100 DAYS AFTER I DIE

Part 24 (Don't cry, I'm gone not long Part 2)

I was sitting at home, reading a novel to spend my free time...

"it's lunch let's eat first" mother's voice called me.

i: "yes, I'm open" I said from the reading room

I got out of my chair and went to the dining room, where my father and mother were waiting for me.

i :"wahhhh. greens, there are salted fish sambel trasi, duhhh manteb bukk" I stared at the dinner table happily...

mr.:"haha, your mother has cooked your favorite menu, now let's eat it" he asked me to sit down and eat together.

mother :"how did your school??"

i :"usual bukk, many pr teacher beuhhh bengis if uda give you a task" I replied with a mouth full of spinach..

mr. :"I can't complain like that, I'm grateful that you can still go to school smoothly, you can't be spoiled, you'll live independently" he advised me.

mother:"yes, eat a lot, father and mother will not be forever willing to eat for you, you must be independent.

Father:"your mother will not always give you pocket money, you must be able to manage money, you will not,

mother:"your father will not forever let you play, you must have many friends.

father:"your mother will not take care of you forever when you are sick, you must be able to take care of your health.

mother:"your father will not protect you forever when you get into trouble, you must be able to take care of yourself.

"the only thing you can do forever is love you forever."

he said that the two spoke at the same time...

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haaahhhhh, my breath is panting2, I turned left and right dark, only the dim light from my sleeping lamp is visible...

"dream it again" I murmured...

it was the fifth time in a week that the dream came...

the dream when I was this big but still with my parents, benar2 felt real, he father and my mother seemed to be unceasing2nya advising me..

kringgggg... kringggggggggg... The sound of the clock I put near the table beside my bed sounds loud, meaning that it is 04.15 am, I even wake up earlier than my alarm..

I turned off the alaram and took the ablution water,

I wear a sarong and long sleeves to ward off the cold of the morning, I go out to the mosque which is located not far from my house to pray for congregation....

I pray at dawn with other congregations..

finished my prayers sitting in the mosque foyer, some important things filled the otaku, he said,

gara2 is a letter I received 2 weeks ago, a very important letter...

"heal it" I muttered as I walked home..

it was Sunday morning, my usual activity was to take risa walk2 in the park around the house just to breathe fresh air in the morning...

I changed clothes with training clothes, and did a little stretching in front of the garage..

I reached into my pocket and pressed a few buttons on my phone..

"good morning ndorooooo, are you ready yetmmm???"

ask who else you don't feel worried about.

risa:"after dong, again waiting for the ojekkk artisan :P "

i :"idiiihhh :P, yakkk expanse, no motor manasin first"

risa :"okay  "

I then turned on my machine...

when I was on the bike I remembered something, I buru2 entered the house and took important items that I would show to Risa....

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"assallamalaikum"

I say hello while pressing the bell door of the house risa..

"walaikumusahlam" a woman's voice answered my greeting, accompanied by an open door.

a knotty smile adorned the girl's face, with jet black hair with a classic bob cut, her face could be said to be chinese, perhaps more dominant ala2 japan. that morning he wore a faded blue shirt with pictures of Bali tourist attractions with tight shorts.

I thought the one who opened the door was risa but it turned out to be someone else who I had just seen the first time.

me :"ehh mbak, sorry to interrupt, risa is there?" I asked while shaking mbak2's hand,

mbak2 :"ohhh.. this is rizal huh?, risa is there any more and and maybe in his room he might be rempong, enter first yuk"

I wait with the mother whose name is mbak Fira, she is his cousin risa who lives in manado, mbak fira said that he had met me in the hospital when Risa was still being treated.. the person is cool to talk to, like there is a cute gene in the family of risa, because mbak fira is also as chatty as risa, just a few minutes we met, just a few minutes we met, mbak fira has been flocking me with various strange questions2 like what I have done with risa, never kissed yet, etc.

I just answered a few questions calmly as usual...

mbak fira:"wahhhh lucky nihh the risa"

me :"lucky for what mbak?"

mbak fira :"he's lucky to have ........ "

"haloooo,zal  "

the sound of risa made my chatter and mbak fira stopped, risa walked towards us with her trademark smile..

risa :"mbakkk, beware if samo ngggodain rizal, already my ration tuuuu :O "

mbak fira :"what the fuck ? the ggodain mbak even sik rizal, cook mbak dikolek2 ris, trus taught him the same way, flirtatious right"

me :" loh haa??what's??" I am confused by putting on my face.

risa :"zallll.. hihhhh flirtatious sighh clay clear2 dikittt, hihhhhhhh basic guy"

risa pinched my stomach with her new pinch she named the red axe pinch -_-

me :"risss, aduduhh. pain, ehh no kokkk"

I tried to avoid talking about fira earlier.

mbak fira laughed loudly while covering her tiny lips...

Sister fira :"risa2, at the provocation of her reaction was kasian rizal, hihi.. well-treated guy tuuu, stock guy like him that stay a little, hihi, if you can't stay here let me be the same rizal" mbak fira laugh added kenceng..

risa :"is still very jail, can not be only one for mee :P "

me :"kalo kasian do not fad kayak earlier mbak, pinched kept my stomach long2 can appendicitis -_- "

mbak fira :"hihi, ya2 zal, maap maap, just want to ngetes aja, yaudah he said want on jalan2. have fun ya "mbak fira get up from the seat and walk away from us, yaudah said want to go on jalan2, before walking mbak fira winked at me, I was just dumbfounded to see the behavior of his cousin this risa..

risa:"awass yes if macem2, do not want to be seduced2 mbak fira,"

i :"yes ris"

risa:"he is 3 years old above you you kok mau2 aja sihh in godain mbak fira?"

i :"rissss..."I started off with the rancid chatter that didn't stop2.

risa:"did you not2 be seduced by mbak fira??"

i :"risss -_- "

risa:"Just you tomorrow don't maen here first if mbak fira is still here, can break your faith zal "

i :"risss -__- "

risa:"this is the danger of zal. gawaattt anyway if you have a crush on fira"

"i'm going home this is ris if it's still a bungle -_- :v "I replied with sebel.

"ehhh enggakk2 do not dongg gitu aja ngambek" replied risa with a rancid face...

risa:"yawahh set out and set out "

i: "riss -_- "

risa:"what else is zal?"

i:"your pinch is off, Sick can turn me off.

risa :"oh yes  , maap maap "

i : -_- :3

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risa and I were sitting on a park bench, after walking muter2 around the park...

i: "ris there yookkk, I think adem" I pointed to a place under the fir tree

risa:"ayokkk  "we also moved from our place

I lay myself down in a clump that was trimmed neatly

risa:"ehhh kok even sleep anyway?, gatel zal later "

me :"biarin, still sleepy me "

risa just sat back on my head, she smiled as she played my hair which I kept a little long..

i : "risss.. "

risa:"iya zal  "he replied while looking down at me

me :"are you seneng today??"

risa:" why is tumben not asked to speak first?  "

me :"I replied "

risa :"hehehe, seneng zal, seneng terribly.. every day with you is very happy"

risa spoke in a very soft voice..

her face was blocking the sunlight that was blinding my eyes, so I could see her beautiful face..

I smiled and closed my eyes..

:"why zal? not usually"

i :"gakpapa ris, just enjoy this moment really, let's not forget. I want nginget2 moments with you this"

I was silent.I woke up from my sleeping position..

i :"yes, I will miss the ris. "I spoke while reaching into the pocket of my sports jacket and picking up a piece of paper, it was a letter I received 2 weeks ago..

i:"riss "

I handed him a letter with a yellow envelope from the education service...

risa did not respond to my last words, she focused on the letter she had started reading carefully..

I observed the flat expression of Risa's face, several times her forehead wrinkled like thinking about the letter's intent..

about 10 meni risa flipping through letters with attachments of some of the documents..

risa folded the letter back and put it in the envelope ..

"congratulations zal, your mind2 will be sampean.. I am proud of you  "

risa smiled with her best sweet smile, though,.

i :"this is all thanks to your support ris  "

risa :"I just always beside you zal, and accompany you to grow up. The hard work so far you, you really deserve  , the first guy I know now already big yes.. soon it will be far away"

i:"yaaa. I used to live alone ris, wander wherever insyallah I can take care of myself. The only thing I have to get used to is away from you worry"

I spoke as I slept again, my eyes closed.I imagined my life being watched without any worries..

risa:"for a child our age what trials have you never dapet zal?, you are passing a lot of bad things that may not be able to pass others, but you may not be able to pass through, living for at most 5 years right zal? you can definitely zal, I can wait for you to come back here zal  "

I felt his fingertips touch my forehead..

me :"and what if it doesn't match the ris's expectations?"

risa:"do you mean zal?"

me :"Yes, what if I was there not smooth school?, what if my grades do not match the standard targets of the university?, what if I can not get along there, what if......... " not done yet I complain my words have been cut risa.

risa :" I don't know zal, which I know you can definitely overcome all that  "

I fell silent again, waiting for the sentence that Risa would say..

risa:"I just pray there you keep healthy kayak now, you keep a pinter kayak now, you keep not neko2 kayak now, you keep diligent, tenacious, hard work kayak now.. I believe in the same you are zal, the name of the problem must exist right?, how often do you solve the problem, and no matter how well you solve the problem, the problem will inevitably arise, it will continue, but indeed we live to solve the problem, the profession of the doctor you aspire to2 also the goal for the problem as well, you will get a lot of problems, you will get a lot of problems, but I once again believe you can solve any problem.no problem do we have a problem?  "

risa advised me with a reasonable kata2, it made my worry a little less..

I opened my eyes and saw the girl of my dreams looking at me with her beautiful eyes.

me :"and what about you ris?, you will also catch up with me ? I mean your mind2. After graduation where are you going?" I asked back..

risa:"well I used to say I want to get a medical scholarship as well as zal, but you cheated you naek first class, huuuu not healthy competition :P, P , now I have a new mind2 zal  "

me :"what is it?"

risa :"em.there are 2 zal :P "

me :"the first what?"

risa :"my first thought2 have a serious relationship with you  , so far we are indeed deket zal, and have been honest with our feelings 2, respectively, in the past I did not want to have the word dating because it is still first class and we are only 16 years old, but now another story zal, I am 18 years old, I am, and now that my feelings for you aren't overstretched, I'm a bad girl, I need reassurance "

risa spoke without daring to look at me, she just looked down at the grass while playing my hair..

I paused for a moment thinking of digesting the sentence that was spoken by Risa....

i :"ohhhh "

just that word said, I understand with the mean of the risk I just want to tease him.

risa took a long breath..

risa:"you always do that, it's still cold like that, you know, already 6 years zal we together from you are still a child snotusan until now already want to be a medical student of your nature which I believe makes me often understand you, understand you, I know you really care but with your nature that is like that sometimes makes me misunderstand..

there seemed to be a sense of disappointment on Risa's face....

I stood up and raised my hands high2, I did another stretch, I saw a watch, only at 06.10 am, this park is not too crowded, I saw the risa sitting while daydreaming, I saw the, his hand pulled out the grass2 that had been in short pruning.

I could feel a sense of disappointment, perhaps because my answer did not show my enthusiasm..

I squatted in front of him.

i :"risss"

risa:"what?" he did not look at me at all, his head still down.

me :"Risa Amanda Princess, look at me! " i spoke louder to ask for his attention.

risa turned her head, now she looked at me but with a sad look.

risa:"why zal?" risa asked once more.

I'm sure the mood is very bad.

"would you be my girlfriend??."

I held her hand tightly, risa just kept quiet, she said,

maybe my word2 was too fast and spontaneous, I repeated it again, this time my voice was more audible and slow.

"Risa Amanda Putri, will you be my girlfriend?, sorry to irritate you yes, now I will make your first wish achieved, will you be my girlfriend?, and accompany me to grow up?" I looked lekat2 risa face.

looking as though her cheeks were blushing rapidly, she squeezed my hands just as tightly as I grasped her hands tightly..

Risa:"do you need answers to questions you already know??"

i nodded..

risa :"I'm still as sweet as you hihhh tease nyebelin. but I want to zal, I will always want  , after this I always wait for the question, even if you have to be coded first, I'll always want to do so, but I'm seneng zal  "

I smiled happily, I rubbed his hair.There was a strange feeling, I and Risa had already said a mutual liking but once the question was spoken and answered by Risa there was a pleasant strange feeling, a pleasant one, it was like I got a prize, or won something, that's how I felt..

me :"already plong now??, not a smile?"

risa nodded with a smile, I held her shoulder and I thrust her body onto my shoulder.

I took a long breath..

risa :"zal,"

i :"yes ris"

risa:"can we have a call dear?"

sayaa :"can origin not tacky" I replied while shaking2 my shoulders.

risa:"emmm... Can I call you a mas? "

I smiled. risa called me with a call mas. funny too, impressed more mature.

I nodded and looked towards him, with a smile I said.

"yes I like, call me mas "

risa:"trus if I called what dong?"

me: "do not call nduk want?"

risa smiled and nodded quickly,

risa :"hihi, would like to let people used to be called nduk"

the habit I like is that if she can't hold her laugh she will cover her mouth with her hands, and she does so gracefully, she looks very attractive while trying to hold back her laughter.

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me and I were going to be a couple in March 2006, which means that in about 1.5 months I will be doing the national test..

the scholarship awarded to me is only valid when I can complete a very large administrative file and of course my graduation standard must also be above average2 .

I was at the park with Risa..

a lot of what we talked about, especially about my education..

risa looked happy, I was so. on one side there was a feeling of unwillingness to leave the sensation, as well as the risa who with a heavy heart had to let me separate with her for hundreds or maybe thousands of kilometers with her.

i :"sir, what was your second mind2?"

risa:"whataaa ya :P:P tomorrow I will tell you if you want to go ma :P "

me :" ahh resee ahh"

risa:" Anyway tomorrow yes mas :P "

i :"iye2 -_- "

our chatter continues, the feeling2nya I want to take full advantage of this moment, I want to be with him continue, the true girl2 became the first foreigner to complete my life..

even if it's real soon we'll be apart long"

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" mass.." said risa slowly, we have arrived at his house and are sitting2 in the living room of the risa house.

i :"iya nduk"

risa: "kalo holiday and there is a chance to go home do not forget to come here mas" risa began to sulk, it seems risa benar2 think about this..

me :"I do nduk "

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risa and I were opening 2 photo albums of memories when we were still young.we laughed a lot seeing our geeky faces and nostalgic memories of the past.

tikkkp..

a drop of water drenched a photo, the photo was a picture of me with a visibly at the farewell smp. We sang the song together on stage, seen in the photo I plucked the strings of a guitar and risa held a mic.

the drop of water came from the eyes of the soul, yes he cried.

me: "why?"

"not papa mas, today is funny, I am happy and sad at the same time.I seneng you dapet scholarship mas, your mind2 is one step away from being realized, and you will be, I'm more fun again mas fitting you shoot me to be your girlfriend, I'm very fond of. but the fact you have to go far for me sad mas, I know I have to be patient, I have to be patient, you must have come back to me, right? is it not, right?, I am proud of you mas, your struggle and your fortitude now there is a result, I just think in the next few months I will be lonely there is no mas you, I will be alone, I imagine that again in the future there will be no you, the future and the future will no longer exist you mas, if you get the scholarship at UGM, or at UI, he said, or where is the origin of the distance that we can still reach, but God seems to give a special gift to you mas, you have to go further. " risa cried again she landed her face on my shoulder and broke my shirt with her tears.

"sir, I will know the way home, I will not be rough, I will always know the direction where I should go back to you, do not worry, you also have to recover 100% and work yourself to pursue your mind2nduk"

I raised my chin. The tears were still wetting her face, but it seemed that her hysteria had subsided. She closed her eyes, maybe she was embarrassed.

cuppcu..

I kissed her forehead gently, I mengkasakan something slowly.

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"don't cry, I'm gone not long "