A MENTARY WITHOUT EMOTION

By ourselves

A girl was lying with blood flowing from her head.

My eyes widened and my body broke out in cold sweat and my hands trembled uncontrollably. I looked at my hands in fear. I feel like I made a big mistake. The shadow in my heart further submerged me into the mortal world.

Everything is my fault, everything is my fault. All because of my mistake.

I did it. I didn't do it on purpose. "What have I done?"

“Hah!”

I quickly opened my eyes, my breathing gasping and my face already sweating coldly. I was confused where I was, but I realized I was still on the roof of the school building. No, some people call this place a school tower, because the shape of the roof is tapered.

"the dream? It was just a nightmare."

The dream managed to make my breath cut off, I did not expect the dream to wake me from sleep. I saw the clock on my wrist, the clock still shows at 10:28 am, rest left is still 2 minutes. I use this time to reflect on the past. A past I cannot remember. That terrible event I can't remember. It just disappeared like it was burning.

‘I can't remember it.’ my inner.

Then I covered the cloudy ceiling. I felt the wind softly hit my face.

‘I live alone.’

I only know one thing that in this world, there are happy humans and unhappy humans.

I who can not feel between the feelings of the two, just contemplate hugging my two feet, actually in this world anything is always in pairs, but I do not have it.

"Am I really a human being?" that's what I have in mind right now, a silly question but this is the reality, that I'm not like a human living with a variety of emotions.

This boredom was coming at me all the time, something I had gone to forget about me, but I could neither feel hate nor like. A sense of emptiness, that's all I think. Why does it feel lonely, there is nothing special in my feelings.

I'm tired of all this...

"Did I just disappear yak?" I asked that question unconsciously again and again.

I started to stand with a blank look, and took a step down the stairs, after I had lunch on the school roof.

The bell had rung, the school hallway was immediately noisy because the students who entered the class were so rowdy and with a rest I entered the class of 12-A. then sat in the back seat close to the classroom window, it is a great place when you have no friends, because you can see the outside world with satisfaction.

It would be cool if the picture in this window turned into a picture of a forest or a flower garden. unfortunately all I see is the same, there are only grass, trees and some students who come out because there is business.

Again I felt bored when the teacher explained history, my eye bags could not bear to survive. I've yawned so many times, I have to hang on because I'm going home soon.

The bell rings back. I have to hurry home and shop for necessities tomorrow, as the sun sets, I walk on the sidewalk looking around me, those who laugh cheerfully and those who grieve for a cause, I felt my heart being shaken with envy.

'Why did my happiness just disappear? Why?’

'Why?'

"Hey!!! Lucy!!! Stop!!"

My daydream disappeared after someone shouted my name, I turned around to find out the figure who called me that.

"You don't have to scream like that" I said.

"After I called, you didn't respond, huum," he immediately frowned because I didn't respond back.

"What's necessary until you chase me like that?"

"Let me guess, you must have bought that again, right?" he said by pointing at the plastic I was holding.

I held onto the plastic in my hand and hid it behind my body.

"Yes right, the need to live to commit suicide, right?" he said with annoyance.

I broke out in a cold sweat as he said that, he smiled triumphantly and said.

"Yup, as I thought, whatever you bring is always suspicious."

"Hufft~ caught again~" I complained as I exhaled.

I went home with him, but the first one to enter was him when this was my home. His eyebrows suddenly frowned when he saw the messy atmosphere of my kitchen and room.

"Are you able to live independently if this continues?"

He looked at me with an angry look, but I couldn't look at him.

"Isn't this my life, why do you care about me?"

"Don't you care about the people who are always worried about you?" he said it as if he cared about me.

"I don't feel anyone worrying about me, they're sometimes busy with their own lives, as well as mine."

"You don't think I'm worried about you?"

He clasped his hand tightly. I could feel her pain and angry aura on me, I took a few steps back.

"HEY!! GIVE ME THAT PLASTIC!!"

He shouted and snatched the plastic groceries from my hand violently. "Are you angry?" that's what I'm asking now, obviously he's angry, why am I asking.

He did not answer and was just busy with the contents of the plastic bag. I approached her slowly and whispered to her.

"I did say nobody worries about me, but you're different, you always care about me don't you?" I whispered so near her ear, trying to harbor her emotions. But... He was quiet, too? Did I make him angry again?

"Why?" ask me with a bad feeling.

"It's okay, anyway," she changed her tone to a shy, pouting child.

"This time I forgive you."

"Oh really?" I ask to convince.

"Yes, do you like it now?"

"It's normal" I replied in a flat tone.

"Come on you, you should be happy and say thank you" he said.

Just say thank you until you bother to let out anger. Inevitably, I had to comply with his request rather than him continuing to nag beside my ear.

"Alright, thank you," I said resignedly.

"Well that is so."

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“Light will create a shadow and shadow will not exist without light. By complementing each other, the two will not be able to be separated.”