"If"

Part 15 - Change

Today was exhausting.

After coming home from college, I had to go to the cafe.

After coming home from the cafe, I walked up my boarding stairs with my guitar on my back, I pulled my guitar out of his bag and I set all the strings, I saw Livia's door open. I walked into the room with a guitar. That room I didn't see Livia. There was no one in the bathroom either. I don't know where Livia is.

When I wanted to go back to my room, I realized the balcony door was open. There I saw Livia sitting on the balcony wall, her hands stretched out. I walked there with my guitar. His behavior is very suspicious.

"Liv" I said

"What are you doing there? Want to kill yourself, time here is not in a better place like that" I said, worried

Livia just looked at me, though,

I walked closer to her, then Livia frowned, "As for the man I'm here again wanting to think. You come - come play recriminate" said Livia, shaking her head

"Who knows if a fleeting thought arises" I said

"Here we sit down" said Livia

I sat next to him. I was a little scared when I looked down, especially when I saw my legs hanging, "When are you sitting here?" I said, looking at him

"It's been a long time, like half an hour" Livia said

Livia saw my guitar on the balcony, "You want to entertain me? More thoughts now" said Livia, smiling sweetly

"Main guitar there" said Livia

I picked up my guitar after that we sang together. About two hours later we were there, after which we went back to our room and the next day, Livia came into my room but all day it looked so quiet. Every now and then while playing the game, I looked at her and I saw Livia staring blankly. I finished my game, then I closed my laptop, after that I opened my window a little, so that the outside air could be more into my room.

And, Livia still didn't budge, even so I didn't want to bother her in the least. Though I really want to ask him, but I reflect on my intentions. If it's late afternoon, Livia is still like that, I'll really ask her what she thinks.

Livia looked at me and kept looking at me. His gaze made me ask - ask, all of that was clearly visible in his eyes and at that time, I could only smile thinly, because I did not know what to look at him continuously. After that, Livia looked straight ahead, then smiled meaningfully until I was again confused by her behavior, until finally Livia patted my thigh slowly.

"I want to change for the better" said Livia

I looked at him closely, and so did Livia, "Jaudah. Good" I said, smiling knot

"That was the reaction? Not supporting or helping what?" livia

"Support doesn't have to be appointed either" I said

"I support you" I said

Livia turned her face away, "Little by little I want to change" said Livia, smiling sweetly

"Today has to be better than yesterday" Livia said

"Too heavy. Mending was substituted so today there has to be something better than yesterday. It's not that heavy. If you were everything, if I just had to be there just not everything" I said

"Well, I wear what you have" said Livia

"Don't dong. What will I wear, if I wear it with you?" say

"I really want to change you" I said

Livia directly directed my face to look at her with both hands,

"Welcome. I'm not kidding now?" livia said, looking at me sharply

"Here believe me" I said

"Now take his hand off" I said

"Process" said Livia

Slowly Livia let go of her hand on my face, after which I saw Livia smiling a little, while I moved from my place and at that moment my hand was held by her, then I let go of her hand. Livia held my hand again. I took off her hand again, until we finally laughed with all that, Livia didn't know that I was going to the bathroom. What else does he want to explain. Listening to her desire to change already explained all my questions, what else should I listen to from her? I will definitely support him as long as it can make his life better.

"Liv" I said

"Ngapain anyway, what else? I want to go to the bathroom" I said

"Support me" said Livia

I who did not want to delay - procrastinate, finally nodded my head slowly, "Udah ya. Day by day diem, once I wanted to change" I said, walking past him

"It's hard to know that determination bulatin" said Livia

"Truly" said Livia

"Yes know" I said

I thought Livia was kidding. But, since that day, Livia began to reduce coming to night entertainment, and also away from friends who had a bad influence on her, he said, all of that means Livia really wants to change slowly. It is not too late in life. There is no right time in life, start anything from now because if you wait for the right time, it means it will last a lifetime. Although Livia began to slowly change, the news that was circulating was still telling bad things about her. Livia doesn't care about any of that.

"Ndre" said Livia

"I don't care what people say. What I care about is the word - said people like you that is really - really know me really" said Livia

Livia let out a long sigh, "They just know me and my name, but they don't know the least about my life" Livia said, smiling

"Ndre, aren't you horrified? I'm serious about this" said Livia, annoyed

I fell asleep, though,

"You're sleeping" said Livia

"Sleepness. What time did you try? Half hour three. Move to your room there" I said, sleepy

"I slept here. I'm going to walk" said Livia

"Udah diem yes I want to sleep" I said

"Ngeselin" said Livia

"Whispering" I said