100 DAYS AFTER I DIE

Part 14 (Notice of story)

I still feel the memory of my mother, if likened to a wound, the wound is almost healed, but there is always something that makes the wound even gaping wide, but there is always something that makes the wound, the departure of mr. benar2 made my mental fall who just could enjoy life for 3 years here..

that day was the day after putting my father's headstone, om and tantaku had also returned home to solo with a heavy heart because it left me to take care of my own life...

I was cleaning the father's room, this place was my inspirational resting place, this room began to dust, I cleaned it carefully, I arranged a closet that was still complete with uniforms and daily t-shirts of the late father, he said, I cleaned the book neatly arranged on the shelf, tucked between the book2 there was a photo album, I opened it, but I immediately closed it again, why?, I am just not ready to reminisce now. I wipe the chair and reading table owned by the father. It looks at the corner of the table there is still a slop full of cigarette filters owned by the father, still sealed. besides there is a cigarette pipe made of elephant ivory and classic matches, it seems that this was left behind when the father left for aceh first, I put it back and continued clean2..

"ahhh finished too" I murmured, just about to close the door of my room my attention was on my father's cigarette, I picked it up, then sat on the porch beside the house.. I made a cup of tea while carrying a magazine that I forgot what the magazine was..

I opened 1 pack of hemm, fragrant also I thought, I idly tried a stick and sucked it "uhuuukk, hukkk", I even coughed2 until almost mutable, "this is good what the hell, ?" just now I was going to throw away the rest of the cigarettes something terrible hurt my stomach..

"good, good, just stayed home alone a few days have started crocking, want to be your bad boy?" it turned out that Risa pinched me very hard, though,

I : "aaduuuhhhh, geez ris, this is aahhhh akhatt ris selein" notya released the pinch even harder to be thrown into my stomach,

Risa: "you why sihhh? now even try 2 cigarettes all?" now that the pinch is tormenting me even more with a hand-twisting motion by risa, this is my inner level 10 god pinch,

I : "iya2 this I clear, but then, this is duhhh", finally risa release me from the pinch, huftttt really hurt, there was even a burning sensation after the pinch was removed

Me: "you're upset, sick, if there's a nyubit olympic win you "

Risa: "what the heck ngrokok, can not find money also ngrokok, tomorrow if already work sakpuasmu zal!"

Me : "iya2 ris" I said grimacingly holding my stomach turning blue..

Lisa : "zall"

Me :"what else is comell?"

Risa: "you didn't go to school for a week. After your late father was allowed yesterday I thought you left again, ehh but not yet, I think you've moved school without saying goodbye" he said with a declining voice..

Me : "i'm not going without farewell, I'm just still going to leave earlier"

Risa: "when do you go solo?"

Me: "i'm not going where2 ris, I'm staying here"

risa: "so, right? how do you keep going?, you're alone?"

I just nodded and took a deep breath..

Me : "i don't want to be a burden of others ris, omku a retired soldier, anak2 he is also all college, if plus I even become more responsibility"

Risa: "how are your financial transactions?, do you also need the cost of living with school?" risa's face looked worried

Me :"I've thought this mateng ris, you have a taspen, it will be useless to live a day2, and I can save some, I also want to do part-time work tomorrow, to buy alat2 school, and, I have a mind2 so doctor ris, if I join om maybe not going to be delivered, tp if I am independent here, maybe I have a chance, from the savings of money taspen father will I save, tp if I can, and if I study harder, maybe I'll get a scholarship, I just trust the same God ris"

Risa: "you don't have to go that far zal, if you come with your om maybe it's better "

i: "maybe ris, but my intention is already bullet ris "

Risa: "zal, you are a great guy, you are not great, you are amazing zal, your mind is lohh, you will make everyone sympathize with you with your nature "

me: "I think I've been hiding too long, I'm a riser, and I don't want to hide anymore, I'm going to face that reality, I'm going to face it, the fact that I am now an orphan and a kara, the fact that my parents have died, the fact that I am not like people in general, I intend not to be afraid of anything anymore, I used to be a coward when I was a kid, and when I was afraid I could run to my mom, but then my mom had to be taken away from me, too, but it was a gapapa, but, because if I fear again I can hide and run to a stronger figure, my father, but my father also has the same fate and must be picked up by force, he said, now I'm trying to make myself brave, but if I get scared again, I try not to run and not hide anymore, I will fight and face any reality, whatever, again but if in fact I lose and get scared I will run and hide again ris, to a stronger figure.. God, sometimes surrender is the best thing when you have tried to run out2an"

Risa : "zal, and if you are tired of all your fear and run, you can come to me  "

Me : 

Risa: zal, do you want a scholarship to continue to medical school?

i: "iya ris, that's my mind2 little dr want to be a doctor"

Risa : "yes, and it's not easy zal, because your rival I  "

I just smile and laugh, "thank you, you are the best  "say me, I understand the word 2 Risa earlier meant for me to learn more..

Risa: "and whatever your problem is, I will help you, zal, if you are sick, if you are laper, if you are lonely, you know where to go?.. because I love you too much"

me : baby??

Risa just nodded...

Risa:"from the beginning of the smp in fact, you are a special figure, you know, I never stop thinking of you, you are mysterious, I have tried to make your attention zal, before, but like there is a big wall that shakes your eyes, and until yesterday I knew that your life that makes you personally so cute, pendiem shy, I have only a few months really2 know you zal, zal, and even I can't stop thinking about you, you're too special, you're unique....."

looking visibly talking while looking down, maybe he was embarrassed.I understand his feelings, I thought for a moment to make one answer..

me:"you were my first friend ris, the first one to rebuke me at school, in our old school, you wink?, you mean I sit with you, you mean I sit with you, it was the first time in my life there was someone the same age who wanted to sit next to me, my childhood was not going to sit next to me, even when I entered the class I was thrown chalk, Risa you are the perfect girl, Risa, you're beautiful, pinter, well, you're the first to know about me, you've always supported me. You're the perfect friend ***** so the problem of love2an like that, you also I am not fit and not ready with the name of dating, and ...."

I haven't finished speaking yet, my sentence has been cut.

Risa : "zal, you are even trouble with that  , no problem zal, I just want to be honest with you, I understand your position, you do not have time for this right now, you do not have time for this kind of thing,you must be busy arranging your life  I also do not deserve to date with you, and I will try to solidify myself for you, I will learn hard like you, I will learn, I'll learn to be patient and mature like you  "

Me :"Risa, thank you, I appreciate your feelings and your attitude.

Risa:"may I ask Zal for help?"

Risa: "let me continue to deket same you zal, I do not want you here alone continue, I want to keep nemenin you continue"

Saya:"and I also don't want you to stay ris  "

me and Risa just smiled, there was a strange feeling mixed up, but I was happy to be able to understand

that's as little as my initial story with the honesty of the feeling of anxiety, will my relationship with risa continue?, just wait for there will be a surprise at the end of the story.... 

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it was the last risa to come to my house on Saturday, and I woke up bad luck that Sunday morning, I immediately rush2 to perform dawn prayers, because the clock has shown 05.10 wib.

"ahhh still sleepy" I muttered, I realized and slapped 2 cheeks myself. "ayookk zal, why so males gini" I tried to revive myself a little lazy..

I stepped out of the room with my face still full of joy, to make breakfast..

I just took 2 eggs out of the fridge, I saw that at the table the food was served in the form of fried rice with an omelet and next to a glass of hot tea that looks still hot because it is still steaming the hot steam. "lohhh, you know, who's this morning 2 already has food?" I saw the clock still showing 05.30. I was still surprised, I walked closer to the dining table and like my usual morning ritual, I sneezed2 used to "hadehhhhh, symptoms of chronic colds nih" I muttered while wiping the snot and belek that adorned my face..

"don't put on a slovenly boy's hand" a voice I know, and he's giving me the same handkerchief I had when I first met him,

Me: "ris, you like me" I said as I received the handkerchief,

Risa :"kapok wekk :P , you sloppy guy, I was ngetok2 many2 no answer, I muter through the back door ee apparently not locked, your house enter the smell malingu tau tau tau taka yaa"

I am : "iya2 tomorrow no more forgetfulness wis, have already been also entry of the thief" I said while grinning the horse to satirize risa

Risa: "is there a maling as pretty as me?" she said she was cute by flipping her hair back.

Me : "-_- "

Risa :"  already eaten your breakfast, special it made her love, hahaha"

Me :"it's a rice pack huh?, if ***** don't be bored yak, old school kasian uda not pinter2" I said while grinning again, and I was tabokin -_-

I'm :"ris, thank you, you're like me"

Risa:"great I miss the sloppy boy bin slovenly like you live alone in this big house  "

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risa got up from the dinner table and took her bag.she took out a large bundle of notebooks, and printed books.Brukkk so it sounded when she put it on the table of the pile of books...

I :"what is ris" I said as I chewed a lot of food2

Risa : "this is the name of the book, orang2 now already use this to write, not like your time is still packing leaves :P, wonder I just a week not school you are now so bodo ya  "

I :" pregnant children also know it's a ris book, but what book "I said sewot.

Risa: "this is a rizal o'on assignment book, you have not entered a week, niii you have to play this game next week.Tomorrow we have a week off, school for preparation for the 3rd grade exam.

Me : "ha? holiday?, wahhh can be blunt because otaku lama2"

Lisa:"he's learning!"

risa sagged one of the books in the pile of books that were that bad.

Lisa: "this is zal, you haven't read it yet?"

I read the cover of the blue book, ahhh the report card book, even I do not remember if the month of yesterday was the receipt of the report card, and finally my ride has not been taken until risa brought it, he said, I read my indices one by one. hemm quite satisfied my inner self.

Risa :"welcome zal, you rank one more"

I : "yes ris thank you, my mother's father would like, I will read to them  , how can you take?, right do you take must be the guardian of the student"

Risa: "My father took zal, I asked for help father, like my father is also interested in you, special child" he said"

Me: "thank you, please tell your father.

risa simply nodded, and handed him a piece of paper...

Risa: "yes, tomorrow anak2 exkul nature lovers must come"

I read the leaflet. "traping camp"

"haaaa!?? critical, in merapi?, a sacred mountain, wahh wahhh can2 ..............