Dimadu Tak Semanis Honey

Bonus #7

..."Haram, ban me. When I fall in love. God hold my heart so I don't break it. I love him, love at first sight. Only God can make the impossible possible."...

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The POV Johan

For a moment I was amazed, seeing the angels that rest on the earth. Her charm managed to make my heart barely stop for a moment. Until I realized that he was just a human being whose beauty was like an angel.

The hijab-wearing woman with beautiful eyes was the mother of the child who had been close to me. Boy, his classmate Gisel.

A sign of what this is, why it's so coincidental. There is no intention behind the good I have been doing all this time. And see? I'm getting more than the so-called "pamrih."

Since that meeting, almost every night the shadow of his face disrupts my sleep. His smile was always reflected when my eyes closed.

"Aargh! what's the matter? why is he haunting me," I grumbled as these eyes were completely unwilling to close.

I tried to drink a glass of warm milk, hoping to get sleepy soon. But what happened? I even saw a shadow of him in my house.

"Crazy! it really drives me crazy. Astagah." I shook my head violently. I hope he gets out of my head. No results, nothing. He was still in my mind.

That afternoon, it was like getting on the road when Gisel whined to meet Aksa. Without thinking much, I said yes.

Shower and dress up. I don't know how many times I have to change clothes. Damnit damnit! why do I feel like a teenager just in love?

"Bapi, hunting. Why long?" my little angel banged on the door of the room so hard. I don't want to be caught by him. Quickly finish the dance and approach her.

"What did you bring Aksa?" ask me while in the car greetings to Aksa's house. Ah, no. I mean that woman's house. Ish, it's the same.

"I don't know, I'm confused. It's up to me."

This little girl is confusing me. I might have gone there empty-handed.

When passing on the road. I see a flower shop. My heart moved and went to the store.

"Please, Sir. What flowers are you going to buy?"

"I don't understand what I'm supposed to buy." It's amused to say that. I'm a CEO who never had a labile soul, can change thousands of degrees just because of a woman's smile. Damnit damnit!

"Just have a rose, sir. The average woman loves roses." The store owner differentiated the advice.

"alright. Please, neat and nice layout, yeah."A bucket of red roses big enough for his mother and a fruit parcel for his son, who will one day be my son too. Haha, ngarep! it's okay dong, his name is also ideals.

All the way, I was nervous. My fingers were cold, my heart was beating irregularly. Sometimes it feels like stop beating. But one day, he was beating so fast. Geez! why do I feel like a young man in love? but am I not in love, either? Yes, the first time I met was in love, anyway?

Anyway, why is she so beautiful, God.

"But why smile for yourself?" my little girl's question, made me wail. I feel ashamed, does he know how I feel?

"No, really. Who is smiling."

"Fire."

"Times?"

"He-em." he resumed his focus on the phone screen. Ah, why is he so sensitive?

"But, do you know Aksa's home address?" once again, her question made me feel sad. How can we travel without knowing where we are going.

Not long after, a reply message came. I read the address on the screen. So sure I knew the address, immediately started the car and drove off impatiently wanting to meet up soon.

Wanting to see his face soon, I missed it so much.

When we arrived at his house, we were greeted by the maid in the house, until finally Gisel and I were invited in.

As soon as I saw it, my heart that was originally dueted quickly, for a moment stopped. Stuffy. I can't say anything.

Talk for a while, until he takes me somewhere else. I want to talk to both of them he said.

To be honest, I tried my hardest to hide my nervousness. Putting out a joke that I felt was so crisp.

Uh, but he's laughing. God, why does she look so pretty?

"That's not the point of the problem. What I don't like is, that Aksa said her father could be replaced by you. He he he. I'm a little sick hearing that ... To be honest, until now no one can replace Erlangga in our hearts."

I don't understand when he says. All I know is, there's a bloodless sore in the chest. What kind of man is so special that he can make that woman love him so much. Erlangga, what charm do you have, I am so envious.

I don't want him to misunderstand me, even though I really want to be a father for his son. But, it's not like this. I want him to really be able to open his heart with the attitude and sincerity I gave him.

"We or you?" the question just slid. It's anxiety because he's too selfish in my opinion.

"I'm sorry?" she's shocked. The smile that had been decorating her face was gone.

"You can keep your late husband in your heart. No one will be able to force her to remove her from your heart and memory. That's certain. Just not with Aksa. After all he was still a child who wanted the figure of a father by his side."

"Johan ..." she held back the anger.

"Regardless of who will be the father Aksa continued. Whoever it is, essentially Aksa needs a father figure. Perhaps you are preoccupied with your own feelings without wanting to look deeper into Aksa's heart."

"He's my son, Jo." His lips began to tremble. But I don't care. I keep talking, hopefully he can understand and understand.

"Gisel and Aksa have the same life story. Their desire is the same, having a full-fledged parent. It's just that, until now I still haven't found the right woman for him. I tried to find, but you even closed the door of the heart to everyone. That's our difference."

She's speechless. I know, he just confirmed what I said. Because that's the truth. He was too busy with his heart, without thinking about what his son wanted.

"I never said anything to Aksa. Never once persuaded him to accept my presence. But, he himself had a desire for it."

He scrunched his forehead. Why is he so surprised by what I say. Does he feel like I'm in too much of a hurry? Oh, no I didn't mean to.

"Oh, don't misunderstand me. I mean, Aksa doesn't want me, he just wants me. That's all."

"Sorry, but I have to go in."

I could only sigh as he left. Either wrong or not, but he must be aware. A child who from childhood never feels the love of a father, he will certainly have that desire, feel the affection of the father figure.

I know, she must be a good mother. However, he forgot that he could not be a father figure to his son.

I went inside. Take Gisel home after saying goodbye to Aksa and Zidan. Coming to this house so happy and unworthy, now come home with guilt and sadness together.

As my car drove by, I passed by a car parked in front of the house not far from Aksa's house. I saw a man in it. It's not strange if that happened, who knows he's choosing that house. What made me ask a little was her look at me. Cynical and looks full of anger. Whys?

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