About Taste

Andra and His Loneliness

"My guess is right, Andra loves Gabriella. Now what should I do." Kairi's inner while rubbing her face.

"Look!" call Bu Mirna while approaching Kairi.

Kairi turned her head, looking at her mother who was already standing next to her.

"Are you okay?" ask her mother in a soft voice.

"I'm fine Ma, I'm fine." replied Kairi with a smile.

"One thing you're expecting, keep Ella. You love each other, do not let your heart waver, because of Andra's feelings. The one that Ella loves you is Kairi, not Andra" Ms Mirna said as she looked at Kairi.

"Ella is a good woman, I think Kairi deserves her better. Remembering Andra's past, ahh it's all my fault, I've ruined my son's future." - inner Miss Mirna biting her lips.

"I understand Ma." Kairi replied with a smile.

"But I don't know Ma, I can't promise either. Gabriella once loved Andra, and now Andra loves Gabriella. There's still a little fear Gabriella has for Andra" Kairi said in her heart.

"Let's go down now, we'll have breakfast together!" take Miss Mirna.

"Yes Ma." replied Kairi as she followed in Bu Mirna's footsteps.

The two of them went downstairs, and headed to the dining table. Bik Surti had prepared his meal on the table.

"Bus!" call Ms. Mirna when Bik Surti is about to step into the kitchen.

"Yes Madam." replied Bik Surti as he stepped closer to Ms. Mirna.

"So Bik Surti saw Andra?" ask Miss Mirna.

"Yes Madam, Mr. Andra came out with his car" replied Bik Surti.

"Oh yes, thank you Bik" said Ms Mirna as she exhaled violently. From the first Andra never changed, always put forward his emotions whenever there was a problem.

"Yes Madam, then excuse me" said Bik Surti as he walked away.

"Eat Kairi!" said Ms. Mirna with a smile.

"Yes Ma."

***

The hour hand shows at 10:00 in the morning. Kairi was driving her car at a moderate speed. He was on his way to Ella's house. Along the way his heart continued to be agitated, remembering Andra's words earlier this morning stating about his feelings.

"May Gabriella's feelings for Andra be completely gone, and may Andra also accept all of this" Kairi said, staring at the street in front of her.

Turn by turn Kairi passed, until soon he had arrived in front of Ella's house. Kairi got out of her car, and greeted Ms. Halimah who was in the store. They talked for a while, Kairi apologized for not being able to bring her father here. Kairi explains that her parents' relationship is still not improving, so Kairi asks for a little time to invite them to come to this house.

Ms. Halimah nodded with a smile, she understood what Kairi was saying.

After she finished talking with Ms. Halimah, Kairi went inside Ella's house, and met her lover who was in the garden behind her house.

"Very beautiful" said Kairi as she approached Ella who was picking roses, and placed them in a vase.

"I am beautiful." replied Ella, looking down, her cheeks began to blush when she heard the praise coming out of Kairi's mouth.

"Dear baby, not you" said Kairi teasing Ella.

Ella did not reply, she just stared at Kairi while glaring sharply.

"She missed, why wasn't I greeted with a hug?" goda Kairi standing behind Ella.

"I don't miss you, you're the one who's overconfident" Ella said quickly.

"really?" kairi said as she hugged Ella from behind very tightly. He peeped Ella's head long enough, as if he was afraid that one day he would no longer be able to kiss the top of the head.

"My heart beats fast, baby, do you feel it too?" kairi whispered right in Ella's ear.

Ella's body began to tremble, her heart beating very fast. Kairi whispered so close to her ear that she could feel the warmth of Kairi's breath entering her ear. And again his head stuck so tightly to Kairi's chest, that he could clearly feel Kairi's heartbeat.

"Kai, don't be like this" Ella said as she clasped Kairi's hand around her waist.

"Why?" kairi asked still with a whisper.

"It's too close" Ella replied.

"In a moment, I miss you so much Gabriella" Kairi said.

"But Kai.." said Ella.

"I'm just hugging you, not gonna do anything. Let me hold you longer, while you're still beside me." said Kairi.

"What do you mean Kai?" asked Ella while frowning in wonder, somehow Kairi's words made her heart feel uncomfortable.

"none. I just want you to shut up, and let me hold you." replied Kairi.

Ella fell silent, it seemed like there was something Kairi was hiding from her, but what?

"Kai!" call Ella.

"Hmmm." muttered Kairi.

"You got a problem?" ask Ella.

"No." answered Kairi.

"I feel like you're hiding something from me Kai. Just tell me if you have a burden" Ella said.

"There's no Gabriella. I just love you so much, that at all times I'm afraid of losing you." said Kairi, letting go of her arms.

He turned Ella's body upside down, and now they stand facing each other.

"I'm not going away from you, so you won't lose me" Ella said with a smile.

Kairi did not reply, she just looked at Ella while returning her smile.

"Gabriellas!" call Kairi after a few seconds.

"What's wrong?" ask Ella.

"May I ask for it, just a little" Kairi said as she touched Ella's lips.

"But Kai." said Ella, rewinding her steps.

"It's okay if you can't, I understand baby, I'm sorry" Kairi said with a smile.

Ella seemed confused, whether to allow it or not.

"Kai!" call Ella while touching Kairi's arm.

Kairi turned her head, and looked at Ella softly.

"Yes" said Ella, nodding.

"You're serious?" ask Kairi.

"Yes." replied Ella while nodding. His heart beat rapidly, as Kairi smiled and started grabbing his waist.

Kairi took Ella's body into her arms, and she put her lips on Ella's lips, very short, just like a touch. Then Kairi pulled Ella's nape and held her in the chest.

"It's a love" said Kairi.

"It was, just like that." Ella's mind was in her heart.

He drowned his face in Kairi's chest, inhaling the scent of mint that emanated from her lover's body. Ella closed her eyes, as Kairi's hand rubbed her head gently. Is this as beautiful as love?

A few seconds later, Kairi let go of her embrace. Then they sat in a long chair in the garden.

"I made you a drink first." said Ella as she moved from her seat.

"No, just stay here and accompany me" Kairi said, holding Ella's hand.

"Just Kai" said Ella.

"You why Kai today?" asked Ella while sitting next to Kairi.

"I'm okay, why?" Kairi asked back.

"Too spoiled." Ella replied quickly.

"But you like it, right?" goda Kairi while embracing Ella's shoulder.

"No!" ella replied with a smile, and leaned her head on Kairi's shoulder.

"Are we letting go of Kai" Ella said after a few seconds.

"No." answered Kairi.

"Then?" ella asked as she looked up, looking at Kairi's jaw which was overgrown with fine hairs.

"We are hugging, if we let go of longing is not just like this dear." replied Kairi with a slanted smile.

"Shut up!" ella said quickly. He let go of Kairi's embrace, and looked at her sharply.

"Why are you upset, baby?" kairi Goda.

"It's not funny Kai." Ella replied.

"All right, whatever you say. But don't take it off, just keep it this way" Kairi said, re-embracing Ella, and resting Ella's head on her shoulder.

"As long as I can still, I want to always hold you" Kairi said quietly, but Ella could still hear it clearly.

"What do you mean, Kai, you've been talking like that all the time, what's really going on?" asked Ella with a fast-paced heart.

"Could Kairi know, if Andra loves me. But what's the matter, haven't I rejected her." Ella's inner heart.

"We don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. I love you so much, that's why I'm often scared, afraid that one day we can't be like this anymore" Kairi replied while peeping at Ella's head.

"The thought of your photo, and the shadow of Andra's words deeply disturbed Gabriella's heart. You and Andra are the people I love, I don't want any of you to get hurt, because you both have a sense of belonging. It's not that I'm expecting a farewell, it's just that I have to prepare myself, if one day we really have to part." Kairi's inner self in her heart.

"You don't talk about Kai, we're going to keep going like this. You love me, and I love you, too, so we'll keep our relationship. No matter how difficult the road that will test us, we will pass it together, and we will definitely be able to. Trust me, I'm always with you, I'll never leave you" Ella said seriously. He has to make it clear that his feelings are only for Kairi.

"I understand." Kairi answered briefly.

"May your heart, and your speech always be the same." Kairi's inner self in her heart.

"Kai!" call Ella.

"Why?" kairi asked as she rubbed Ella's shoulder.

"When you bring Om Luis here, you say that once we get to Indonesia, you'll marry me soon" Ella said.

"Now that Mama and Papa's relationship is still not improving, give me a week, I will come bring my parents here" Kairi said.

"One week yes, no more" Ella said.

"Yes" Kairi replied with a smile.

"Maybe by speeding up the marriage, it will be better on our relationship. I don't want Kairi to continue to feel doubtful towards me." Ella's inner voice sighed deeply.

"I'm happy to see your seriousness Gabriella. If your feelings are only for me, and there's nothing left for Andra. I won't fidget anymore, I'll keep you, and won't let you go." Kairi's inner self with a smile.

Then Ella released herself from Kairi's embrace, she looked at her lover with a smile.

"Let's help me!" said Ella.

"Where?" kairi asked while frowning in wonder.

"Actually I was going to plant this" Ella replied, pointing to the flower seeds under the chair.

"Where planted?" ask Kairi.

"There, it's still empty" Ella replied as she pointed to a corner of the park.

"Alright, come!" kairi said as she moved from her seat.

Ella smiled, then she brought her flower seeds to a corner of the garden. He crouched down next to Kairi who was making a hole.

"This flower will grow into the most beautiful flower" said Ella while putting the seeds into the hole.

"Why is that?" ask Kairi.

"Because it was planted with love." Ella replied with a laugh.

"Are you teasing me, baby?" kairi asked while raising her eyebrows.

"No." replied Ella while still laughing.

"But I'm tempted" Kairi said as she stared fixedly at Ella.

"Kai, don't fuck around!" scream Ella.

"One of a kind, you know what that is?" goda Kairi while bringing her face closer to her lover.

"Don't be weird Kai, remember we're not halal yet" Ella said quickly.

"What do I want to do, ahh I think your mind has gone everywhere dear." said Kairi with a slanted smile.

"You're a bitch Kai!" snarled Ella with a sweet lips.

"Yes I'm a bitch, and you like a shitty guy" Kairi said casually.

"Be quiet! Just keep doing your job." Ella snapped.

"Well, it's me working too, you take it easy, I like making holes, especially..." Kairi deliberately hung up her sentence.

"Kai, watch your talk!" snapped Ella.

"We're just talking about a hole in the ground for planting flowers. Is that wrong, baby?" kairi Goda.

"Shut up!" snapped Ella.

"I think your mind is problematic baby, too everywhere, or indeed I am too handsome, to make you easily imagine" said Kairi casually.

"You don't shut up, I'll go!" snarled Ella while glaring.

And Kairi only responded with a loud laugh.

***

The moon hangs beautifully in space. It spouts its pinkish light on the white mega mega that surrounds it. Thousands of stars looked beautifully studded in the vast sky, flashing beautifully without feeling tired. Andra flicked the curtains of her room even wider, she looked up at the beauty of the night that was far more beautiful than the path of her life.

Both fingers were clutching the cigarette he had just ignited. I don't know how many cigarettes he smoked today. Andra no longer touched the alcohol, because the last time he drank the curse, he even hurt Nadhira. This time, Andra only made cigarettes as his escape.

Andra took a slow sip of her cigarette, enjoying the smell of nicotine in each of her suction. Andra stood by the window of her room, letting the cold night wind sweep over her disheveled face. Either he was too fragile, or indeed his fate was too bitter. Andra did not care which was true, but one thing was certain, right now her heart was in turmoil, and was broken.

"I'm sorry Ma, maybe my departure worries Mama. But I need time to myself, I need time to calm myself down. Besides, now there is also Kairi who accompanies Mama." said Andra with a bitter smile. He went back to sipping his cigarette even deeper, as if only that thing could understand his feelings.

While enjoying his cigarette suction, Andra recalled about her past. How bad his personality used to be, no matter how many girls he took away his chastity, then he just left it. I don't know how much alcohol has entered his body, maybe it has now been fused with his blood. Ahh but wrong, not only then, but also now. Wasn't yesterday he was also still drinking alcohol, and hurting women. Hah he is always bad, unlike Kairi who is almost perfect.

"You're right El, sometimes past mistakes can be a lifetime of regret. You know, right now I'm regretting my mistake, and that mistake is wasting you" Andra said quietly.

"If all I've ever seen was you, and I didn't see another girl. Maybe I can be a good personality like you. I can graduate school, and I can also treat Om Adit well, I mean Dad. And when I found out the truth, I would not have been so sorry, had my relationship with Dad been good enough. And again, I also do not need to set my heart to let you be with others" said Andra while looking down.

Andra let out a long sigh, and exhaled it violently.

"But now I can only regret El, Dad is gone, and it's impossible to live anymore. And you've also been with Kairi, a much better man than I am. And Mama Papa now also has Kairi, while I, I can only be alone like this" said Andra while shuffling her hair.

Then he threw his cigarette butts, and re-ignited the cigarette he had just taken.

"I will suck you up, just like fate that also sucks my happiness until there is nothing left" Andra said as she stared at her smoke-pounding cigarette.

Seriate......