About Taste

Farewell

"That's really you El" Andra said as she clasped the hands of the woman who came to her. The real woman is not Ella, but Nadhira.

At that time Nadhira was wearing a light blue dress, her favorite color Ella. And her hair was rolled up, just like Ella was this afternoon.

Nadhira was stunned to hear Andra's words. Ella, what does this mean?

Last night Andra called her, and asked her to find a dress for their engagement. But it turns out Andra just disappeared without news, Andra did not so pick him up, and also did not pick up the phone.

Nadhira could not sleep overnight because she was worried about Andra, afraid something might happen to her. And all day Nadhira was still worried about him. He tried to contact Andra, but again there was no response from him. Then Nadhira came to Andra's house, and Andra was not there either.

And tonight Nadhira suddenly remembered Andra's apartment. Although Andra very rarely came to this place, but there was no harm, if he tried to check it.

The first time he entered, Nadhira hesitated a little, was Andra really there?

And he faintly saw the lights of the room that lit up, then Nadhira stepped towards there while shouting to call Andra.

There was no reply from inside the room, but Nadhira still continued to step there. And how surprised he was when he opened the door. The first time that greeted him was the pungent smell of alcohol filling the entire room. Then he also saw Andra's very messy room, some empty vodka bottles lying on the floor.

Nadhira called Andra, and asked what he was doing. But apparently Andra was drunk heavily, even to stand alone he seemed to have difficulty. While Nadhira was still fixated, not believing what he saw. Suddenly Andra was already walking up to him while calling Ella by name.

Nadhira gasped in shock, and his heart beat very quickly. What the hell is going on?

Does this drunken Andra have anything to do with Ella?

"It's me, why do you think I'm Ella!" nadhira shouted while holding back Andra's body that was about to fall.

"You're not Ella, so why come here. All I need is Ella, not anyone else" Andra said as she coughed.

"Andra, our engagement is a matter of days. I hope you don't disappoint me." Nadhira's mind with teary eyes.

"Yes it's Ella, I came for you" Nadhira said with a smile. Then he guided Andra's steps, and led her to the bed.

"Are you right Ella?" andra asked as she stroked Nadhira's cheek.

"Yes" answered Nadhira.

"You came here have you changed your mind? You will leave my sister and prefer me, and so will Ella" Andra said.

"What do you mean Ndra, did Ella come back, and you mentioned about your sister, did your sister come back. Andra I increasingly do not understand what is happening." Nadhira's inner heart.

"Your decision is right Ella, very true. Because only I can make you happy, because I love you so much" Andra said with a laugh.

Of love?

It turns out Andra loves Ella, why Andra?

Why do you hurt me this way?

Nadhira was no longer able to hold back her tears, the clear fur was now dripping down her cheeks. His heart was completely claustrophobic in hearing Andra's words.

"Andra, if you love me then what about Nadhira?" ask Nadhira.

"I don't love Ella, all I love is you. She can definitely give me up for you." Andra replied as she coughed.

"That's how you feel, Andra, like this is the end of our relationship. You really are cruel Ndra." Nadhira's inner self as he sobbed.

Andra tried to get up from her sleep, she was surprised to see Nadhira who was crying sobbing.

Then he cupped Nadhira's cheek and wiped his tears.

"Don't cry, I'll make you happy. I promise." Andra said with a faint look.

"I'm crying because you're Ndra. That's how you feel for Ella, until you are completely unconscious, if the one in front of you is me, not Ella." Nadhira's mind while crying.

"Don't cry!" andra said as she brought her face closer.

Nadhira remained silent, he let Andra's breath begin to warm in his face. Letting the smell of alcohol start to crackle in his nose.

Slowly Andra grabbed Nadhira's face, and she smiled as the distance between them had eroded away.

And slowly Andra began to kiss Nadhira's lips very gently.

After a long time Andra kissed Nadhira's lips, now he let go of his kiss, and he again laid his body on the bed. His head was completely dizzy, and he could no longer open his eyes. Nadhira looked at Andra while covering her mouth, she hid her stuffing behind her hands.

"You've kissed me a lot, Ndra, but you've never treated me as gently as before. You did it because you thought I was Ella. So all this time what does it mean to me in your life Ndra" said Nadhira interrupted by his sobbing, he cried while staring at Andra who had fallen asleep on the bed.

"I have always been sincere in loving you, I always succumb to your selfishness. But what's your reply Ndra, you only gave me hurt and disappointed. What kind of man are you Ndra, you really have no heart" Nadhira said sobbing.

Slowly he got up from his seat, and stepped towards the table in the corner of the room.

Nadhira grabbed the book and pen that was there. He wrote a sentence on paper, and put it on the door. With her tears still breaking, Nadhira stepped out, and left Andra alone.

"Maybe it was our last kiss Ndra, I didn't expect that you could be this cruel" Nadhira said as he stared at the door of Andra's apartment he had just closed.

Then he quickened his steps towards the parking lot.

***

Andra blinked her eyes slowly, trying to get up from her sleep while holding her head that was still a little sore and dizzy.

While Andra was still gathering her consciousness, suddenly her phone rang. Andra grabs him, and it turns out that Miss Mirna called him.

"Hallo Ma." greeted Andra with a hoarse voice.

"Where are you Andra? From yesterday you didn't come home, you just made Mama worry. Now quickly tell me where you are!" ma'am Mirna yelled at Andra.

"I'm in Ma's apartment, I'm fine, Mama doesn't have to worry" Andra said casually.

"Don't worry how Andra, you didn't pick up the phone at all from Mama, you just disappeared without telling Mama!" said Ms Mirna still in a high tone.

"Sorry Ma." Andra said briefly.

"Have you met Nadhira?" ask Miss Mirna.

"Nadhira" Andra repeated his mother's words.

"Yes, yesterday he came here looking for you. She's worried about you, aren't you telling her?" ask Miss Mirna.

"Yet Ma." replied Andra quietly.

"You've been gone and missing since Ella and Kairi came here. What's up Andra?" ask Miss Mirna.

"It's okay Ma, I'm just surprised to see Kairi suddenly come home" Andra replied lying.

"Are you surprised to see Kairi or to see Ella?" Mirna asked again.

"What does Mama mean?" Andra asked back.

"Go home! Mama wants to talk to you" said Ms. Mirna.

Andra ended her phone call. He exhaled violently, as he looked at his extremely messy room. Andra back in his head, ahh it has been almost five years he never touched alcohol, and yesterday he again dipped alcohol with a considerable amount.

Andra was transfixed instantly as her brain recalled last night's events. Ella came to visit him, and then she kissed him long enough.

"It feels very real, maybe Ella did come here, and this one in my brain is not just an illusion" Andra said as she touched her lips.

"If it's true that she came here, does that mean she has decided to vote for me" Andra said alone.

Then he got up from his seat, and was about to go to the bathroom.

But his steps came to a halt when he saw the white paper stuck on the door leaf, what was it?

Andra stepped closer to the door, she grabbed the paper and read, 'We should talk about our relationship, Nadhira' the inscription reads on the paper.

"It's stupid of me to think that the one who came last night was Ella. How could he do that." Andra said with a bland smile.

Then he squeezed the paper, and threw it away.

"Nothing I said last night, but I don't think that's a good thing. It seems that Nadhira is very disappointed in me" Andra said as she rubbed her face.

"Why is my destiny never good, this is really unfair!" yelled Andra while kicking the empty air in front of her.

Then Andra sent a short message to Nadhira, and then she rushed to the bathroom.

***

Nadhira sat alone on a park bench not far from his apartment. He waited for Andra who had sent a message to him, Andra invited him to meet at that place. Nadhira looked at her phone with a pushy gaze, the photo of her and Andra still plastered clearly on the screen of her phone.

"Will our relationship really end Andra. I always dreamed of building a family with you. Was it just Andra's dream?" nadhira said slowly.

His current feelings were completely shattered, his heart feeling claustrophobic every time he recalled the events of last night.

"Nadhira!" call Andra as she steps closer to Nadhira, and she sits next to him.

"I'm sorry I'm late" Andra said.

"No, I also just came" replied Nadhira while trying to smile.

"Nadhira, about last night I'm sorry" Andra said.

"You are not wrong Ndra, this is all my fault, which is too stupid to expect love from a man like you" Nadhira said in a flat tone. Actually he hopes Andra will apologize to him with his guilt, but in fact not. Andra apologized to him very casually, like there was no burden at all.

"It turns out all this time, I did not mean anything to you Ndra." Nadhira's inner self in her heart.

"Nadhira I'm sorry I hurt you, but I didn't mean it that way. I'm just.." said Andra a little hard to continue the sentence.

"What is Ndra? It's obvious you love Ella and don't love me, why don't you be honest from the start. Why wait two more years, you really don't have Ndra's heart!" nadhira shouted while looking at Andra sharply. Her eyes were back in tears, a reality that left her heart breaking into pieces.

"I'm sorry Nadhira" Andra said, holding Nadhira's hands.

"I don't need your apologies, all I need is your honesty. You love Ella?" nadhira asked quietly, he tried to hold back his emotions that began to ignite.

Andra was silent, he could not answer Nadhira's question, he was confused to be honest or not.

"Because you're silent the answer is yes. When did Ella come home, and what does that have to do with your sister?" ask Nadhira.

Actually he does not know who his brother Andra, only Andra had told me if he had an older brother who lives in France, and last night Andra had mentioned it.

"Ella came to the house last night with my sister, they asked Mama for her blessing, they were planning to get married" Andra replied quietly.

Nadhira gasped in shock, and spontaneously immediately pulled out her hand. Ella is in a relationship with her sister Andra, why the world can be so narrow.

"If Ella's been in a relationship with your sister, why would you love her Ndra?" ask Nadhira.

"I'm sorry Nadhira" Andra said, I don't know how many times he said sorry to Nadhira.

"What about our relationship now? Does it end like this Andra?" nadhira asked slowly.

Her tears began to trickle down, wetting both her cheeks.

"I'm up to you Nad." replied Andra.

"You don't have the heart of Ndra, you don't even have the intention to defend me. It turns out that my sincere feelings have been in vain" Nadhira said in his heart.

"Alright, then we just end our relationship, and we cancel our engagement" Nadhira said in a flat tone.

"Are you sure of your decision?" andra asked doubtfully.

"Surely or not, that's what I have to do. You don't love me, Ndra, and you have no intention of defending me. Then why do I still insist on maintaining this relationship, it'll only make me sick Ndra!" nadhira shouted as he got up from his seat.

"Nadhira calm down, forgive me, I." Andra said as she tried to grab Nadhira's hand. But Nadhira brushed it off violently.

"What Ndra? What else are you gonna say? I don't want to hear a word from your mouth anymore, because it hurts, you hear it hurts Andra." cried Nadhira with tears that kept on divorcing.

"Nadhira." said Andra.

"Enough! Don't talk anymore, it's enough here that we get to know each other. Thank you for all the hurt you have done. I hope you can be happy with this farewell." said Nadhira slowly, then he stepped away from Andra.

"Nadhira! Wait Nadhira!" yell Andra. But Nadhira did not care about it, he instead accelerated his pace and rushed into his car.

Andra looked at Nadhira's departure with a pushy look. He had just incised a deep wound on a woman as good as Nadhira.

"I'm sorry Nadhira" Andra said, looking down.

***

Nadhira drove his car at high speed, he wanted to get to his apartment soon. But soon, suddenly his car slowly began to stop, apparently his car ran out of fuel. Nadhira growled in annoyance, why should it be at a time like this.

"Don't you know that I'm sad, why stop here!" nadhira shouted while hitting the wheel of his car.

Then he grabbed his phone, and called someone who could help him. Nadhira felt bored waiting in the car, then he went out and stepped towards the bridge in front of him.

Nadhira stood while holding a guardrail on the edge of the bridge, he stared at the river that flowed quite fast. Nadhira again remembered about Andra, the man who had been the place to lean for two years, and now he was no longer. The relationship that they had been knitting for so long, now ended just like that.

Nadhira's tears came back, he loved Andra very much, but the man did not understand his feelings at all. Nadhira looked down sad, considering that he always gave up for Andra, he always prioritized Andra. But the man only replied with hurt and disappointment. All this is completely unfair to Nadhira.

"Why Andra? Why are you doing this to me. Right now I should feel happy, considering our engagement that's only a matter of days. But it turns out not, I was even very sad, because our engagement which was once delayed now even had to be canceled. You are outrageous Andra." said Nadhira interrupted by his sobbing.

While Nadhira was still deep in tears, suddenly there was a man shouting at him from behind.

"Bak don't kill yourself, ma'am!" yelled the man.

Nadhira had not yet turned his head, suddenly the man had already pulled his body from behind. The man pulled her hard enough that Nadhira could not dodge.

"All problems must have a way out Ma'am, don't kill yourself!" said the man firmly.

Seriate......