100 DAYS AFTER I DIE

Part 9 (Today you know)

**I realized from the incident just now, I saw friend2 around me, I immediately rubbed my true face2 soaked with sweat and tears..

"don't use your hands, you slovenly boy" said risa while giving a handkerchief that she had given first. I won without saying anything, and Risa immediately memeluku, she winissss.

"sorry we are zal, we are sorry, now let's go "I saw my friend2, irawan,andi,somad, some girl friends, they looked at me with a handsome look, I stood up "never once2 you guys look at me like that !! I don't like it, I'd rather fight one2 with you guys here than see me like that!" I grabbed the lapel of an irawan shirt "now I know you guys already think I'm an abnormal child right? !"

irawan was just silent, I felt like I was blasting my anger, and from behind there was someone patting me, I looked and bammmm,, your fist hit my face, I did not feel pain, I just smiled, I just smiled, andi hit me again this time on the cheek, I I did not flinch, just laughed, saw your hand in pain. I laughed, and from the side of the plaque, Risa slapped me... I became aware 2 of my anger, I saw Risa crying, I approached andi, and apologized....

"indi, I'm sorry, and thank you for trying to wake me up", andi held my shoulder. "now have you calmed down?" i nodded..

Irawan : "zal, we are calm, we don't look at you with kasian, we are worried, and don't want anything bad to happen to you..

i: "thank you, and please don't talk about this again, tomorrow when it's time I'll tell you the story,,,"

I approached Risa, "ris, sorry "plaakkkk, this time Risa slapped me and it hurt... "sick risss" I grimaced. You make me worry you know not!?, "yes sorry" I said slowly

"yeah, pull yukk, just imagine the incident was not there" said risa who asked me to go and followed the others...

they know now, now they may already know.they hear and see my behavior, scream hysterically themselves for no reason, I don't know, I'm too embarrassed to bring it up, he said, I was aware that they were more than just friends...

we are already in the terminal, I also do not say goodbye to temen2, I do not want them to know more about my life.I pura2 take the bus, and when the bus wants to leave, I do not want them to know more about my life, I pura2 take the abandoned item, before going down I put a piece of money 50thousand to the bus kernet while saying "my father did not join this bus, I did not take this bus, do not get my other friends down to follow me yes" the father was like understanding and nodding, and here I am. I hope Risa conveyed my saying to others..

and the unexpected happened .........

Me : "Risaaaa.. Why are you here?"

Risa: "well, you should be happy there is something cool, jutek basic:P "

Me: "trus temen2 how?, who mamitin me who?, then they even nyari2 we lohh"

Risa: "already, you don't have to take care of it, I uda pamit, if I don't follow even those who insist on following you, want rame2? :P "

Me: "hisshhh you are many reasons yes ris, I go home still tomorrow, kapok you do not go home, "

Risa: "bodoo, I've permission weeeee "

i melengos...

Me: "you know how else, we just go, take the bus, my mother's house is quite far, so from here about an hour drive "

Risa:" horeeee "he laughs2 like a little boy,

I :"but ris has a condition "....

Lisa: "what is zal?"risa's facial expression changed..

I approached her and put both my hands on her shoulders, I stared at Risa..

Me: "you have to promise me, whatever you see of me, don't tell anyone. You can think of me as weird, and please stay away from me if you think I'm too weird "

Risa held my two hands, and released them from her shoulders, she clasped my hands tightly, and looked back at me..

Risa: "i choose your nemenin, I promise I will not leave you, I will take care of your privacy zal"

I still look at Risa and feel something warm in the chest, I don't know what it is. Have you ever felt it? something warm and rustling in your chest,,

We were already on the bus, which was heading to where I grew up, I was a little deg2an, 3 years I had tried to forget about that, and this time I was miserably heading there, to a historic place in my life, I was still sleepy and trying to close my eyes while stuffing my ears with a headset, while listening to a song from Bryan Adam-Evrything I do to disguise the noise that from earlier chattering is not clear along the way,

Lisa : "zal... "

I still bristled and heard songs, ckiittttt, my stomach pinched, my headset pulled by Risa.

Me :"aduhhh risss, sick tau, if my stomach how well?, what brisikkk aja from earlier"

risa: "sukurinnnn, wrong himself invited to talk even kayak budeg, nyebelin tau not "ckiitttt I pinched again, again,

Me : "hihhhhh, ni son.blue2 nihhh "

Lisa :"zal...."

i : "hemmmm..what else sihh risa "

Risa: "look here first"

Me: "what?" I turned my lower lip, and. My lips were pinched.

Risa: "ihhhhh, again seriously also in becandain from earlier, zalll... You have not told me yet, your mother is not home with you?"

I just fell out, and rubbed his hair slowly, Risa,

Me: "you will know ris, soon you know "

risa was just silent, her cheeks flushed red....

.

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we got off the bus, and had to walk about 300 meters to get to the grave of my mother, I stood for a moment before continuing the path, just closing my eyes for a moment, gathering courage and strengthening my intentions ...

and we arrived, at the entrance of the tomb...

Risa: "loh zal, this is ?"

I just nodded and smiled, I bought a flower near the tomb and now take it with me and feel into the tomb complex..

Lisa: "zalll.."

Me: "risss, diem bentar yes, I want to concentrate first"

I opened the bag, and wore my old gemstone-eyed ring, which only served a short time to close my inner eye..

we arrived at the tomb of mother, now the tomb has been repaired, there is already ceramic, it seems to be well cared for, there are only a few weeds growing on it..

I crouched down while plucking weeds over my mother's grave.

"assalamallaikum buk, pangling is not the same as your son?, now rizal is very big right? rizal is not a hero, mother how are you there?, mother must again queue in front of the door of heaven right? while enjoying the pleasure of the grave of course, bukkkk do not be fierce2 there ntar angelnya afraid "i try to be funny, but I instead cry, and continue my babble "bukk, rizal bentar again sma, and so on, rizal rank 1 also loh, the same as if it is still sd rizal also rank 1 continues right, the difference here used to be rizal does not have temen, now rizal has a lot of temen in jogja bukk, the difference here used to be rizal does not have temen, they're good same rizal bukk, oh yes, know this buk Risa, my friends class, she pinter too, but still can't beat the rizal hek buk" I looked at the smiling risa."bukkk, I can't stop, rizal now alone at home, father again duty in aceh, father super herro, father mbasmi conflict there" I sprinkled flowers on the grave of mother. "bukk, doain rizal yes, I did mbasmi conflict there, keep the rizal and keep an eye on the rizal from nature there, rizal kangen buk, but rizal ikhlas... goodbye ibuk, rizal promise if uda is bigger than now will often nengok ibuk, assallamoallaikum" ....

I went from the tomb of mother, I took a hand of risa to the gate in front of the tomb, I turned my head back and sat "bukkk"

Risa : "zalll, sorry, I really2 do not know if it turns out you are like this, you are a closed child until you know nothing about you, I ..."

I am :"risa, do I have to say everything that happens to me the same person2?, I really have to go through all this, you just be my friend it means a lot to me ris, first, first, whose name is a friend just so wishan2 for me, now I have you and friend2 lain2, I am happy now ris thanks "

Risa just smiled while wiping away a tear at the end of her eyes..

Risa glanced at her watch, though,

Risa: "zal, it's already 3 o'clock, if we go home now we're to jogja malem, where do you want to go?"

I'm :"we're not home tonight, I still have business in my old house"

Risa seemed to be still thinking about the incident just now, she was more silent throughout the journey.

we were just walking because it was not too far from my old house from the mother's tomb complex, along the way many people saw me, yaaa maybe they still remember me, my neighbors used to also greet me, they still remember it turns out, the strange child rizal, I tried to be indifferent with their strange gaze, and the house was visible, I was pounding.. maybe my distance to the house was a few meters..

Risa: "kok stop zal?, where's your house?"

Me: "risa, you wait here yes, please do not ask why, later I will tell all about me to you yes."

I asked Risa to wait at a food stall that somehow since when there was a stall there, as I remember there was no...

I arrived at the house, TNI official house located at the very edge of the TNI AD complex, hemm not much changed, just the paint that looks new, this house does not seem to have any new inhabitants, hemm, I was silent, reciting some prayers, and wearing a stone-eyed ring, this ring was different from the one before, this was a moringa tart, he had the aura to hit the supernatural..

I smiled, hemm.

it seemed that the swing was still there, with the old tali2 that was beginning to loosen and worn out, I opened the door. ahhh locked, I surrounded the house, I was, some creatures that used to be happy to bother me were surprised to see me they were even frightened because they felt my inner knowledge strengthened, I pulled one of them, I looked at the face of the thick hairy creature 2, the face of the creature, he was overheated, pardon, forgivennnn.. I did not say anything I let him go, even though they made my mother die, but I was taught sincerely and not vengeance by kyai.. I'm still looking for another creature.Where is he? sarii! I call him in the language..

"you're grown now rizal "I look happy..

Me: "Come" she looked the same as the first time we met, she was still a 6-year-old.she walked up to me and as she walked her form became bigger and bigger, he showed his form as if he was the same age as me but .... "Risa" I muttered..

Sari :"Why rizal?, do you seem surprised?"

Me : "no cider, you look like my friend with this form, very similar" I said as if not believing what I saw, Risa and Sari, you are twins? thought brief.

SAri: "what I'm saying is, you're going to have a lot of good friends"

I :"sari, 3 years I did not meet you, I collect your promise that said we will always be able to meet"

Sari: "yes rizal, and here you are now, I have kept my promise to meet you, thank you rizal, for your prayers2 for us who live here"

Me : "sariii, come with me, we'll be friends forever"

Sari: "I will always be your friend, rizal, here "he touches my chest,

Sari:"I have long been dead rizal, it has been 90 years, and you make me seem alive.It is as if I am still with the other me during his life, rizal, your path is still long, your path is still long, if you continue with me you will only end up living like a dead, visit me again when2 and do not decide your prayer2 for me to be calm when I have to return to my nature"

sari and I walked in the back of the house and stood in a large mirror of old cabinets that were placed behind the house..

I : "but sari, I ......"

Sari: "rizal, you already have friends right?"

i: "yes" I said while facing the big mirror and looking at my reflection and sari...

Sari: "and continue to live with them rizal, your path will be more difficult tomorrow, but did I not say, you will be a great man someday?"

Saya closed her eyes, trying to digest the sari advice! the first is my own shadow, and the shadow of 2 saris,

"Ruler!!!" one of the shadows in the mirror was like shouting, ahhh it turned out to be Risa, she clasped my hand like fear...

sari continued her words. "you are Risa yes, you look like me. Now you know, please take care of rizal yes, please take care of her beyond me guarding her" , Risa still hugs my hand, Risa still holds my hand, but he nodded as if assenting the request of the sari..

and the sari disappeared. I went nowhere. I then saw Risa leave this house, it seems she was shocked to see the sari through the reflection of the shadow in the mirror ....

I walked out of the old house, and again2 sari was in the doorway of the house waving with the form of her little child.. "Thank you Sari**."