About Taste

The Fatal Mistake

"What do you mean Holy?" asked Andra quickly, while looking at Saints sharply. Andra's heart was beating rapidly, the fact that Saints were pregnant with her child, it was enough to shake her soul. And now, Suci says her son is at peace in his sleep. Hopefully none of this is what Andra imagined.

"He was born prematurely Ndra. His condition was very weak, and he was often sick. He breathed his last four years ago, when he was only eleven months old." Suci replied with a bow.

"What!" andra said as she rubbed her face violently. Why is there always a harsh reality, which he knows too late. First Ella's feelings, second about her real father, and now about her biological son. Why destiny so likes to play with his feelings. Is there some more, another bitter reality, which he does not yet know.

"I'm sorry I can't keep him" Suci said very quietly.

"My life was really hard, and I had no way to explain it to you. You've chosen to go Ndra, I can no longer hold you." Inner Sacred in his heart.

"It's not your fault, I'm wrong. I can't even believe that you really contain my anank" Andra said, clasping Holy's hand tightly.

"Can you take me to his funeral Holy?" said Andra while looking at Sacred.

"Come on!" invite the Saints while nodding.

Then he stepped back towards his son's funeral, and Andra, he followed him from behind.

Soon, they stopped near a tombstone that read A. H. Star.

Andra sat down crouching while gripping the tombstone tightly. His chest felt very tight, as if there was no longer room to breathe.

"Why did everything become like this. My father died before I could apologize to him, and I haven't been able to treat him well. Then now, my son is dead, before I can see what his face looks like." Andra looked down.

Andra gripped the tombstone tighter and tighter. What kind of man he is, he's already ruined the life of a Saint. He was the man who took away his chastity, he who impregnated him, and he was not responsible for his actions. Can the Holy One forgive himself? Can his son forgive himself?

"I'm sorry, son, I never knew what your face was like. I've never been in your life, you just live with your mom. I don't know how hard your mom gets through all this alone. I'm a real jerk." Andra said in his heart.

"He is calm there Ndra" said Suci, holding Andra's shoulder.

Andra turned her head, looking at Sacred who was smiling at him.

"I'm sorry Holy, I've ruined your life, I've taken away your future. Slap me, hit me, I won't get angry, I deserve it" Andra said as she looked at Saints sitting in front of her.

"I wouldn't do that Ndra. We used to do it like-mindedly, you never forced me, so I'm also guilty of this." Suci replied with a smile.

"You're gonna forgive me?" ask Andra.

"Of course." answered Suci while staring at Andra.

"I'm actually very angry, and very reluctant to forgive you. But somehow I can't do it, my heart always melts at you. Maybe I'm stupid, I love a man like you so much." Holy inner in his heart.

"Holy!" call Andra.

"Hmmm." murmured Holy.

"Are we..we still friends?" andra asked nervously.

Sacred held onto Andra's shoulder while laughing crisply.

"That's just Ndra's past, why are you being this whole bunch. Of course we can, we'll still be friends. I was sad when I lost the Star, but how else, it was fate. I believe God has prepared the best path for me." said Suci with a smile.

"I really can't resist you Ndra, my feelings still remain as they used to be, still love you so much. But you're right, we're just friends, I don't dare expect you to be my lover. With my current situation, being close to you, I'm happy Ndra. You're the only man who's always been in my heart." Holy inner in his heart.

"She can still smile at me, after what I did to her. Why are there so many good women around me, and stupidly me, that woman I always hurt" Andra said in her heart.

Andra looked back at the tombstone in front of her. There was a bunch of white lilies placed there, probably Saints who did it. Andra closed her eyes, trying to hold the clear circle, so as not to drip over her cheeks.

"Ndra, where's your father?" ask Sacred.

"Not far from here." replied Andra quietly.

"I'm sorry, son, I hope you can forgive Dad." Andra said as she stared at the tombstone.

"I'll come if you go" said Suci.

"Yes, come!" answered Andra as she moved from her seat. Then he set his foot toward his father's funeral, and Saints followed him behind.

Andra stopped his steps after arriving near the tombstone that read Aditya Ramlan.

Andra sat down crouching, and Suci also sat next to her.

"Dad died a month ago" Andra said as she stared at Suci.

"I'm sorry Ndra. I'm sorry I wasn't there at the time, I didn't know your father was gone" said the saint.

"It's okay." answered Andra.

"Don't you Ci, I don't even know that the one who died was my father." Andra said with a bitter smile.

"You look so sad Ndra. If only one day, I was lying under a tombstone, would you be that sad too. I don't know, until when God will allow me to look at you, but I don't think it's long Ndra. Not that I'm pessimistic, but that's the truth." Sacred mind while looking at Andra who was down.

"Holy!" call Andra while looking at Sacred.

"Hmm."

"Why aren't you angry, why do you still want to be friends with me? I've been so cruel to you, Ci. It's too late if I want to make amends now. Would you if I wanted to marry you now?" asked Andra while holding Holy hands.

"Even though I don't love her, but I've been so guilty of her. Besides I've no hope of being with Ella." Andra's inner self in her heart.

Sacred Heart began to beat rapidly, Andra's hand grip felt warmed in her hand. And that warm feeling began to creep up, seeping into his heart. If only Andra had been able to hold it this warm, this smooth. She will be the happiest woman. But now, everything has changed. A lot of things happened to him, which you didn't know. Andra wants to marry her again just because she feels guilty, not because of the feeling of sincere love as she expected. It made the Sacred Heart slightly hurt.

"You don't have to force your feelings just because you feel sorry for me. You deserve to be happy with the one you love, and I, I deserve to be happy with the one who loves me." - Suci.

"This time it's no longer the marriage I want, it's just enough feeling. I'll let it all go, and it flows like water. I will wait for that feeling to grow sincerely from your heart. I wish that love existed, before I close Ndra's eyes." Inner Sacred in his heart.

"I'm sorry Holy! I'm sorry!" said while hugging the Saint tightly.

"I've forgiven you Ndra." answered Suci while rubbing Andra's back.

***

The man started to say hello. Showing the brightest rays of his fingers, and dazzling. But no matter how beautiful the twilight, Andra did not intend to look at him. His heart was broken, and broken. All the realities in his life, forcing himself to drown in a baseless sense of regret. Andra walked over as she entered the door of her house. His head remained down, staring at the slightly muddy end of his shoes.

Faintly his ears heard a noise from the middle room, maybe his family was gathering there. Slowly Andra walked towards the middle room. He lifted his face, and his eyes looked at his parents who were sitting on the sofa. Not only his parents, Ella and Kairi were there as well. They were looking at a very large picture. Photos of Ella and Kairi while they were in Paris. They used the photo as a prewed photo.

Andra walked up to her mother, and then she hugged her mother very tightly. He was no longer able to hold the wound alone, he needed someone to be a place to lean.

"What's your why?" shouted Miss Mirna in shock. His son suddenly came, without permission to directly hug him very tightly. What the hell happened to him?

"Andra! Your mother answered why?" ma'am Mirna asked as she shook Andra's body which was still in her arms.

Mr. Louis, Ella, and Kairi, they looked at Andra in surprise. They looked at each other, and wondered in his heart, what happened?

"I'm sorry Andra Ma" Andra said softly. Miss Mirna started to feel a drop of water falling on her shoulder. Miss Mirna was getting confused, why did Andra cry? What the hell happened to him?

"You why Ndra? Mama replied, don't confuse you!" shouted Miss Mirna. He could not wait to hear Andra's explanation.

Mr. Louis got up from his seat, he held Andra's shoulder, and rubbed it gently.

"Andra you're a boy, don't shed tears. Tell me and explain what happened to you. We are here always for you, we will always support you" Mr. Louis said firmly.

And shortly afterwards, Andra let go of her embrace. She wiped her tears while sitting on the sofa. Andra took out something from her pocket, a small folded paper. Andra handed the paper to her mother.

"This is what Ndra is?" asked Mirna while grabbing the paper. Ms. Mirna opened the fold with a fast beating heart, looking at Andra's attitude, it doesn't seem like it's a good thing.

"What!" shouted Miss Mirna when she finished reading the writing on the sheet. Miss Mirna looked at Andra very sharply. His lips seemed to twitch, as if there were many words that were only stuck in his throat, and unable to be expressed.

"Hit me Ma, slap me, piss me off. I deserve all that." Andra said slowly.

Ella and Kairi looked at each other, they frowned, completely curious about what was happening. A piece of paper, is it a large enough debt bill?

"What's the matter Ma?" ask Mr. Louis while reaching for the paper that was held by Ms. Mirna. He read it, and then rubbed his face violently.

"Is this really Andra?" ask Mr. Louis.

"True Pa." replied Andra while nodding.

"You said it wasn't your son, but why is it now Ndra! What's really going on, tell Mama Andra!" shouted Miss Mirna while standing up. His chest seemed to rise and fall withholding emotions.

"Ma, calm down Ma." said Ella as she approached Ms. Mirna, and asked her to sit back.

"I forgot if I ever did it while drunk. He used to be close to rich businessmen, I thought they had a relationship, and that's his son, but I was wrong" Andra said, looking down.

"Is this about Saints, is she actually pregnant with her son Andra? If it is, you are absolutely outrageous Ndra." Ella's inner self in her heart.

"You used to say she was a bad girl, you sure it wasn't your son, and you were just framed. Why is it like this now. Is this engineering him, or are you hiding something from Mama?" shouted Bu Mirna while looking at Andra sharply.

Andra lowered her head, not daring to raise her face, or look at her mother.

"Andra's aircrew!" snarled Bu Mirna.

"Sorry Ma, I was lying at the time" Andra replied very quietly, but it still sounded clearly in Ms. Mirna's ear.

"Now tell me honestly!" said Ms. Mirna. His eyes began to glaze over, facing the attitude of his son who was very severe, making the emotions of Bu Mirna felt ignited to the crown.

"Holy isn't actually Ma's naughty girl. I ruined it, I robbed it of its sanctity. I lied to Mama to believe that it wasn't my son. I wasn't ready to marry her, I didn't love her Ma, and I was never careless when I did. Then I saw him with another man, I thought they did have a relationship, because at that time my relationship with Saints had stretched" Andra said with a still down.

"Where is the woman now, and where is your son?" mrs Mirna asked while holding her head. It felt like his brain was about to explode thinking that Andra's bad behavior had crossed the limit.

"Sacred is Ma, but my son is gone. He died four years ago." replied Andra very slowly.

"Go, get out of front of Mama!" shouted Bu Mirna while holding her chest. It felt like his chest was very tight after hearing the words coming out of Andra's mouth.

"I'm sorry Ma" Andra said as she looked at her mother.

"Go!" shouted Miss Mirna as she moved from her seat. He stepped into his room, with tears streaming down his cheeks. Mr. Louis is after his wife, he knows that his wife is in a mess facing this reality.

Meanwhile in the living room there are only Andra, Ella and Kairi left. Andra still remained down, naturally if his mother was angry, his behavior had already crossed the line. Let alone his mother, he seemed to be unable to forgive himself.

Kairi grabbed the white paper that was lying on the sofa, she read it, and then let out a long sigh.

"Andra, what's the fate of this woman now?" kairi asked while looking at her sister.

"He's okay Kai, he was still smiling at me. I also wanted to marry her, but she didn't. I really feel guilty for her, but I also don't know how to make amends to her." replied Andra.

"I don't know what to say anymore about Ndra. Where your heart, and your brain, why are only emotions and passions in you. Because he smiled, you thought he was okay. She became pregnant out of wedlock, gave birth alone, and lost her child alone. Imagine Ndra, it hurts. But you said she was okay, do you think it was all a joke, like a drama!" tell Ella in a high tone.

"All women have Ndra self-esteem. It's only natural that she wouldn't want you to marry her, because you married her out of pity, and guilt, not out of love. All women want to be loved by Ndra, not just slept with. You know how valuable honor is to every woman. If you want to make amends, learn to love him.I did not expect, all this time my advice only you consider the wind. We should never have been friends with Andra!" connect Ella with a higher tone.

Seriate......