About Taste

Wounds and Disappointment

"Is all this right, Mama?" asked Andra in a very slow voice, but it can still be heard by Ms Mirna and Mr. Louis.

"I'm sorry Mama Andra, I'm sorry Mama." replied Ms. Mirna in tears.

Andra breathed his breath violently, the apology his mother said was enough to make him understand, if all this is true.

Andra moved from her seat, without saying anything she immediately stepped away from her family.

"Andra! Don't go Andra!" she shouted, Miss Mirna called Andra, but Andra did not care, she kept her feet up and out of her house.

"Andra!" shouted Miss Mirna with a louder cry.

"Myrna calm down, Andra just needs time to accept all this" Mr. Louis said, trying to calm Ms. Mirna down.

"Why are you doing all this Mas, Andra must be very sad" said Ms Mirna as she covered her face.

"He deserves to know who his real father is, so he can love his father Mirna too" Mr. Louis said.

"You don't know anything Mas, Adit was dead a month ago. The truth you're telling me is gonna make Andra very hurt" Ms. Mirna said.

"What!" shouted Mr. Louis in shock.

"His father is dead, pity him too." Kairi's inner self in her heart.

"I'm sorry, I don't know if Adit's dead" Mr. Louis said as he tried to grab Ms. Mirna's hand.

"No need to apologize, Andra already knows. Sorry you won't change things. From the beginning until now you have not changed, you are still selfish!" shouted Miss Mirna as she moved from her seat.

"I'm sorry Mirna, I know I was wrong" Mr. Louis said.

"I don't need your apologies. Because it can not change the situation, my life has already been destroyed because of you Mas." snapped Bu Mirna while stepping away from Mr. Louis.

But just a few steps Mirna walked, suddenly he lost his balance and almost fell.

Fortunately Kairi swiftly propped up her mother's body, Kairi smiled as her mother looked at her.

"I'm helping Ma." said Kairi. And Miss Mirna answered him with a nod.

Kairi leads her mother to her room, and Kairi helps her mother lie in bed. Even though his heart was slashed with pain, he knew that his mother was in a difficult position at the time. Kairi is a man who can think maturely, everything he looks at in terms of positivity.

"Mama rest, I go out first" said Kairi as she stepped her foot.

"Look!" call Miss Mirna.

Kairi turned her head, and looked at her mother who was looking at her at the time. Kairi again stepped closer to his mother, he sat on the edge of the bed, next to his mother.

"What's the matter Ma?" ask Kairi.

"I'm sorry Mama, forgive Mama's mistake. Mama knows it's very hard for you, Mama's really sorry Kairi." said Ms. Mirna as she rose from her sleep. He hugged Kairi while crying.

Kairi returned his mother's embrace, a hug that had only been in her dreams.

"You can be angry with Mama, you can curse Mama. All that Mama deserves, because Mama is Kairi's useless mother" Ms Mirna said on the sidelines.

Kairi closed her eyes, trying to hold back her tears from dripping. For many years he longed for the embrace and affection of his mother. And today, she got that hug, but today too she knows the harsh reality of her past.

Kairi's heart felt very tight, he also felt sick and disappointed. Surely he was eager to vent his emotions, but no, it was his common sense that restrained him from doing all that. At the moment his mother's heart is broken, he must not add to her burden of mind. Wanting to be angry at his father is also impossible, even though his father was clearly guilty, but so far the youth who contributed to his life.

And Kairi could only harbor her sadness and disappointment alone.

"I'm sick to hear the truth, but there's a lot more pain than I am. Andra, she must have been very hurt, knowing that if she wasn't Papa's child, and moreover her real father was gone, she must be very broken at this moment." Kairi's inner heart.

"I wasn't angry Ma, I understood Mama's predicament back then" Kairi said as she tightened her arms.

"I've hated you all along, but you can grow up to be a very wise man. I'm increasingly feeling Kairi's uselessness." said Ms. Mirna in her heart.

"I'm sorry Mama Kairi!" said Ms. Mirna while crying. Even her tears had now wetted Kairi's shoulders.

"Mom don't keep apologizing, nor do you keep crying. I can't bear to see Mama like this" Kairi said softly.

"Do you not hate Mama, all this time Mama has treated you badly" said Ms. Mirna.

"Mama is my mother, where I may hate Mama. For me, my mom is still the best. Now Mama don't cry anymore huh, we forget what has gone before. Now that we fix our relationship, we start everything from the beginning Ma" Kairi said as she let go of her embrace. Kairi wiped her mother's tears with both hands.

"I'm sorry Mama Kairi!" said Ms. Mirna while holding Kairi's hand.

"Ma don't keep apologizing. Promise not to cry anymore Ma" said Kairi to calm her mother who was still crying.

"Hopefully in the future, this family relationship can continue to improve. I'm happy that Mama can finally love me." Kairi said in her heart.

After her mother stopped crying, Kairi helped her lie on the bed, and covered her. Kairi remained sitting beside her mother, she accompanied her mother who was almost asleep.

Kairi reached into her pants pocket, and taking her phone, she contacted someone.

"Hallo." greet someone over there when the phone connection is connected.

"Hallo baby, what are you doing now?" ask Kairi.

"Again Kai fall, just joined Mas Gilang deliver the order." replied Ella.

"Do you want me to be with you?" kairi Goda.

"Don't start Kai." replied Ella.

"Start what?" ask Kairi.

"Easter!" ella's snapping that just made Kairi laugh out loud.

"Don't laugh, there's nothing funny" Ella said in annoyance.

"I laugh not only because it's funny, but also because I'm happy now" Kairi said seriously.

"Happy why?" ask Ella.

"You know what I'm doing right now?" Kairi asked back.

"Of course not Kai, you're there and I'm here, where might I know" Ella replied.

"Let's guess" Kairi said with a chuckle.

"Mmm what yes, looking for a reference place to make prewed photos possible" Ella said with a laugh.

"Yes can't wait to become Lady Da Vinci. Have a lot of subordinates, also have a lot of treasures, hmmm happy." said Ella while laughing increasingly louder.

"Darling don't tease me." said Kairi slowly.

"Why? You also tease me a lot, it's not fair that I shouldn't tease you." Ella replied.

"If you are so brave, look out later if you have met. I kiss you until you cry, baby." said Kairi.

"Don't fuck around, kiss me, don't expect to marry me!" ella said with a sharp tone.

"Oh yes, but I'm afraid you'll cry three days and three nights if we fail to get married dear" Kairi said with a laugh.

"You're the one who's crying, not me!" said Ella.

"Crying together to be fair. Unfortunately you know no, my relationship with Mama is now improving, it is improving" Kairi said as she looked at her already peaceful mother in her dream.

"You're serious Kai?" ask Ella.

"Yes, that's why I'm so happy dear." replied Kairi.

"I'm glad to hear Kai, but why did it suddenly get better, what did Kai do?" ask Ella.

"There was a little misunderstanding in the past, and we've cleared it up. So now our relationship has improved." replied Kairi.

"You know enough about my happiness, Gabriella, without needing to know about my injuries. This wound is enough I myself know, I don't want you to be sad for making my wounds." Kairi's mind with a smile.

"Thank God Kai, I'm really glad to hear that. Hopefully with this, our plan can run smoothly" said Ella.

"Who knows the reason for Aunt Mirna's sudden good attitude, I'm sure it's not as simple as Kairi said. I hope all this will have a good impact on my relationship with Kairi, because I remember Andra yesterday. Ahh hopefully he has given up." Ella's inner self sighed deeply.

"Aamiin, I also hope so dear" said Kairi.

"Kai!" call Ella.

"Hmmm." muttered Kairi, but for a few seconds there was no reply from Ella.

"Why baby?" ask Kairi.

"Not ", Ella answered.

"Why?"

"It's okay."

"If you miss just say it, don't be harbored." teased Kairi.

"No, I don't miss you" Ella said quickly. But her cheeks started to blush, Kairi always knew what she was thinking.

"I'm sorry today I haven't been able to see you, but tomorrow I will visit your house, you can let go of your longing for me" Kairi said.

"I don't miss you Kai!" scream Ella.

"I see, I miss you, and I want to see you" Kairi said with a smile. This woman is really shy.

"Kai!" call Ella.

"What?"

"You're right" Ella said quietly.

"What's right?" ask Kairi.

"Don't ask too many questions, what matters is that you're right" Ella answered quickly. Kairi laughed at Ella's response.

Shortly after, they cut off their phone.

***

The Andra Dwi Anggara.

He drove off his car, and left his house with a deep wound. He was disappointed in his very bitter destiny. Andra drove his car to the Surabaya city TPU, he wanted to visit his father who was lying under a tombstone. Andra continued to increase his speed, he did not care about the number of vehicles that were too busy when he met him.

Not long after, Andra had arrived at his destination. He got out of his car and hurried to his father's funeral. Andra hugged a tombstone bearing the name Aditya Ramlan. Andra could no longer hold back her tears, which had been there since.

"Dad, why don't you ever tell me this truth. I hurt Dad, I know all this when Dad's gone. I haven't been able to make Dad happy, I haven't had time to apologize to Dad." Andra said in tears. His tears fell down the mound of earth in front of him.

Andra continued to cry while holding the roses that were still scattered on the ground, the roses that had begun to dry and blacken. His heart felt very claustrophobic when he remembered about before. Andra often ruled Mr. Adit, and sometimes also often snapped at him. Tell him to do this, and if the results are not as expected, Andra also does not hesitate to scold him.

Shadows about that time continued to flash in his memory. Makes his heart ache and stiffer. He really regretted having treated Mr. Adit badly, when in fact the person was his real father.

"I'm sorry Dad, I'm sorry" Andra said as she dropped her head on the mound, which became her father's final resting place.

The blazing sun was now unseen, covered by the black clouds hanging in space. Occasionally the sound of thunder rang out deafeningly. The atmosphere that had been bright, now turned dark, as if nature also grieved over the wound that Andra felt.

Andra did not budge in the least, he still cried over his father's grave, he did not care about the rain or the storm that would come to hit the city.

All he knew was the pain, and the sense of regret that was so agonizing in his mind. The fact that he is just an illegitimate child, as well as the fact that his father is dead, makes Andra lose the spirit to live his life.

The specks of water began to fall, the longer the heavier. Thunder also continued to thunder increasingly louder. Andra still did not budge, he did not care about his body that was soaked, because of the rain.

Andra kept crying, letting her tears dissolve with the rain. Right now no one can make him excited. In his heart he was very disappointed with his mother. If only his mother could be honest from the beginning, it probably wouldn't be like this. He will love Mr. Adit, and respect him, and treat him well.

But no, his mother never mentioned this at all. Until now what he always missed was Mr. Louis, a man who turned out to be just another person for Andra.

"Why didn't Mama ever be honest with me, why didn't Mama ever tell me!" yelled Andra alone. His loud voice sank amidst the rain that was falling so heavily.

While Andra was dissolving in his sadness, suddenly the rain no longer hit him. Andra frowned in wonder, the rain was still falling profusely, but why did he not feel it. Could his father have picked him up, and now he is in the afterlife?

Andra looked up, and on her head was a black umbrella protecting her from the rain, who was it?

Who comes and still cares about him?

"Andra!" call the person in a pretty slow voice, but it still sounds clearly in Andra's ear.

"That voice, is it really him?

Does he really care about me?" andra in his heart.

Seriate......