About Taste

Pain Loss

Ella had been hospitalized for three days, and her condition had begun to improve. He has been transferred to the hospital room, not the ICU. But only Andra, and Bik Darmi accompanied him. Yesterday Reymond came to Paris, he visited Ella and delivered Andra's cell phone. Andra has managed to contact her parents, but it turns out Andra even got bad news.

Mr. Louis knew that Kairi was planning to go to Reunion Island, and he knew that the plane that Kairi was carrying crashed in the Indian Ocean. The news was very surprising, and immediately made Mr. Louis drop. When Andra called, Mr. Louis was in the hospital, he was on the IGD. Ms. Mirna cried bitterly at that time, her sadness could no longer be expressed in words. Her husband dropped, and was unconscious. Then Kairi, until now there is still no news about him. Whether he survived or not, until now his status was still in search.

Not much different from Mr. Louis, Ms. Halimah also experienced the same thing. He instantly fainted, and his high blood instantly relapsed upon hearing this news. He was shocked to hear the disaster that hit Kairi, he was also very worried about Ella's condition. And as a result, only Andra can accompany Ella here.

It is still very early today, and not even dawn. Andra sat down on the chair beside Ella while twitching her temple. Many times he tried to contact the rescue team, but there was no news of Kairi. Of the 100 passengers, there are still 11 people who have not been found, and one of them is Kairi. And what makes Andra pessimistic is that, of all the passengers that have been found, none have survived. They are all in a state of lifelessness.

Andra took a long breath. Aside from being chaotic from thinking about Kairi, Andra was also a little chaotic thinking about Saints. Since yesterday he tried to contact Saints, but there was no result at all. The Holy Number is always inactive. Andra also told people to look for information about Saints in Indonesia, but the results were unexpected. The Sacred House was empty since three months ago, regardless of where they moved, the Saints had never discussed this with him. Andra tried to contact her friends, to find out about Saints, but the results were still nil. Saints disappear like swallowed by the earth, somewhere he went, and what happened to him.

Andra ruffled her hair violently, as she almost managed to love Suci. Why is there even an incident like this, Suci disappeared, while Kairi, somehow the situation is now. Now it was only Andra who accompanied Ella, and took care of her. This test was too heavy, Andra was afraid that her feelings that would once again come to fill her heart.

"Ndra!" call Ella slowly.

Andra looked up, looking at Ella who was awake from her sleep. Andra kept her phone back, and moved from her seat.

"You've woken El, you want to drink, you've got some warm tea, you've got some milk, which one you want?" andra asked while looking at Ella.

And Ella shook her head.

"I don't want Ndra, I want to go for a walk" Ella replied.

"It's still very early El, it's still dark outside" Andra said.

Ella let out a long sigh, and exhaled it violently. He was so bored lying down like this. And with Andra's help, Ella rose from her sleep. He sat down while leaning his back.

"Have you heard about Kairi?" she asked Ella while looking at Andra.

Andra was silent as she lowered her head, this question is very difficult to answer. Ella closed her eyes, trying to hold back the clear circles that had been welling up in her eyes. Seeing Andra silent, Ella understood that Kairi had not been found.

"You where Kai is, why would you leave me like this. You need to get back Kai, I need you." Ella's inner hand gripped the blanket.

"El you are patient, do not think too heavy, it is not good for your condition. You are a strong woman, I'm sure you can get through all this. Remember, there is another life in you, which you must take care of. You should be able to, for her sake." Andra said as she clasped Ella's hand. Seeing Ella close her eyes, and bite her lip, Andra knew that the woman was injured.

"I need Kairi Ndra, our togetherness is still very short. But why must there be such a calamity, I am not strong Ndra." said Ella sobbing. It hurts, it hurts so much.

"You must be strong, you must not give up. There I will always accompany you, and always support you. El, believe me, Kairi must be fine, she will definitely come back" Andra said as she wiped Ella's tears.

Although in his heart he was doubtful, but he had no other choice. This is the only way to get Ella back in the spirit. If it turns out the results are disappointing, let it be a business later. What matters now is that Ella has to heal, and Ella and the baby have to be okay.

"Oh yeah El, Dimas called me earlier" Andra said, switching the conversation.

"Silver Dimas."

"Yes, he said later in the afternoon he would come here, see you" Andra said with a smile.

Ella did not reply, she simply lowered her head while frowning her fingers.

"What I hope is not Brother Dimas, but Kairi." Ella's inner self in her heart.

"El, the dawn is coming. Do you want to go for a walk now?" ask Andra.

"With a walk, maybe you'll be a little comforted El." Andra's inner heart.

"Yes." replied Ella while nodding.

Andra helps Ella out of bed, and Andra takes a wheelchair, and helps Ella sit there. The wheelchair is equipped with an infusion buffer, so Andra is not troubled to carry it. Slowly Andra began to push her chair, and took Ella out of the room.

Andra takes Ella to the hospital park. Inhaling the fragrance of fragrant flowers. Staring at the sun that began to spray the light of his throne. The breeze of the morning wind slowly blew, creeping Ella's hair a little messy. Andra sat crouched down beside Ella, she tucked Ella's hair behind her ear.

Ella looked straight ahead with a blank look. The shadow about Kairi again flashed in his memory. Usually Ella always stared at the sunrise like this through the window of her room. While staring at the tower, and also looking at her husband who was still asleep in bed. Or sometimes if Kairi was awake, they would stare at her together. Kairi always hugged her from behind, while whispering sweet words that made Ella blush.

But all of that is just a memory. The memories are still firmly imprinted in Ella's memory. Now, Kairi's somewhere, and somehow. It's not that Ella is pessimistic, and doesn't believe in the greatness of God. But finding the fact that there was not a single survivor, Ella did not dare to hope for more. Ella was afraid that hope would end up disappointing, and make her even worse.

Ella lowered her head, she plucked the dried leaves of the flower. Grasping her tightly, and looking at her fixedly. Andra was still crouching beside Ella, staring at whatever her best friend was doing.

"Kairi is right Ndra, in this world all have their own time. They will leave when the deadline has arrived. Like this leaf, it grows, then ages, and then dries. Our life is not much different from that leaf. Each of us will experience what is called death" Ella said with teary eyes. Andra did not answer, her throat seemed to be choked to hear Ella's words. His heart was sliced with pain, he knew that Ella was currently in a very broken state.

"Every meeting there must be a farewell, dare to have to dare to lose. That's what Kairi said to me, and it turns out he was right. I used to dare to have him, now I have to dare to lose him. You know Ndra, he said that line the day before he left for Reunion. If only I knew there would be a day like this, I would choose not to know him. I can't afford to lose her, sick Ndra." Ella said in tears. His body trembled, he dissolved in a heartbreaking cry.

Andra got up from her seat, she wiped Ella's tears, and looked at her closely.

"Kairi must be fine. Although no other passengers survived, but I'm sure Kairi will survive. He's different El, he's so tough, he's so great. You know, he promised me he'd always take care of you. He must have kept his promise, you know that he never broke his promise." Andra said in a trembling tone, in fact his heart was crying bitterly. He did not dare to hope as he said, as the possibility of Kairi surviving is only 10.

"Don't cry, she won't be happy to see you like this. Promise El, promise not to cry anymore. Remember, there is a baby in your stomach. She'll be sad, if you cry like this." Andra continued while still staring at Ella.

"Since he knew his father was in an accident, he's been sad for Ndra" Ella replied quietly.

"Then why did you add to his sadness? If you knew she was sad, should you have tried to comfort her? You know El, God still loves you. You're still entrusted with taking care of him. You're obliged to look after him!" andra said firmly.

Ella looked at Andra without a blink. What Andra said has a point. Ella lowered her head, her hands rubbing her stomach slowly.

"Although this is difficult, but I will try to survive, for her sake. O Allah, may You give strength and fortitude to the servant. May You still bring happiness to the servant. Save Kairi, allow her to remain a servant priest." Ella inwardly closed her eyes.

***

The hour hand has shown at 14:00 Paris time. Ella was sitting on the hospital bed, and Andra, she was sitting next to him, bribing him. Ella's condition has improved, but doctors still do not allow her to go home, because the condition of the womb is still a little weak.

Ella chewed her food slowly, it felt very bland, and it felt very heavy to swallow it.

Although Ella had eaten for almost an hour, Andra was not bored, she still patiently fed Ella little by little.

"Lies one more El" said Andra while feeding her food, she breathed a sigh of relief because a plate of rice had managed to get into Ella's stomach.

"Drink milk, this is a doctor's advice, so that your content gets better" said Andra while reaching for a glass of warm milk on the table.

He helped Ella drink it to the toilet.

Shortly after, the door of the room opened. It was Dimas who came. Dimas stepped closer to Ella while carrying a fruit parcel.

"El, how are you? I'm sorry I'm late to see you" Dimas said as he sat next to Andra.

"I'm good Brother, thank you for coming here." replied Ella in a flat tone. At the moment he is not affected by anyone's presence, because all that is expected is the presence of Kairi.

"How's..." Dimas did not continue his sentence, because his foot was stepped on by Andra. Dimas turned his head to look at Andra who was glaring at him. Dimas let out a long sigh, he should not have asked Ella about Kairi.

"How are you?" tanya Dimas switched the conversation.

"Alhamdulillah he is also good Brother." replied Ella still in a flat tone.

"Thank God then" said Dimas.

"Sir Dimas how's it going?" ask Ella slowly.

"I'm good El, Willi is good too, he's getting active now" Dimas replied.

Ella was stunned, hearing Willi's name, she remembered the time. Dimas and Yura split up because of her. London, he shouldn't have come to London. Had he settled in Indonesia, Dimas would not have parted ways with Yura. And he won't meet Kairi either, he won't lose like this. Perhaps this is what the saying goes, do not love excessively, if you do not want to get excessive sadness. But how else, he already loved Kairi excessively. Kairi was already enthroned throughout the space in her heart.

"You want to eat El's fruit, I'll get it?" ask Andra.

"No, just later. I...I want to rest Ndra, it's okay, sister?" answer Ella.

"It's okay, take a break I'll come out" Dimas said with a smile.

"Call me if you need anything." Andra said as she moved from her seat.

Ella looked at Dimas, and Andra who had already reached the doorway. Ella turned her face away, and her tears came back. No matter how hard he tried to hold on, and be patient. The pain still stifled his heart. Ella hugged her blanket tightly. He looked down, letting his tears run down his face.

"I'm fragile Kai, I can't afford to lose you. Why are you this long, why are you leaving me alone. Kai's pain, it hurts so much." Ella said on the sidelines.

Ella hugged her knees, hiding her face there. Twice he lost a very valuable man in his life. When he was a child, he lost his father, a man who loved him very much, and spoiled him very much.

And now she lost Kairi, the man who became her husband, who loved her very much, and loved her very much.

"Why don't I just go, why should you. You know Kai, I was devastated when I lost Dad, and now you're leaving me too. You see me now Kai. I'm fragile, I'm very fragile" Ella said, still sobbing.

And within seconds, Ella felt her world start to darken. He did not know what was happening to him, he only heard Andra's voice vaguely calling his name. He wanted to look around him, but there was no more strength in him. His body was very weak, even to open his eyes he could not. Between conscious, and not, Ella felt her body being carried away, and taken somewhere.

Seriate......