A MENTARY WITHOUT EMOTION

Agonised

Lina smiled as she watched myself get badly hurt like this. He threw a small knife in front of me.

"Well!"

His knife was covered with blood. Yes, it is my blood.

When I saw my two blood-soaked hands from my wounds, it reminded me of a dream.

The memory of the death of a familiar man who was shot dead by a mysterious person, my head was dizzy, my wounded stomach was widening, blood was everywhere.

This is something I do not want to see in this world and this is what causes me to want to disappear from this world.

I was drowning in darkness, though I realized the chairman was taking me to the UKS in a panic, and then Noel called an ambulance.

It's the same situation when in Alder's car, whether I make everyone worry, sometimes I make Niki worry when I attempt suicide, I honestly don't understand, what good are they saving me and worrying about me losing my desire to live.

But everyone wants me to live, why? Why do they want me to see the future? If the future isn't fun for me? Will I suffer again like this?

Niki once told me the motivation of life.

'If you feel hopeless and do not have a dream, pursue what you lack and make it a goal to continue your life.'

I initially ignored those words, but I realized there were many flaws and something I did not have here, I was trying to achieve all of them but I had not yet gotten them.

This pain was almost near death, it seemed like I saw a flash of light when I wanted to open my eyes.

"Lucy's awake!"

"Thank God, I was so panicked to hear that he was so badly injured like this" Cheers and thanksgiving rang out from my hearing, I looked around me in a different atmosphere, it's not UKS but it's a hospital room.

The smell of the medicine wafted in this room, I tried to sit down but was intercepted by the chairman.

"Don't sit down first, your wounds will be torn again" said Felix, I also obey.

I saw the chief, Sarah and Noel beside my king, they put on anxious faces to see me.

"Is the wound still a-"

"LUCKY!"

Sarah's words were cut off when the strawberry hair came in by breaking the door. He ran and held my hand tightly.

Niki's face was so much anxious compared to the others, I could still see the traces of tears flowing profusely upon hearing the bad news about me.

"I'm fine" I replied.

"Sorry I came late, I was really surprised to hear you got stabbed by a bad girl in your class, where she let me beat her up!! I won't spare anyone who has hurt my best friend!!" he said while crying.

"Calm down, I'm fine." I said in a soft tone.

I looked at Noel who was getting upset, he went out of the room, I knew they hated each other, if they didn't make up for the next problem it would be more complicated.

"Niki~" call me.

"Apa~" reply.

"You saw Noel, right? Treat her," he said, he silently looked at me flat, he let go of my hand.

"No way."

"Why? You're not the type to hate people for no reason, are you?" my many.

"Lucy.if you know what it's like to suffer in a life that's always differentiated, I'm heartbroken because compared to my parents, the more successful he is, the more I compare, so I hate him!" the answer.

I still saw the shadow of Noel standing in front of the door, because the door was not yet tightly closed, it seemed that Noel heard Niki's reasoning clearly. I also confirmed Niki's reason back.

"That's not a good reason not to be friends with him, the more you get to know him the more you will understand how to be a better person and be looked up to by others, instead of avoiding him, like science matters but you stay away from it."

Niki froze in place. I just let out a long sigh, I'm sure he doesn't want to be lectured like this.

"Haaa~ Niki, do you know why I didn't break our friendship?" I asked her, then Niki looked at me and wanted to know the answer.

"You're the one who's always happy, so I want to study and feel that happiness in my life before death to pick me up" I smiled warmly at him.

The afternoon sun that matched my hair covered the entire room, I could see the color of Niki's eyes sparkling clearly, her heart was stunned to hear my answer, her cheeks blushing at my smile.

I am the sun in the afternoon where I will be engulfed in darkness at night, even so, I am the most beautiful sight to see especially when I smile then the whole human heart will be warm and happy.

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"Life is a painting that cannot be erased."