100 DAYS AFTER I DIE

Part 19 (You must stay with me)

I was still blinded with eyes that were about to cry, I peeked in front of the curtain and saw a person I knew very well, Risa, she was being helped by some doctors, she was unconscious, she said, I saw the bed where Risa was put to sleep filled with blood, I saw her body was also full of wounds..

no matter how many minutes I stayed there, my legs felt limp but stiff, someone in a green uniform pulled me..

"gold, the patient must be treated, the condition is alarming, please give room, the patient will we pndah queruan icu, I did not say anything, I stepped back, I stepped back, and saw risa being taken away in haste2 by the medical team..

"are all the people I love you going to take, Lord?" my question is in my heart..

"no kk, Risa she Risa she won't leave me this easy yes she will survive, Yes rabb please give her life" thought buruku try megan with better prejudice.. I sat down in a chair, I leaned my head against an iron sign that I knew what it was doing,..

The trauma was back when I saw the state of anxiety.a sense of tightness in the chest that was only about a month I experienced now filled my chest and made it seem difficult to breathe, I was so scared when death was so close to the people closest to me...

"don't go, you said you wouldn't leave me"

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"naughty rizal" the voice of om hamzah risa's father spread my daydream.

I :"om....."

mr. Hamzah: "don't think bad, son, om also worried, now Risa is being treated intensively, you calm down first" said 2 Risa's father can not hide his fear and worry, he said, he seemed to be as agitated as I was..

I noticed that Mr. Hamzah was calling someone...

I went back to daydreaming..

"visa keep your promise not to leave me"

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1 hour later than the first time I arrived here, the time that should not have been long was very torturing to me, he said, every time a doctor or nurse came out of a room I immediately asked him no matter if he was a doctor or nurse who handled anxiety or not.

I glanced at om bowo who was also as agitated as me, apparently he was calling his mother risa..

I saw a doctor on the doorstep of the room.he nodded his head at me, as if immediately understood I was nudging om hamzah to look at the doctor, we hurried2 approached him..

"from our examination is not good sir, my father's daughter fell into a coma due to bleeding and a very hard impact" the doctor told om hamzah..

Hamzah sir: "then what can I do sir?"

Doctor:"we suggest intensive treatment, and surgery.Bone of the hand and foot of the father's daughter was broken, 2 her ribs were also broken, and the impact on the back of the head made inflammation in her brain, and, it is a miracle that the father's daughter can survive this time, but must not be off guard, continue to pray that the father's daughter's condition will stabilize quickly, so that we can do other medical actions"

om hamzah's facial expression looked anxious, he called someone, who knows..

I was only confused by the mixed omosi, my mind was still floating about the state of anxiety..

"riss.. If you are healthy again ris, whatever your situation tomorrow, I swear I will not let you like this again "I am inward, I walk near the hamzah om who is out the door, I will not let you go, he was sitting in a doldrums, some police officers were also beside him...

Hamzah sir:"nak rizal, thank you for coming, now you go home, you still have to go to school tomorrow, let me take care of the worry until his mother can come home here"

Me :"eg, I'll stay here first, I just want to make sure the feeling is safe, I'll go to school in the morning2 and every time I go home from school I'll be here"

Mr. hamzah:"thank you for rizal" 

I'm :"om, risa will be okay, om?"

Hamzah sir: "we just pray for rizal"

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I sat down weakly, with my hands clenched tightly, I wanted to cry, but I held back,,, 

even the thought of loss of sensation has never crossed before, until now, where now Risa lies and is struggling between life and death....

I imagine how I feel without anxiety, that risa is a person who is always there for me, when my father was declared lost, the feeling came with the hope that my father will be safe, and my father will be safe, but fate says another time when you have to die, but then Risa comes again and brings hope that I am not right2 alone, because there he is, there is a risa that makes me feel not as much, but..... if Risa is also destined to go is there another hope still?, will there be new hope?, or will there only be despair and loneliness ? 

"quickly wake up little brat, let's get up, and be chatty as usual, pinch me as you like when you wake up" I murmured inwardly...

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Last night I could not sleep, I could only look at awang2, think about many things that I had gone through with risa, ahhhhhhh.. enough of my loved ones to die tragically, no more Rabb, if you want life, then exchange lives with me, let him live..

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I got out of the chair I was sleeping in, saw some other patient's family in the room, just now I heard there was news that a young mother died giving birth to her second son, tragically, the child he was born with died.I saw across the room, it looks like a father is waiting for his son who may be 3 years old yan sleeps with a glove in a waiting room chair, waiting room, I am sure it was the husband and son of the mother who died in childbirth..Why can I know?? because I saw the spirit of a woman with a sad smiling face near them. The spirit seemed to caress the head of the father while crying and smiling at the same time.. and a split second later she disappeared, going to the grave for sure, leaving behind the mortal world, leaving behind her husband and her very young son..

whether this was what sari used to mean, maybe just after the death of my parents they used to visit me as well. This experience was very terrible and touched how someone would not be able to fight against destiny, I pray for the spirit of the woman to be able to get a decent place in the grave.I turned left and right, making sure no new spirit was plucked from her body, especially I want to make sure that the spirit of the soul is still in his sleeping body.

I did not stop2nya pray, that night the strands of dhikr also spoken softly from my mouth, he said,.

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I stepped out, the room and saw om hamzah sitting with his head down, there seemed to be a filter cigarette just like the late father used to...

"om" it seems that my reprimand disperse his reverie.

Hamzah sir:"yes rizal, can you sleep too?"

I shook my head, I glanced at my watch at 3am....

I :"om... after a healthy risa can I continue with risa?. I will take care of her, I will be her encouragement, like the risa that has always been my encouragement. may it?"

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Hamzah sir: "of course you can, take care of risa, he's my only child, for now just make friends you were too young"

I am :"definitely sir" I replied with confidence..

time went on and I spent chatting with om hamzah, he told me the chronology of the incident, 

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I don't know how long I talked to om hamzah, until the dawn of the prayer rang.me and om hamzah to the mushala in the rs complex...

"are you going to school number rizal??" ask om hamzah in the porch of the mosque after finishing praying.

I just nodded..

Hamzah sir: "yes, don't skip truant yes, please bring this certificate for permission school risa yes",

I am :"yes, and may I ask for help??."

hamzah sir:"what is rizal?"

i :"if I may borrow the bike sir, last night I came by car, desperate because my bike is tight, now I don't dare to ride the car"

Hamzah sir:"wahh reckless also you, this is my motorbike, super motorbike black yes, this is the parking card at the end there, you match the license plate number"

I :"thank you, my car keys are the same security guard, om," I said as I passed and said goodbye..

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all the way home my mind was empty, I just daydreamed all the way let alone things that I daydreamed other than risa..

I got home and ready to go to school, it has been almost 3 weeks I did not go to school, had a lot of lessons I left, I checked my wallet.. it's just my one2 money left..

I arrived at school lethargic, as my learning spirit had worn off, not many or maybe no one knew about the state of anxiety, many welcomed me with greetings and condolences for the death of my father, he said, guru2ku also so he2 also expressed his condolences and support for me..

at 07.15 and the first hour lesson will start soon, I sit with the irawan, the visa permit I have submitted to the picket teacher because I am not in class with risa...

that day was very tedious for me, at all the material given by the teacher can not enter my brain, in otakhu there is only risaa,,

during my break time invaded another class 2, they were scrambling to risk the state of anxiety, it seems they already know the danger of getting a disaster..

"now Risa is in a coma, she is being treated at RS.Sardjito" I said slowly, I did not respond to questions that were not too important, I just answered as was..

"risa accident on the solo road" I said also slowly..

"resee" murmured in my heart, I left my desk leaving my other group of friends2 I was sitting on a long bench in the corridor next to my class that seemed to be quiet from interference.

"zallll" I turned, it was susi..

Me : "why the hell sus??" my question with a high tone. I feel that I do not want to be disturbed, it feels careless.plus drowsiness that makes me increasingly unable to concentrate.

Susi:"you who are patient yes", Susi sat beside me, I still ignore her presence..

susi :"zall" susi called again...

and a jewel pulled my earlobe

i :"susss! whata2an anyway?, if you just want to disturb sono disturb the others" I said half yelling.

susi :"has not been sewotnya?, I know you lg not because, but inget temen risa not only you, me and other temen2 also want to know the situation" the voice of susi is very soft, very soft, without any emphasis in the sentence, those subtle words made me a little patient.

i:"sorry, my mind is complicated, I'm worried about the same state of anxiety" I said with a little more subtle.

Susi :"Iakupun thus zal, please yes zal, kasi know I'll just another temen2 let me who kasi know, let you not be disturbed. I know how you do not like too much talk" susi approaches with a reasonable sentence, it makes me soften a little.

I then told Susi about the state of anxiety, how the incident happened to risa, in the room where risa was treated and so on.

susi:"thank you zal"

i :"yes sus" I answered briefly, I stood up and wanted to find another place but a second later the hand of Susi pulled me

and forced me to sit down again...

I :"what the hell is that??" ask me this time with a higher tone, I began to get sick of being asked 2 continues.

Susi:"sit here first" Susi said as she reached into the bag of crackles she was carrying

me :"what's up?" I'm the one who started spraining.

susi :"drink first, this.. I also bring a stock of toast with jam, you temenku right?, me menemenin expanse ya"

susi said the word friend, until now I am still sensitive to the word "friend" yes because the predicate "friend" is very difficult to get, but now I have been recognized as a friend by many people, but now I have been recognized as a friend by many people, then I chose to sit as Susi asked.

Susi:"drink first" Susi said with a sweet smile.

I received the bottle tea and drank it through a straw, I glanced at Susi, yes Susi also included the school flower, and I also drank it, she is much liked because in addition to her beautiful and body that contains her also excels in the field of art, such as drawing, singing and classical dance...

"ahhhh well" my mind, indeed since last night my throat has not been allowed to eat and drink, maybe my emotions are also influenced by poor nutrition...

Susi:"more about zal?" ask susi gently

Me :"yes, thank you"

susi: "you haven't eaten yet, have you?" while you're not sleeping, right?" ask susi to investigate.

me :"do you know?" I answered while receiving the bread given by Susi.

Susi :"so good looking zal, zal you can be indifferent, but don't be indifferent to your own condition huh" Susi looked at me with her eyes that were slurred...

me :"yeah sus, thank you"

susi smiled very sweetly..

susi's face is beautiful, can be categorized as level like risa, her face is thin but not impressed thin, her lips thin with a nose that is sharp like risa, and, maybe what makes him attractive is the slightly reddish and wavy hair on the bottom, maybe he is indeed oriental, I don't know, either,,

susi :"zall"

i :"yes sus how?" my voice sounded strange because my mouth was filled with bread.

Susi :"how important is it for you?"

I tried to swallow the unchewed bread in my mouth round 2 and drank a lot 2 to make it easier for the food to enter my stomach,

I :"ahhhh... Risa ya. somehow sus, she who understands me the most sus, she who knows me the most, she was the first to admit me. she was the first in the new phase of my life sus, sus, he who brought me to a new color in my life, he was my encouragement, it was natural that I should be worried about him, because I felt that only he could understand and understand me..she's the one2 that makes me feel like a bunch of sus"

Susi:"and do you like being equally risa??"

I just kept quiet, thinking for a while about 2 answers like what I was going to say.

I'm :"maybe you could say that's sus"

susi:"Risa's really2 lucky to know you first"

i :"I am right2 lucky to know him first" I flipped kata2 susi..

Susi :"and I know you zal" she replied.

Me :"you open up and you know me?"

Susi :"I mean if I knew you first and faster than risa"

after that kata2 Susi stood up and headed for her new class a few steps she turned her body towards me and said.

"zal, you are the spirit yes, later I will look worried as well, Risa must be healed, and if she has healed make her take care of you good2, if she does not have to be the same heart2 me"

I was just amazed2 by his strange attitude..

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kringg.

"rizal!" irawan called me from a distance, I had already run towards the motorbike parking, "later wannnn again this urgent!" I screamed from the end of the corridor..

I run the bike owned by Mr. Risa at full speed, I want to know the state of interest now..

"risss, you have to wake up, at least not literate, just as I uda nyampe I want to see you wake up" I muttered expectantly..

I have reached the front of the room where risa is treated, where is it not available, I see from the glass window the risa door is still unconscious, blm, his whole body was like bandaged plus a cast on his hands and feet. It was sad that I saw him feel the energetic this time just asleep in the icu room mattress..

let me in, I tried to open the door of the room.

"who is this gold?" I was shocked, from behind there was a mother2 who patted me on the shoulder..

"i'm sorry buk, I am concerned about the patients being treated here" I said politely.

"what's your name?" the mother asked back.

"i rizal ma'am, his schoolmate is risa" I replied with a deep glance and kissed the mother's hand..

"ohhh so this is what is called rizal "

"i am his mother, my name is Ndari" said the mother who turned out she was his mother..

me :"ohhh sorry aunt, I didn't know before"

Ms. Ndari:"iya gapapa, you haven't met me before, have you?"

Me :"yes ma'am" I replied slowly.

Miss Ndari :"wouldn't you be worried right?, yaudah let's go in, but it must be as beautiful as before yes, report the same officer" replied aunt ndari,

aunt from this is also beautiful, at her age who may have been the head of four but her face and body still look young and fresh, and maybe risa inherited a beautiful talent from this mother.

I wash my hands, and take off my shoes, I am required to wear a green shirt with a head covering, this is the rule if I want to visit patients icu room.

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risa's face still looks beautiful as usual, although a hose and something clear covering her mouth and nose did not reduce the value of her beauty in my eyes.

the body full of bandages and eyes that are still tightly closed make me sad, why bad things even happen to a person who is as good as anxious..

a cheerful and friendly figure, a girl who is valued by many men because in addition to her beautiful manners, and simple will make all the men who know her fall in love..

and maybe I'm that crazy person, I waste feelings of anxiety.Maybe it's true that many people say, you'll only understand the importance of someone after you lose that person..

I don't want to be a madman who wasted a woman as well as a rhyme, "risa, you have to stay with me huh" I murmured inwardly.

not feeling a drop of tears fell from my eyes, I was 2 wiping it, I was watching the face of Risa up close. face decorated with several scratches, and, the face that for three and a half years has accompanied me sincerely, I still look at the face of risa, I see her ears, ears that always listen to every story and my grievances carefully, he said, I saw his closed eyes, the eyes that were always watching me, looking at me and giving me a strange feeling when his eyes were looking at me, I saw his lips that were clumped in a few intervals, those lips always greeted me every day, advising me with a good kata2, insinuating me with kata2 which I usually never understand, the lips always say a word of support for me, beautiful words that have always been my encouragement,

but now those ears, eyes and lips cannot respond to me as usual...

this kind of position makes me feel bad, the person who cares about me the most, the person who loves me with an advertisement is at a critical time in his life, and I can only see it without being able to do anything..

"risa, heh cute, please wake up, don't sleep mulu, we have a lot of agendas together right?, next week do we want to cook together, inget not you who make the effort to learn and continue, let's get up so we can learn together again" I said kata2 slowly in the ear of risa, an act of madzir, but I want to say that..

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a pat on the back surprised me, it turned out his mother was risa, I forgot that in this room there was also his mother risa, I buru2 wiped my face which was slightly wet with tears.

Ms. Ndari :"Risa has already passed the critical period of nak rizal, now her condition is stable, and soon if her condition improves will immediately operate" aunt ndari like to understand my feelings at this time, and soon after, kata2 he was right2 made me relieved.

"alhamdulillah" I said gratefully, the hope was still there, the hope of continuing to be together, the hope that I and Risa would never leave and be abandoned..

"ris, be healthy so I can keep my promise"