was so large, there was a long sofa at the end of the bed, under the left right side surrounded by a thick soft fur carpet. There is a bathroom in it. Wardrobe bags and shoes are even in different rooms, there is a pair of chairs and a beautiful table also facing the wall there is a TV that is so big maybe twice the size of my door.

There's a table with glass full of makeup, I can see there's powder and lipstick in there, there's some lotion bottles lined up.

"O Allah, I buy most sahcet at Mimin's stall"

There's a big box on the table, when I open a lot of pretty brooches there, not just one box but two boxes. My eyes were wide open for a moment I felt very wow!

I walked back to the room filled with sandals, shoes and clothes hanging, all stored in a glass cabinet, so I could see from the outside.

"Maybe it's Humaira's closet" I thought because the clothes hanging were all gamis. My eyes were fixed on one pink-colored robe, because I was very curious Ahirnya I reached, I fit right in my body.

"Pass? But I think Humaira's height is above my height" I try to remember Humaira's height.

"You likey?"

The sound surprised me not to play, until the clothes I was holding fell to the floor. I was so clumsy, confused what to do?

Lee approached and picked up the clothes that had fallen off. He gave it to me. I just looked down embarrassed, my heart was pounding so hard, it felt like my palms were wet from being too nervous to let out a cold sweat.

"This room is specially prepared for you"

"uh?" I raised my head and inadvertently our gazes met, for a moment Lee and I did not blink. Astaghfirullah, I immediately lowered my head again.

"Eyang called you at that time not because he wanted to give you a parcel, he deliberately wanted to measure your height, even though he did not know what the contents of the parcel were?"

"Why do you know what happened that night, I don't think I saw you there"

"I didn't get out of the car, I just went to the mosque and you hit me. After that I stayed in the car"

"car? what's that white car?"

"hm"

"is it okay from the inside you're staring at me silently?"

"what does that mean?"

"That night I just felt someone was watching from inside the car, I thought the driver"

"aa what? the chauffeur? ck. this woman"

"Why? won't we?"

"Forget it!" he shouted while advancing his chin.

Lee flipped with his hands across his chest he walked away, he stopped at the door.

"Marry me, I'll make sure your family's safe"

Czechoslovak

Lee closed the door leaving me who was still in doubt as to what was happening right now, everything was so quick and too sudden, he said, I who feel myself the poorest in an instant live in a room with all its luxuries.

Married to a man I don't love? I don't know if he's good or not? How could Lee with his perfect physique not have a lover? he asked me to marry him, I didn't even know how to use this lavish bathroom. Ah very embarrassing, fortunately the waiter who drove me earlier could explain everything well until I knew the round how to use the toilet seat. Aishhh! How Lee married a stupid woman like me.

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"Better I close my eyes, the journey is still far away.

The car was traveling at a speed that was splitting the crowds and congestion of the capital.

Six hours they traveled, until they arrived in the village. After saying goodbye to Mr. Kades, Siti and her family came home with everything by which they brought gifts from Ms. Amira.

Enthusiastically Zidan held a bag containing food, he also tipped a large scraping bag that contained food as well.

"Ah, he is the happiest when it comes to mah food" I murmured.

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"Ti, I will not force you to want to marry his granddaughter Bu Amira, I leave everything the same as you all"

"Thank you or Teh, Aa Lee is handsome, if the same marriage drops A Lee later Zidan can eat well he he he he he"

Our conversation after performing the isa prayer. I am confused to accept or reject God, I have been praying for two nights istikharah but the instructions are still unclear, I still doubt.

"That's Zidan you think of wae tea"

"His or sir, we can eat well only yesterday at Aa Lee's house, Teteh is often tahajud same Dhuha maybe this sustenance from God for Teteh"

"You kids know football wae, don't think about things like this"

"Eh ari Bapak, pan Zidan mah frankly, pretentious or similarly people here mah Teteh like to be rejected because we are poor people even though they are not rich people, either, now God sent Teteh jadoh whose house is as big as a regular nu ball field Zidan maen"

I just listened to Zidan and Mr. Father, one let me choose for myself, the other wanted me to accept Ms. Amira's proposal, I knew Zidan didn't understand much about life, he only knew that if I married Lee, his life would change materially.

I looked around my fragile home, this is indeed very comparable to the thousand-fold house we stopped by yesterday, even I think this house is suitable if made a place to keep animals, he said, but unfortunately this house has me, Father and Zidan in it.

Zidan saw clearly how someone had come to our house asking me to reject his son's proposal.

"My son's tea likes the same gravestone you are, but I disagree. I don't want my son's money to be spent feeding your father and sister"

"O Allah, ma'am." I said between my sobs.

"Sorry Siti, but that's the fact my son does have a grocery store in the market, he has a lot of money but if you have to feed your Father and Sister every day, then my son's money runs out, my son's money runs out, I beg you, reject my son. I ngmong sma my son not to propose to you but he mah maksa wae, if you refuse mah he tea stop chasing you, as a thank you, I will give you a complete shot"

"No need to bother Mom, go and tell your daughter, I don't like her either, I don't want her to come to my house, have nohun Ma'am, mango poke home"

Not only that, there are even citizens who invite me to marry only religiously, he wants me to just be his mistress, with the lure of giving me a living of 1.5 million every month. I obviously refused outright, but I don't know where the news came from to his wife's ears.

He came with anger against me and also my father.

"Sir, I know you're just a farm worker, but please take care of your son! taught to have good manners. This is too poor to damage the household of the Pisans, sir do not sell your son just for the stomach of sir, shame as the same wrestling of God, sir, Father tea is already miserable in the world not to be miserable in the achherat"

"enough! even if there were no other men in the world I would not want tea to be a simple husband mother, I am poor Mom, ma'am, but I have a self-esteem I'd rather starve to death than have to damage people's households"

"i'm a hypocrite Siti, you are beautiful but your beauty tea should not be used to seduce married men oruh, kumaha you mah Siti!"

If only at that time Mr. Kades and the people did not come to divorce maybe we would have a big fight.

I just let out a long sigh and smiled at the debate of Father and Zidan which further went where.

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" O God of all knowledge, the servant comes to cry out to You, forgive this despicable servant, forgive all the sins that he has committed, I know it is inappropriate for me to ask you too much given the lack of a good servant to please and love you.

Allah has no place to complain and plead with you. Give Your guidance on all the hardness of the heart of the servant, give the best way for the servant. I believe what happens is Your best will for the servant. aamiin"

"Siti, Thank you for your blessings Father can perform Hajj, I'm very happy. If my mother was still there maybe now the Father and Mother have become Haji Nak" Mr. Bawling as I picked her up at the airport.

" Already sir, you should also thank my husband, he did all this"

"Yes son, I'm grateful to have a daughter-in-law as good as your husband. Be a dutiful wife Siti, your ridho is no longer in the Father, but in the ridho of your husband, you are the clothes that must cover everything in his body and life, he said, your husband's shortcomings and dishonors are your duty to cover them up"

Allahuakbar.....

"Oh Allah, I overslept, and did not have time to pay a salary or recitation. Astaghfirullah. has made dawn"

I took off my face, and immediately put on my hijab, I went out to fetch water.

Allahuahbar....

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Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wa Barokatuh.

Just finished my greetings, Zidan has already called.

"Teh, here..." Zidan gave me a cell phone

"who's this?"

"Aa Lee, this is Mr. Kades' cell phone, he's out on the same page"

I grabbed Mr. Kades' phone from Zidan's hand, while I was still staring at Zidan in a daze, the boy just smiled as he muttered. Ah Zidan I know you like Lee so much.

"Hallo.." said Lee.

"Assynoltom..."

" ee.. Wa Waalaikumsalam"

"Why call so early in the morning? you don't know Mr. Kades' house to my house is far away"

"What's wrong, after all Mr. Kades is willing, right?"

"How's Siti?"

"What?"

"Your answer"

"Ah. that..." I was silent for a moment, I gave a glimpse of my bad sister's face. His head nodded quickly. I know he wishes I said yes.

"Bismilbornrahmanirrahim... God willing I want Lee"

"Yes!"

I breathed a heavy sigh.I didn't know if this was true or not. My determination is only one, happy Father and Zidan, I don't want him to live in poverty anymore.