About Taste

Cannot Forgive Not Be

Ella was lying weakly on the hospital bed. His face looked pale, with a drip that stuck into his left hand. The doctor had just examined her, her stomach acid was rising, due to late eating, and too much burden on the mind. Ella let out a long sigh, her left knee hurting as it moved. As a result of the fall, his left knee was injured, as well as his left elbow that looked bruised.

"Drink again El." said Nadhira as he looked at Ella.

Ella nodded, then Nadhira took him a glass of warm tea, and helped him drink.

"I've called Mas Gilang, he said he'll be here soon with Budhe" Nadhira said as he placed his empty glass on the table.

"Yes Nad, thank you for helping me a lot" Ella said as she looked at Nadhira who was sitting next to her.

"El we are friends, there is no need to thank you like that" Nadhira said as she rubbed Ella's arm.

Shortly after, the door of the room opened. It was Vino who came. He stepped closer to Ella, and Nadhira.

"How is he doing?" vino asked Nadhira.

"It's better" replied Nadhira.

"Thank God then" said Vino.

"Thank you Vin." said Ella quietly.

"No need to thank you, we're happy to see you're fine El." Vino replied with a smile.

A few seconds later, a handsome man came into the room. His body was clad in black pants, and a long white shirt rolled up to the elbows. Ella's heart beat rapidly as she looked at the man, Kairi. What'd he come here for?

Ella turned her face away, her heart still hurting, and was disappointed at Kairi's attitude last night. Although she actually misses, and wants to throw into her arms, Ella holds back her feelings. She is a woman, obligated for her to maintain her pride. Kairi had already let go, and left him. There was no way now that Ella would shout longing, that was very much not allowed, because she was not a beggar woman of love.

"Whatever this longing may be, I must keep it to myself. She can't know, she let me go. I can't hope for her anymore." Ella's mind was biting her lips.

Kairi kept walking towards Ella. The more Kairi approached her, the faster Ella's heartbeat would be. He closed his eyes, trying to strengthen his heart so as not to melt with Kairi's charm.

"Gabriella, what happened, how are you?" kairi asked as she stood next to Ella, her face full of worry. The woman he loved so much lay weakly in the hospital because of him.

Ella still closed her eyes, Kairi's voice was so melodious in her ears. She used to hug Ella from behind, and whispered a sentence, which always made Ella blush. Ahh it's all just a memory, he's gone leaving such a deep wound in his heart. Do not fall a second time, in the same hole.

"Get out!" ella said flatly, and without turning her face away. He did not look at Kairi for a second. Not unwilling, but Ella did not dare to look at him. Just as soon as his eyes met Kairi's blue eyes, surely his defense would be destroyed right then and there.

"Gabriella, I came here to apologize. I was wrong, I misunderstood you. Please forgive me, please let me see how you are" Kairi said, staring at Ella.

"I'm fine, so now get out!" said Ella.

"Gabriellas!"

"Get out!"

"Please Gabriella."

"Get out Kairi!"

"Gabriella please."

"Vin, I just want to be with Nadhira" Ella told Vino.

Vino understood Ella's words, then he got up from his seat, and approached Kairi.

"We go out first" Vino said as he took Kairi away.

They walked out of the room.

"Although Ella still loves you, but she needs time to forgive you, please understand" Vino said as she patted Kairi on the shoulder.

"I'm not going to give up, I'm going to keep trying to get him back" Kairi said.

"That's great, she's happy to be with you. If you've got him later, please don't let him go again" Vino said.

"I understand, yesterday I misunderstood, and I finally made a fatal mistake" Kairi said.

"You can definitely fix your mistake" Vino said with a smile.

Meanwhile, in the room, Ella returned to shed tears. His wound grew even more gaping when he saw Kairi coming to see him. Deep in his heart he missed Kairi so much, he was eager to hug the man, and leaned against his chest. But Ella could still think with her common sense. Kairi has disappointed him, Kairi has hurt his heart. It was impossible for Ella to forgive him so easily.

"El, are you crying?" ask Nadhira.

"I'm sad Nad, I still love her." Ella replied as she wiped her tears.

"Then why don't you forgive him?" ask Nadhira.

"He hurt me, Nad, it's impossible for me to forgive him so easily. I still have Nad's pride." replied Ella.

"We're not the same, you've held high your pride El. As for me, I have absolutely no self-respect as long as I love Andra." Nadhira said as she bit her lip.

He remembered a long time ago, when he was in a relationship with Andra. He always succumbed to Andra's selfishness. He always put his pride aside, for the sake of their relationship. But finally, now the relationship is running aground as well.

Shortly after, the door of the room opened. It turned out that Miss Halimah, and Gilang, they entered the room.

"El what's going on with you, son?" ma'am Halimah asked as she rubbed Ella's arm.

"Just a little dizzy, and limp. I'm fine ma'am." replied Ella with a smile.

"If you're not feeling well, you shouldn't have to deliver the order, let me drive it." said Gilang while staring at Ella.

"I was fine, but somehow my head got dizzy, and my body went limp." replied Ella.

"You're late to eat" Gilang said.

"No, yes." replied Ella.

"I'm sorry I'm not being honest." Ella's inner.

Since the morning he had not eaten, his pain made his stomach not feel hungry.

"Thank you, Nadhira, you helped Ella" Ms. Halimah said, looking at Nadhira.

"Yes Budhe, Ella is also my friend, I should have done this Budhe." replied Nadhira.

"You're a good girl Nadhira" said Ms. Halimah.

"Budhe could have, yes already then I went out first Budhe" said Nadhira with a smile.

"Yes, son, thank you again" said Ms. Halimah.

Then he stepped his foot, and walked out of the room.

Once there, it turns out there are already Andra and Miss Mirna. Nadhira was slightly misbehaved when her eyes met Andra's.

"Nadhira!" greet Andra while smiling stiffly.

Nadhira nodded with a smile. He only glanced at Andra, then looked back down. In her heart Nadhira wondered, what happened to Andra, her face filled with bruises. Then Nadhira pulls Vino's hand, and invites him to walk away.

"What's the matter, Nad?" ask Vino.

"What did you do to Andra?" Nadhira asked back.

"You're worried about him."

"No Vin, I'm just curious" replied Nadhira.

"I think Andra caused Ella, and Kairi to split up, so I beat him up. But it's not, it turns out that Kairi himself misunderstood Ella's feelings." said Vino with a grin.

"You beat him up, and he's innocent. Then isn't he mad at Vin, his face battered so?" nadhira asked as he frowned.

"You're angry free Nad, it's been done too" said Vino while still smiling.

"You are outrageous" said Nadhira.

"You're worried about Nad with him. Do you still love her so much." said Vino as he stared fixedly at Nadhira.

"Ckk, don't misunderstand Vin, I don't love him anymore. Precisely now that I was very curious, why did you do it for Ella" said Nadhira as she returned Vino's gaze.

"Because of me, and Ella the same. We used to both bear wounds, because we loved our friends. Now I'm happy, even though you can't fully love me. But you have accepted me, and are willing to marry me. That's enough to make me happy Nad, after we get married later, I'm sure slowly love will continue to grow in your heart. So I also want Ella to be happy, even though she doesn't end up with her best friend. He was hurt enough, so now I won't let Andra mess with his happiness" Vino said at length.

"Sama-sama loves a friend, I don't understand what you're saying this Vin." said Nadhira.

"I've loved you since Nad High School, I think I've told you" Vino replied.

"My masud isn't you, it's Ella. Did Ella ever love Andra?" ask Nadhira.

"Do you not know?" Vino asked back.

And Nadhira shook his head.

"From the first time I knew Andra, Ella loved it. It's just that Andra never understood, he was even engrossed in his own free life. Once inside Ella saves her feelings for Andra, but Andra only considers her as a friend" Vino explained.

"What!" nadhira said as he closed his mouth. Vino's words make him jerk in shock, if all this time Ella loves Andra. Then how does Ella feel when she sees herself in a relationship with Andra.

"I thought you understood Nad" said Vino.

"I don't understand Vin, ahh he must have been very hurt when he found out I was in a relationship with Andra at that time" Nadhira said.

"It's possible, but it's okay, Nad, there's a silver lining too. The proof is that now he gets a guy as good as Kairi, is not it better Nadhira" said Vino.

"You're right, it's just that I feel bad for Ella" Nadhira said.

"Just relax, Nadhira, you're just one of Andra's lovers. Despite not being in a relationship with you, Ella will still be hurt. You know, Andra is always changing partners." said Vino while holding both shoulders Nadhira.

"During that time Ella harbored her feelings for Andra. Why didn't Andra ever notice Vin?" ask Nadhira.

"Oh, Andra's a fool. I used to remind him a lot, that they both harbored feelings. But Andra just thought of it like a joke. Ahh now regretted him, only realized his feelings when Ella was happy with others" said Vino.

Andra was sitting in a chair in front of Ella's room. Look at them closely. He saw Vino, who occasionally held hands, and Nadhira's shoulders. Andra looked down, knowing that Vino had loved Nadhira for a long time. When he has released Nadhira, of course the man will be present and fight for his love.

***

Ella has been hospitalized for two days. Even though Ella was bored, and wanted to go home. But the doctor has not given permission, as soon as tomorrow morning Ella can go home. Gilang, and his mother just got home, because they've been in the hospital all night. Now the only ones waiting for him are Garrison, and Ariel. There is also Andra, and Kairi. But Ella never let them in, so they just waited outside the room.

"El, Kairi is outside. Since yesterday he hasn't come home, let him in huh" Garrison said as he looked at Ella.

"No." replied Ella while shaking her head.

"You don't be stubborn El, I know you still love him" Garrison said.

"But he hurt me, I can't forgive him" Ella said.

"Don't say no, but not yet. I know you what you think, you're disappointed with him. But you still love him. Listen to me yes, everyone has mistakes, whether they are intentional or not. Forgive her, listen to your heart, and pursue your happiness" Garnis said, holding Ella's arm.

"I can't Ma'am, I've decided to go from him, I'll never come back" Ella said.

"Don't overdo it, upholding self-esteem is good. But it is not meant to have to close the door of the heart, and do not want to forgive others. At least forgive him, and listen to his explanation. After that you're free to make a decision, leave or come back" Garrison said.

"Yes El, I see you and he loves each other. Give me one more chance, than you regret it later." said Ariel.

Ella did not reply, she let out a long sigh when she heard the words of her two brothers.

Meanwhile, Andra and Kairi were sitting next to each other in a chair, outside the room. Kairi lowered her head while holding her head. He deeply regretted his decision, he was too rash in judging Ella's feelings. And now that her mistake was fatal, Ella would no longer forgive him. He waited two days in the hospital, but Ella did not allow him to enter.

"You can't give up Kai, you have to be able to get Ella back, you have to explain your mistake, and apologize to her. She loves you so much, she must have been very hurt when she parted with you" Andra said as she looked at Kairi.

"I must have explained everything, and apologized to him. But you know for yourself, right, until now he hasn't let me in. Then how do I explain it, and how do I apologize to her" Kairi said, rubbing her face violently.

"Ella is a little stubborn, and she is also a woman who upholds her pride. You let go, she must be mad at you" Andra said.

Kairi fell silent, he did not answer Andra's words. Because he was angry with himself too.

"Why can you be this stupid, Kai. Usually you're so smart, why was yesterday so stupid" Andra said as he exhaled violently. Slightly irritated by Kairi's attitude, which unleashed Ella just like that, just for her sake.

"I did it for you, I know you love him!" kairi Bentak.

"I love her, but Ella, she doesn't love me at all. So how can you force us to be together, you're a Kai freak." Andra replied in annoyance.

"He loved you for seven years, and I, two months, filled his heart. It's not strange that I think he still loves you, let alone that he still cares about you. Don't keep saying I'm stupid, 'cause you're more stupid than me. You wasted her for seven years, and then you realized that you loved her. It wasn't just stupid Andra, it was so stupid" Kairi said, staring intently at Andra.

"From the time I was stupid, you know that too. But you, you've always been smart, but why was yesterday suddenly stupid." replied Andra did not want to lose.

Kairi had not yet answered Andra's words, suddenly the door of the room opened. Turns out Garrison, he exits the room, and walks over to Kairi.

Kairi's heart was beating rapidly, had Ella allowed him to enter?

Or even tell him to go home?

Seriate.....