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61. Easy to Say Difficult to Run

Forgiving a mistake is easy to say, but to do so requires a lot of sincerity and an ocean-wide heart. After forgiveness, we must forget, unfortunately it takes a lifetime to erase the memory of something painful. Forgiveness and forgetting are hard for me.

"If something can be fixed, try to fix it" said - said Kak Merry again ringing in my mind.

"Don't make a decision you'll regret." Brother Johan softly spoke.

"I know." I answered for which statement.

I was really confused in determining the attitude, if only there were no children between Hans and me, everything would be easier. What makes me even more worried is Merry and Johan's brother as if they were not on my side.

Oh, please whoever it is give me the best excuse to forgive a betrayal.

"I've never been in your position, so it's easy for me to ask you to forgive Hans. But trust me, it's gonna be harder to raise a child without a father." again - again Brother Merry asked me to budge.

"I have enough money, brother. When a woman has money, she needs no man." I replied in an unconvinced tone.

(When a woman has money, she doesn't need a man)

"You don't need Hans but your children need a father figure. And also Mom." Brother Johan took my hand.

"There is nothing better for children than a full family. They need Daddy's firmness and Mom's tenderness." Brother Merry is back to advise me.

"But brother, it wasn't me who made it incomplete. He's the one who plays, he's the one who broke all my trust. If I had come back, it would not have been the same." My heart still refused.

"You may hate his guilt, but not his soul. Poor Hans. Her life would be a mess without you, then how would your children if you chose to separate. Didn't Abbey ask why you split up? How do you explain to Abbey and Manda? Then what are you going to say to Aaron when he grows up?"

Ah, I remembered how the fiery Abbey told of Clara's behavior during the outbound. How Abbey hated Clara every time she remembered her flirtatiousness to Hans. Not to mention that Manda chimed in if she didn't like Clara coming near her Daddy. Will they hate their Daddy? Or will it be worse to hate men? All this time they idolized Brother Hans. To them, Brother Hans was their first love.

Would I have the heart to let that love turn into hatred and let that feeling grow in the hearts of my two girls? Moreover, Manda is very quiet, we will never know what kind of heartache an introvert will keep.

OH!!! And Aaron? He is too small to understand. Why the more I came here, it felt like I was forced to go back and forgive Hans. What about my own heart? Has anyone thought about it? Tears were melting again on my cheeks, I closed my mouth and sobbed.

Don't ask me if I miss my kids or not. They are the center of my life and my days. Right now I'm thinking about how my kids are doing? Do they eat regularly? Are they okay or looking for me? Did they do their schoolwork well? Did they find trouble today? Then how's Aaron? Did he sleep well today? Is she crying? Who listened to Abbey and Manda tell him about their activities at school?

All those questions filled my head. But I still don't want to call Brother Hans to ask. I also did not contact Abbey and Manda directly for different reasons, I did not have the courage to face them, especially Abbey. Once I talk to them, then Abbey will know that I'm not okay. He's very sensitive and intelligent.

No matter how much we hide a problem, there is always a gap to find out.

Before I go to school, my kids call me first. Not wanting to disappoint them, I accepted.

"Hallo?" I said after a quick puff to loosen my throat.

My voice is a little hoarse because some days can not sleep well and last night I often cry considering my children. I just hope that whoever's across there doesn't notice my voice change.

"Mommy?" abbey's voice greeted me.

"How are you doing, Mommy? We managed to get up early without Mommy nagging, and soon wanted to go to school." continued Abbey.

"Mommy's fine. Have you guys had breakfast?" I tried to speak in a normal tone.

"Relove, Mommy. Is Mommy sick?" abbey asked as soon as I heard my voice.

The next second, the phone call turned into a video call.

Geez! This is what I'm afraid that until I call them, a phone call won't be enough. And I'm not sure I can lie to Abbey, if I've spoken through a video call.

"Mommy, we missed you. Please, turn on the video." pinta Abbey in a pushy tone.

I was looking for a safer position, however I told them that there was a need outside the city. Then turn on the video.

"Mommy! Very long.... "

Abbey's face appeared followed by Manda smiling next to her.

"Mommy...." Manda's calm voice greeted me, making me miss them even more. I wanted to get on my phone screen and hug and kiss them.

"Where's Aaron?" my many.

"Wait, Mommy! Mommy has to go home today, let Daddy pick up Mommy. Okay?" Abbey did not answer, she interjected in a commanding tone rather than asking.

I frowned and didn't answer because I didn't want to promise them anything.

"Mommy. , we miss you. After dropping off school, Daddy's gonna pick up Mommy from Uncle Johan's place." Abbey said with a confident tone.

"Mommy's not at Uncle Johan's house, son." I said lie.

"Mommy says we can't lie, why is Mommy lying? Mommy was having a fight with Daddy?"

The deg! Abbey's words always turn off the interlocutor. I'm not even sure what to say.

"Oh Moms, go home. We missed you, especially Aaron. She cried all night." persuaded Abbey again.

"Mommy, Manda wants Mommy."

Oho! My heart aches and grieves at Manda's request. My daughter almost never asks for anything. He was too quiet and submissive, all control was in the hands of the Abbey. And now, he's asking me to come home with glassy eyes. I also heard Aaron's voice crying like tantrums. My heart is getting sliced.

"The wall clock is in Uncle Johan's guest room, Moms. There's no way I've mistaken her, 'cause I like her model so much." Abbey explained as if she knew what was on my mind.

Oh my!...

See you in the next episode....