A MENTARY WITHOUT EMOTION

Statuettes

I live in an urban area that has a gray feel like a noble part of Europe, this is a modern era where everything is all technological but does not leave the tradition of dress neatly like in the era of nobility, although the clothes have been modified a little and entered the modern era. Still we will not leave the impression of dressing sweet and fashionable.

In my daily life, I wear a dark knee-length dress, rarely do I wear one that is so bright in color, I can wear that color, she said, but only in certain events or festivals are required to dress brightly and in color.

I don't want to look flashy in anyone's eyes, I'm not good at hanging out with anyone, you could say I'm antisocial, like to stay home and lonely.

“Haha, who likes me? If there is, there may be a problem with his vision.”

I talk to myself and insinuate myself. Sometimes I hate myself and sometimes I feel proud of myself.

Funny, right? Everything I do always makes no sense. Am I crazy? If asked like that, I better answer. “That I am a genius, a genius would not think of such an extreme and boring thing.”

Good, I've written that absurd essay and tada~ what the reader says, of course someone said it was interesting, unreasonable, haluers and blah blah blah.

All the praise and criticism enveloped me. Maybe some writers will be hurt, but should just expand your imagination, pour what you think like me. You're working, aren't you? Make a beautiful work and be that genius.

“Alright, that's enough. I want to sleep.”

I stretched my achy body especially my back which started to hurt because I was too lazy to bend. My work is done, just send the script and it's done.

I lay on the bed and started playing my phone, as usual Niki kept worrying about me. Emotion is too much.

All day he kept asking me, ‘have you eaten? don't be late! Do not forget to sleep early, do not stay up late, do not shower too long later in the wind, do not be too much daydreaming, better motion let not fat.’ and so forth.

She's not my mother, I can do it alone. I'm worried about everyone who worries about me, I don't like being advised. I can live quietly with my dreams.

If you don't want me to kill myself for suffering, please respect me.

I closed my phone and closed my eyes. Let me just

take a break for a tiring tomorrow.

***

I saw a beautiful garden, my feet were treading on fresh green grass, now I am in a field of flowers. Several large statues stood around me, far away from the other statues. I looked around me, all filled with flowers like no end at all. There are 4 statues depicting every emotion, the first statue shaped like a raging girl with high emotions, that is my anger

the one that was hidden and constantly churning inside me, it was a bit spooky.

Then the second statue depicts a slumped girl with a look of regretful face, she cries and despair, it is the sadness that I pedam behind my face without expression.

Then the third statue, a girl who hugged herself like she was taking refuge, she was scared and alone, like there would be someone threatening her life. It was my fear behind my courage.

And lastly the fourth statue, the girl holds a flower in a plain dress, but I can't guess what emotion it is, because the statue doesn't have a face and expression. Pleased? Seems not. When I'm happy I plan to wear a beautiful dress to celebrate.

“It looks like it's covered in dust, I'll wipe his face.”

I approached and walked towards the faceless statue. I was disgusted to reach his face, but someone grabbed me by the shoulder and pulled me away from the statue. His index hand came up from behind me and put it in front of my mouth and nose, it kept me shut.

“It's secret.”

I turned around, having recognized the familiar voice. Of course it was Noah who was smiling faintly with flower petals flying around him.

“What are you keeping secret?” askaku start searching.

“Somehow, you won't be able to bring up her face but you'll have to make her face how you feel. Lucy,” replied Noah who joined the statue.

“What should I make? Boredom, loneliness, suffering? That's all I feel, but the concept will not be the same as other statues,” I said with a sad look at the statue.

“Yes yes that's right, while you're thinking, let's have tea together, near here is an unused palace, let's rest there,” invite Noah.

I accepted his invitation, walking down the hill, when my eyes were wide open, it was true that there was a beautiful palace there. But it feels like there are no inhabitants from a distance.

The two of us entered and were immediately greeted respectfully by the palace guards who lined up on every street we pitched. I was wrong, it turns out there are residents. Then I looked for someone in the palace.

“Who are you looking for?” asked Noah who saw my movements.

“Where's the king and queen?”

Noah just laughed crisply at my innocent nature. Then he held both of my hands and said happily.

“You don't know?”

“What?”

“The King and Queen are us.”

My face flushed slightly after I was shocked to hear the statement, but I still couldn't accept it.

“Lies, I do not want to do the activities carried out by a queen who makes heads dizzy seven circumference,” my grumbling.

“Not really... You can freely play here.”

“Really?”

“Iya, have fun and release your fatigue here!!” noah exclaimed as he spread out the colorful pieces of paper.

I finally enjoy tea in this luxurious place, I can't believe my dream is this beautiful. Maybe it's my fatigue all day doing math and script.

“Fun, right? Oh yes in this palace many exciting shows, want to see?” haggard Noah.

“That's it,”I don't care.

“Come show starts!!”

Many people who performed in front of us, from the choir instructions, dancing, and circus attractions displayed in front of us, were amazing and spectacular. Everyone was amazed at their glittering appearance, the residents turned out to watch and applauded the event. Oddity began to happen to me, ‘feeling I have not been in the dream world, it seems like I have been here long enough, is my alarm broken yak?’

My mind started to get anxious, I had to get up or I was going to be late for school. I was afraid that I would be expelled from school if I was late again. I better get up now.

I rose from the seat of the throne, intending to take a break from this beautiful world.

“Where are you going?” ask Noah.

I answered without looking at his face. “Back to the real world, so I say goodbye first.”

I stepped out of it but his hand held my hand firmly. Stopped my steps and made me look at him.

“Do not go.”

Noah's feelings became sad, his face was downcast in disappointment, suddenly silence struck this place, everything became dark and gray. What was once lively now became silent for a moment.

Everyone was staring at me horror, that's where I started to get scared. “But... I have to go back, we will play again in the next night.”

“NO!!”

I was surprised by his high tone. He never was that to me before. His grip was getting stronger and it felt rough.

“Stay here..it's fun, I want you to keep me company. I can't be taken to your world.”

“Noah, I will be back after I do my activities,” I replied in a patient tone.

But he would still not be willing if I left here. His grasp grew even stronger, and his gaze changed, his eyes becoming a red silhouette.

“Tanpamu I'm lonely.”

Her sad face turned into the sinister smile I first saw from her. My hands are sweaty and clammy.

I realized its appearance.

***

At that time I fell asleep and dreamed that I was alone there, I was crying so it would be in that empty place.

“I'm lonely... Please accompany me..” after I said that, a young man appeared and reached out his hand with a fluffy smile on his face. While saying something to me.

“Don't cry, now I'm here.”

***

“Hei Lucy I won't make you leave my side, I'll be as lonely as when I saw you first. If you leave this room empty of having lost the imagination of your mind,” Noah said as he seduced me to stay, he turned into a psychopath who was madly in love with me.

But one thing I remember and realize...

That he was formed from my loneliness.

......

“Do not hate yourself, be proud of yourself because you are the only limited edition in the world.”