DILEMMA - Get Off Bed

Season 2 [POV Alfiya 1]

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Alfiya actually did not want to think about anything much at that time. He wanted to be calm, without any burden on his head. And it was quite working after these two days he was treated, long enough Alfiya did not feel his heart airy. The woman who had just experienced a miscarriage was actually only aware that she had not thought about herself for a long time, how she felt and also and what she wanted.

Miscarriage experienced makes Alfiya very shocked actually. Where he just found out that she was pregnant after the fetus was no longer growing in her stomach. The doctor said he was too tired, too many thoughts and also the fetus lacked nutrients. Yes, Alfiya is often awake at night and also no appetite in the last few weeks.

So, this is how it feels to lose a prospective baby even before he had time to realize his presence.

He remembered some time ago the mother was sick because of the loss of Anggita and the father was also hit. As well as Elvan and Jio, everyone lost the figure of Anggita. Including himself, Alfiya was also very hard hit by the loss of a big brother.

But, from that day on everyone seemed angry with her, especially Ernika's mother. And it hurts so much.

On a hospital bed with a white room feel. He lay limp while staring at a fresh flower placed in a clear flower fitting filled with clear water. Said a nurse who always took care of her flower it was from Elvan.

"Your husband looks very worried."

Alfiya's heart would always beat fast when the midwife told him that.

"He was very worried. It seems he loves you very much as his wife."

For that one sentence somehow Alfiya was not sure, there was a pulse of pain in his heart. A sense that Alfiya wanted to avoid was to feel his heart ache again.

Does Elvan love her? Alfiya did not know. Because he had never heard that phrase from Elvan's mouth.

Yang Alfiya knew they had lived together as husband and wife, he had also surrendered himself completely to Elvan. Trying to be a good wife and also always taking care of Jio.

Alfiya breathed a sigh. He pointed his palm at his stomach and then stroked gently. Once there was a baby with Elvan grew there, although Alfiya did not know, but he and Elvan almost had children.

This incident made Alfiya rethink the events of that time.

Everything has gone by so fast, since the day they started it all. How at that time Alfiya was confused by all the decisions he took. Where finally he was forced to take the risk to agree to marry Elvan at the request of his parents, which at that time he was still in a relationship with Joe.

He who ended up stuck in a difficult choice, was forced to make a decision. Between staying with Elvan to make both parents happy and caring for and mothering Anggian, or choosing to divorce and deciding to continue with Joe.

At that time, with all his strength, Alfiya released all the feelings he had in a man named Joshua Mahendrata and tried to forget everything about them. And with all his might he tried to divert and grow his love for Elvan.

Having known Elvan from childhood made Alfiya not hesitate to decide to try to continue with the man. Elvan is a hardworking figure who is very proud of his father and mother, a figure of pride because he is also very good in his education. And last time became a graduate of S2 from a famous university, sometimes it makes the mother of Ernika and father Imran compare Alfiya and Elvan also in addition to Anggita.

Alfiya had long been aware of it, he was rarely or never even proud of his parents in whatever he did. Or is he too much?

"Where areyou? Never did I see it in the report entered the top five even."

Usually Alfiya will immediately bow quietly or just leave if you have started comparing himself like that. I don't know if he actually tried hard, just entered the top 10 actually Alfiya was very happy. But it turns out that the results he got were not in accordance with the expectations of the mother. Not without reason, the lessons liked by Anggita are usually not liked by Alfiya.

Meanwhile, after deciding to choose Elvan, Alfiya began not to remember anymore memories of himself and Joe. He is getting used to his role as a mother and wife. That man, Joe will definitely get someone better, Alfiya believes.

But that's not really easy. Joe's shadow is always there. Every word sequence that Alfiya had arranged in his head even sheet by sheet of letters that he wrote just to say their relationship should end was never conveyed. Once again, every Alfiya was about to tell them they had to break up then it would end with a feeling of unbearable, Iya Alfiya did not yet have the strength to do that.

In the confusion, Alfiya decides to block all access to Joe. Because honestly his heart did not dare to face the man.

Until one day, everything is revealed when Joe comes with his parents and Jenny to propose. Alfiya was like being hit right then and there, he felt caught making a big mistake. How Joe was so devastated and disappointed, even a rage that Alfiya had never seen before.

"I'm here to bring my family to propose to you, Fi...."

When the memory was there again, Alfiya flinched. He immediately shook his head strongly. Why should he think about all that again.

Alfiya subconsciously tried to expend all his energy to keep the feelings of some people. And without the woman realizing it was also very tiring, and Alfiya finally realized that he could not if he had to do it again.

In the middle of his mind that was still hovering, Alfiya's pair of eyes caught someone like he was arguing with a nurse from the glass door of his room.

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"I'm her husband, I know how my wife is." Elvan was obviously on the nurse. "I just want to meet her Mom. Please I haven't seen her condition at all during these two days."

The nurse looked at me. Look closely at the man who is pleading in front of him. "If you know how your wife is, then why can't she want to meet everyone even her own husband."

Elvan snarled in his heart. There was no way he would have to tell everything to the nurse he considered this kepo. "Please have something to talk about." Elvan said again. "I love him, there's no way I'm going to hurt my own wife."

The nurse thought for a moment. Until then he agreed. "Well, but if something bad happens later—"

"I make sure nothing bad happens." Elvan quickly tried to convince with his chest up and down.

The nurse understood. He who was initially hesitant did not even allow Elvan at all to meet Alfiya finally collapsed as well.

Then the door of the room was opened.

Elvan walked slowly into the room, watching Alfiya who was looking at him in confusion.

The man's heart immediately throbbed, he missed his wife.

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