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Part 27 - A Small Journey to Happiness

Arlin and I walked together.

"When are we?" said Arlin, smiling knot

I turned to him and brought my face closer to him, then whispered in his ear, "Tomorrow we marry" I said, smiling knots

"Can't be. Joking around with you" said Arlin

Arlin looked towards Haikal and Livia who stood up with a smile,

I saw Arlin's look as if he was also happy, I think the happiest man at that time must be Haikal. Not all men can marry a woman as beautiful as Livia.

"So I want a spit - a wedding party. Horror, code" said Arlin, smiling sweetly

"Say tomorrow" said Arlin

"No" I said

We attended Livia and Haikal's wedding, for some reason I was also happy when I saw that they were married, even though deep down in my little heart I still loved Livia. Arlin just kept wrapping his hand around mine. I saw Livia looking at me and smiling thinly at that very moment. Ever since Livia came to my apartment, I've promised myself nothing more than friendship.

When I shook Haikal's hand, I didn't realize that Livia was holding me so tightly, that Arlin and Haikal could only fall silent. I decided it was the last hug from him. In the future I don't want to interfere with his life anymore. And, besides I also have Arlin that I have to keep fighting for, I don't want to disappoint him.

"Liv" I said, slowly

"Udah, Liv. It's a day for you as Haikal is happy, for me as you are" I said

Livia slowly let go of that embrace of hers,

I took Arlin's hand and immediately left the couple who should be happy. In the car, I knew Arlin kept going with a look I couldn't explain, I don't know. I don't understand how Arlin and Haikal feel, it seems that maybe they are the ones who can least accept all of that, but why don't I see all of that in their faces at the least. I'm upset myself. They should be angry.

This life is not just about me and Livia, it's Arlin, it's Haikal. And everyone involved in it. I left my car aside, because I can't drive with a lot of thoughts in my head, it's dangerous. I see the streets are pretty quiet. For a moment I was silent, thinking.

"Lin" I said

"Lin, I'm sorry" I said

"Make you the same Haikal is always uncomfortable. Livia is that" I said

Arlin looked at me so fixedly, "Gakpapa. You guys are just sahabatan, right? I have no problem with that" said Arlin

"I was always jealous to see you guys. But, on the day of fiancee, Livia tells me that you guys are just victorious, just calm down. I trust you" said Arlin, smiling faintly

Livia was just telling me about my relationship with her that was just a friendship with Arlin and Haikal. I started to doubt. Even if Livia didn't tell me about my feelings or her true feelings, Arlin and Haikal also had thoughts and feelings. In fact, passers-by can assume that Livia and I have more of a relationship than a friendship, even though that person has just seen.

Especially Arlin and Haikal who have known for a long time.

Those guys aren't stupid.

Iknow. In their hearts, they must be disappointed with all that fact, that the person they have always loved was not so loving, all that hurt. I know I have to be honest with Arlin.

But, I can't do it.

Likewise with Livia, surely Livia also can not do it with Haikal. When Livia and I were honest, I couldn't imagine what would happen next.

There could be two couples separated. Probably the worst of it. And, I don't want that to happen. Is correct.

That's what I'm afraid of.

"Lin, how is that?" say

"Livia was in front of Haikal again, I was going to be like that. It could be - usually Livia is that" I said, smiling wryly

Arlin clasped my hand so tightly, then I also clasped it tightly, "Lin, I promise after this, I won't hold Livia. Especially now that they are officially married" I said

Arlin could only be silent and did not know what to do.

It's not just Arlin. At that time I also did not know what to do, the thing that I could just express whatever was on my mind, about all that. I can't hold it anymore.

"I really promise you. I just don't want you to be the same Haikal, later it's not comfortable, even if you say gakpapa. Whenever I'm with Livia, I don't know why I always feel guilty about you and Haikal" I said

"You have a heart, there's no way you're okay - why" I said

"Yes, I have a heart" Arlin said

Arlin cut his face, then looked straight ahead, "Your boyfriend does not need to break up so yes, I want to see the relationship between the two of you continue" said Arlin

"You must be lying, Lin" I said

"Tell me" said Arlin

"Sir" said Arlin