DILEMMA - Get Off Bed

I'm Afraid to Face It Without You

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Surely Alfiya increasingly make Elvan's self-esteem hurt. The man looked at him more deeply with eyes that were able to make everyone unable to see him, there was anger there.

"Decide on her, or else you will actually do your husband's duty to you."

The deg! Alfiya was stunned by that remark.

But it seems like Elvan's speech is not enough to get there. "Mas will carry out obligations and give you an inner living if you don't immediately decide on the man."

Alfiya was suddenly frightened, he shook his head quickly. Elvan's voice may not be too jarring, but it seems to be able to make the woman in front of him sweat.

No way! Nah! Alfiya continued to pull his body back. Why did Elvan suddenly become like this. Elvan wouldn't do that, would he. Didn't they promise. But why is it like this. Has he done and said anything wrong?

Elvan could have said that to her. Elvan really made her feel contemptible. Which one he said Elvan would continue to consider him a younger brother. Elvan has really hurt his pride.

After being silent for a long time, holding hands tightly enough Alfiya then ventured to look at Elvan.

"Mas Elvan, I didn't expect you to say it was the same with me" she said. "Mas promised to continue to think of me as a sister, I guess mas will continue like that. But today I'm really embarrassed." Alfiya's face stiffened.

Elvan's eyes were round, and his countenance changed. He then realized it seemed to understand what was forced by Alfiya. It's true why it became like this. What he said earlier. Why was he suddenly able to say that to Alfiya.

"I'm disappointed, I'm really disappointed with Elvan. He has stained me with those words." Alfiya's tears then trickled down. "I'm disappointed in you."

Elvan suddenly felt guilty. God, he realized he had said a disgusting word. He could have said that.

"Fi..." - Elvan with a sorry look.

Alfiya. "Mas, I hate you!"

"Afenya...." Elvan was alarmed by his own actions. "Mas, I'm sorry. It was just...." Oh, my God, Elvan really feels alone. He did not expect to have overflowing his emotions on Alfiya.

The girl was still sobbing, she threw away the face of Elvan. "From now on I don't want to talk to you again. Do not reprimand me. Never speak for anything." The girl was completely inexhaustible, it was possible that Elvan thought of her like that.

"From now on keep your distance, please help me.... We each have our own lives. And also, sorry.don't ever ask me to separate from Joe again. Because I love Joe mas so much, so don't push me!" After saying those words, Alfiya then passed away from there. "Good night.." she said as she passed.

Elvan was stunned after the departure of Alfiya, then the man was sitting himself on a chair. What's really going on with him. He could have said that to Alfiya. Elvan also does not understand why he can be carried away by emotions.

He was really in a dilemma right now. Suppose his wife is still by his side at this time. Suppose they were still together. Surely things won't be this complicated.

The memory goes back to the days before. The day he was still with his wife. Still remembered the sweet smile.

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Four years ago. Elvan who was just home from work was greeted cheerfully by a beautiful figure who hid his hands behind his back. The man looked at wonder.

"I have something for you" said the graceful figure.

Elvan's eyes were round and asked. "What's? What's something?" sengus curious.

"But close your eyes first." asked the woman.

Elvan smiled, and he would close his eyes now. He waited a while too. "

"Old time, dear...."

"Patience." He appears to be pulling out something that he is hiding behind him. "Now you can open your eyes."

"You.... pregnant?" elvan asked at last.

The woman who was biting her lower lip because she was too happy nodded steadily twice.

Elvan still can't believe it. "Darling? This serious?"

Then we laughed and nodded back. It feels like this happiness cannot be expressed in words. She was very happy to have given the most beautiful gift to her husband.

Elvan closed his eyes with a sigh by his erratic heartbeat. "Thank you honey...." He hugged his wife tightly. "Thank you." Truly Elvan felt a tremendous novelty infiltrate into the recesses of his heart.

"You will soon be a father." said Anggita.

Elvan nodded in that embrace.

"You're happy, right?" Tanya Anggita not lose haru.

"I'm happy, very, very happy. Thanks darlin. I'm happy because we're gonna be parents soon."

 

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Elvan remembered that with teary eyes. Slowly he got up from his seat, came out of the kitchen and walked into the room.

Arriving in the room he opened a drawer located on the side of the bed. An album that looks new because it is well maintained. Elvan then sat down on the sofa facing the bed.

He slowly opened the album sheet, opening up his old memories with Anggita. He took the pictures slowly. The album contains his old memories with Anghita. Looking at the picture on the album as soon as Elvan's tears dripped. The man suddenly became fragile.

Now he knows, his behavior towards Alfiya earlier was his impingement for missing Anggita too much. It seems he still can not accept the departure of Anggita until now.

He then sobbed. His feeling really felt so claustrophobic at the moment.

"Sick Git... is sick" he told a picture of his wife. "My heart hurts baby, why did you leave me and Gian so soon? Why?" Elvan's tears kept dripping down the album sheet in his hand.

"I'm afraid of Git, I'm afraid to keep going through this. I am afraid to live my life for the next. I don't think I can raise Gian alone without you beside me, baby."

Elvan looked deeper and deeper until his face touched the photo album. He was sobbing more and more, shedding all his sadness at this moment. Spilling pain from the corner of his heart that continues to throb.

No one knew how empty his life was right now. It felt like Elvan was unable to face the future. The man continues to lament the past. The regret that continues to rage.

Finally he slowly raised his head, looking at Anggian who was sleeping very soundly. Maybe if it wasn't for Anggian he wouldn't have been this strong. Anggian who is innocent, still do not understand what happened to his mother.

Elvan felt, the boy considered Alfiya as his mother just to find a replacement figure. The figure that suddenly disappeared in his life, the sticky figure of a mother.

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