A MENTARY WITHOUT EMOTION

Dreamtime

It was a very tiring and tumbling day. I haven't felt this worry for a long time, if I have a lot of people coming into my life, do I have to help her if she's in trouble? At that time my heart was moving on its own but my mind could have been selfish.

***

“I know what you think!!”

“Hah?”

A question mark floated on my head, I turned my head marked confused by what he said.

“I-kan already told you everything,” I said staring at his green bead.

“No... not that, but the man who saved you back then.. You did not tell the story of that unique-eyed young man.”.

He frowned because I didn't explain Gabriel in detail, I just didn't know about him. All I know is he was in 12-B grade school and he had a syndrome.

“Nothing else do I know about it,” I replied as I pondered on the swaying grass between the glowing fireflies.

“Once yak,” he said, he again sat beside me and stared at the moon accompanied by a sprinkling of stars.

“I want to meet him again...” I unconsciously said that, whereas I was talking to my own mind.

The young man beside me looked back at me, his sweet smile engraved on his face, his brown hair dancing in the breeze. The light of fireflies is stalking him, His soft hand rubbing my head.

“If I meet him again... I want to say thank you to him,” again I say what is on my mind.

Then the young man named Noah chuckled at this. I was confused and confused as to what he was thinking. Strange, he can read my mind but I can't. This is really unfair.

“Why?” just pissed.

“Hahaha not like you usually Lucy, your words are different than usual.” replied her who could not stop laughing.

“Really?”

“Iya, I hope you can meet him.”

Noah held my cheek gently and brought my face closer to his as he continued his words “the man was lucky to meet you this precious one. but I.could not.”.

Pimple, his face is getting closer, felt my lips will be devoured by him. “maid you even longer.”

I can feel her warm breath, I can't stand it. My eyes slowly closed, waiting for what happened to the two of us.

‘Wait a minute.. I'm not ready!’

“Lucy I did-”

‘KRIIIINGGG!!’

My eyes popped open and threw the blanket everywhere.

“AAAAAAHHHH!!”

Suddenly I woke up from my sleep. Because I was upset, I trampled on an alarm clock that made a fuss. Niki broke through my locked door.

“WOOII YOU WHY!!” I did not care about my actions seen by her, but quickly Niki held back my excessive actions.

“HEEII STOP, YOU SET AN ALARM FOR A MILLION WOII, STOP!!”

“I DON'T CARE!!”

***

‘Tring’

The sound of the baker who had finished holding two loaves of fresh bread, the fragrant smell of Niki's cooking smelled in my nose.

The atmosphere became silent after, I sat down with my face attached to the table, faint and snorting in annoyance.

“Yeah, what's wrong with you Lucy? Morning is noisier, not as usual.don't say you want permission again with your pale face,” said Niki while smearing bread with jam and put it on the dining table.

“No, I'm fine.” I replied while taking the toast that was on the plate then eating it voraciously.

At 06:30

We went to school on Rosa's bicycle. Our trip was shorter than usual, the gate was still wide open for students who diligently entered the school in the early hours. We usually walk around with the school gate.

The fresh environment clears the air we breathe, our school is like a garden, various flowers to ornamental plants are displayed in every front of the class.

“This morning the air is really cool.”

“Come to class,” take me after bike ride.

“OK!”

***

We parted while on the second floor, I walked alone with my head bowed like I was thinking of something. I don't care about the noise of the people around me, I don't care that I fell because I hit someone.

‘BRAK’

“Ouch!” I grimaced in pain.

“Ah! S-sorry, are you okay?”

The person who hit me stretched out his hand to help me to stand up. I realized when I saw his two glittering eyes.

“Ga-gabriel?” my shock.

I received his hand and immediately stood up.

“Good morning Lucy,” greet Gabriel with the usual smile always painted on his face.

“Iya morning too,” reply me in a flat tone.

‘He remembers my name?’

I don't know why I'm impressed to be a judge of him? “Finally we meet again yak,”.

“Iya.”

“(........)”

“Alright, I got into class first yak,” Gabriel said.

“Ah Yes, please.”

Finally he left in front of me. I continued my steps towards the class. Suddenly my steps stopped it felt like I was forgetfulness of something when I met him.

“Did I forget something? What do I want to talk to you about when I meet him? Seriously I don't remember anything. What's wrong with me right now?”

Again my mind was confused and trying to remember once again, it was difficult to remember the things in the dream. Because I don't have the ability of Lucid Dream at all. But every time I dream, Noah shows up in my dreams every day. Noah appeared in my dream since I had not been friends with Niki and felt lonely at that time.

I better look for dream memories while walking towards class. When I entered the classroom, my desk was filled with withered flowers strewn everywhere, the class leader was cleaning my desk alone. Noel hasn't come yet, so the chairman always clears his friend's desk alone in the morning.

Without a second thought I approached him because I could not bear to see him cleaning the student table that was not liked by one class.

“Good morning chairman.” sapaku. The leader immediately looked back with glassy eyes.

“Lu-Lucy!!” the chairman seemed surprised to see me put a scary look on my desk filled with rotten flowers.

“Sorry, your table is still dirty. Even though yesterday I cleaned it up, it seems like they did it again before I went to class. I'm sorry I didn't know that my actions would cause this much trouble. I'm sorry Lucy. ”

I held her shoulder and said “chair should not apologize.”

“Eh?”

“From the beginning of the chairman is not wrong, it is not wrong to sit anywhere as long as the place is empty. The chairman sat here so Noel could see the board by explaining?”

“Iya right,” reply to the chairman accompanied by a nod of the head.

“Yes already, let me just clean it up. Thank you for cleaning my desk when I'm not around. The chairman has helped me a lot,”, I said, seizing a cleaning tool from his hands.

“No problem, it was me who made the state of your table like this,” this time the chairman put on his sad face, I do not like to see people who are so carefree suddenly sad so because of me.

I put her hair in her ear. “Don't worry, I won't lose to them.”

His eyes immediately sparkled back, his face blushing, and he was amazed by my spirit unseen from the outside.

My diamond eyes lit up as light came in from the wide-open classroom window.not only me, the boss' smile slowly bloomed again. This is better than crying over my useless self.

I can see the pleasures of people of different colors, looking beautiful but sometimes painful as well. That's what makes me addicted to other people's feelings, that's why I want to look for the color of my own happiness.

And that's why I wanted to protect that precious smile for me to learn.

....

“Do not use emotions to solve problems but use patience and logic to find the solution.”