A MENTARY WITHOUT EMOTION
Last Day
Day after day, week after week, I locked myself up for less than a month. My hands are busy writing something on paper.
My eyes glanced once again at the contents of the message in the class group.
‘Good morning for the whole class 12, tomorrow is graduation day, it is expected that all 12th grade students must come at 08:00 in the school hall.’
‘Sret, sret.’
Word after word that was painted on the white paper, making me even more hurt, my tears one by one flowed down my cheeks.
Tomorrow is the day that it will all end, I can no longer survive in the wheel of time that keeps turning, I feel like I want to stop everything. Everything that disturbed me.
Those people keep knocking on my heart's door. But what power would they be if I chained up everything that was.
I got one more fact and it was very unexpected. It made my mind go awry once again. That one fact is nothing but an old friend.
After thoughtful thinking.
I am not the happiest person in the world. Again, I am not the one who suffers the most here. So I don't understand why I'm like this? Why am I constantly hurt by the truth and why am I constantly hurting others?
What wrong? Is it because I'm being stupid to them? I just want to disappear, again I just want to disappear from them all. I'll just screw things up if I keep doing this.
Go and leave me alone.
I put the letter I made on the table and just left it there.
“The happiness you have made all this time is a mere lie.”
Niki lied to me all this time, the friendship we built was not just over a year but 10 years we've been friends. You just changed your hair so I wouldn't get to know you too much. Why don't you want to tell me everything from the beginning? Did your unintentional mistake scare you and embarrass you to say it?
Ii'm sorry.
It's my fault too. I'm guilty of not being able to protect Mom and Dad. It was my fault, because I took Mom and Dad to the amusement park and they were fascinated by the theater play.
If I hadn't invited them, I might still have both of my parents. I can't blame anyone right now. In this position everything can happen. During the struggle from the beginning and the present, I thought I was a hero but I realized that I was not the real hero.
I'm just an ordinary girl. A girl with a very dark heart. I am like a sun that sinks and raises the night without end. Everything I do is a sin. I'm sorry I hurt your heart.
I covered my face with both hands. Cowering like a child and crying in solitude.
‘I'm desperate.’
‘What should I do?’
Last Day.
The day of graduation had arrived, all of them had happy faces at the moment, in all-black clothes I climbed up a hall staircase.
It's okay, once everything's over I'll end my life. It's okay if I do it well everything will end well too.
The time had come, I went into the hall and sat down on the chair that had been named on the back of the chair.
‘Please, no one bothers me.’
“Expect not to be noisy yak... The show will start soon,” Miss Lisa said.
The graduation ceremony began from the opening of the Bearer and the speech of the Headmaster, now the 12th grade must be called one by one to go forward and get the medal and the results of his school exam scores.
“Lucy Aureista.”
I waited a long time and finally my name was called. I immediately stood up and walked towards the stage before my eyes glanced at Niki who turned out to be looking at me first.
‘Hufft... Yes already... I don't care about him anymore.’
After everything gets my medal and test scores. All the students were busy taking photos and celebrating the graduation day. Honey, I'll never celebrate, because the one thing that doesn't make me graduate is my life. I hurried out of the hall.
“Where is Lucy?” gabriel asked in a daze looking for me.
“What is he out of the hall?” ask Alder back.
“Heiii! You guys let's take a photo together!” bring Felix.
“Good, wait a minute yak! maybe Lucy was with them,” Gabriel said.
“Truely, the redhead, will often stick with my beloved Lucy,” Alder said confidently.
“One more time you say that, I will make a sacrifice of your mouth,” annoyed Gabriel with a smile.
***
I went up the stairs after the stairs which made me quite breathless. Until I finally got to the place where I missed her name. The roof of the se-I mean the school tower.
There's no one here, my feelings are starting to get scared. It still feels like I have to leave them all without saying goodbye. It was sad but this is what I had to give up. My liv. I gave up my life that was so bitter.
It's okay, as long as they don't stop me. Everything's gonna be okay.
It's okay, Lucy, step into your subconscious. That way it'll all be over.
No matter how scared you are, this is your real choice, right?
I put my stuff there. Step by step I headed towards the cliff of the tower. A very high cliff can cause you fatal damage if you fall. Is this a very stupid act?
“....”
I don't think she did, did she? So I can follow what mom did. My mother was a very nice person, only since my father died my mother became a little crazy, as well as me. (smile)
I thought back to what the people in the theater said about my family.
“Fruit fell not far from its tree.”
Like that, right? They may be right, we are not much different now.
We went through a lot of fun things and had to end up in a mess.
...
“Where is Lucy?” ask Gabriel again.
Niki is getting scared now, because he thinks Lucy is with Gabriel and Alder. And now he's losing Lucy this time.
“I will look for it, so you guys just take a picture,” said Niki.
“Is everything okay Niki?” ask Felix.
“It's okay, you guys go first.”
Niki ran to look for me, she searched each class. Maybe he'll be late if he looks for me like that because I'm already on the edge of the tower. The wind made my balance even more shaky.
“LUCY!!” call Niki.
It doesn't matter if his voice is still in my ear.
I put my left foot into the open air because there was no massage for the second leg.
“LUCY!!!”
I'm sorry, I'm really desperate after losing both my parents. I'm sorry. I have to do this. I'm sorry.
I was crying again. My tears can't hold it anymore.
“Goodbye everyone, sorry. I have to go,” I said one last time.
“TIDAAKK!!”
My hand was pulled back from the edge of the tower. I wonder who the person who attracted me was. It has stopped me and made my courage crumble for a moment.
“Don't do this Lucy!”
That voice was clearly heard in my ear earlier.
“Niki!?” I was surprised when he pulled me away from the edge of the tower.
“Please, don't do this. Don't act stupid like this Lucy, I'm really sorry if you do something like this, I'm sorry,” sobs make my heart hurt even more. Her tears were already on her face. His expression was clear that he would not let me plunge free from the tower.
“Let go of me!” I tried to let go of this strong grip. His hand gripped my arm so very strongly, that I had to pull it over with him.
“I won't let you go Lucy. NO WILL!” reply with a pushy tone.
“Please... For this time only you did not prevent me from doing this,” I said in a sad tone.
“If I let you go, it will only make my biggest sin come back again Lucy!”
“I don't care! I have no one now, so I don't want to remember the truth and try to forget everything, everything that was there at the time. But that guy made me think back to the bitter reality.”.
“Who do you mean?” ask Niki.
I don't want to answer. But I just want him to let me out of this grip. Anything that could persuade him to let me go. I have to say it even if his heart is hurting.
“You should be tired of me like this or you hide your tiredness and put on your fake face?”
“A-WHAT! I never did that stupid!”
“If that's true, let go of me Niki. I was desperate for my life. Let go of me right now!”
“NO, I WILL NOT GIVE UP. I just want us to be together again like we used to be, please, we can do it again from zero, we can go back to how we used to be!!”
The more we argue, the closer we get to the edge of the fight again, but still Niki will keep pulling me from there, there must be action to end this all.
NOTIFICATION: here the reader can choose the desired ending, the choice and decision of the readers will affect the ending of the story itself, you can choose the action as you please, you can choose the action as you like, remember each ending has great consequences, be careful in choosing the actions you decide on the choices below.
I've decided, sorry Niki I have to do it, if I don't act at all, this will all have no end at all, therefore I have no choice but to...
A.drawing you.
B.pushing you.
Think carefully once again about each of what the readers choose, as the story has two different endings. And there will still be one ending that will be called TRUE ENDING
