Your Officemate's

56. Obsessions

"Now answer all my questions! Have you ever thought, just once, of dating a poor, skinny, ugly and un-stylish young man? Can you live in a boarding house with your husband? Do you abandon all your facial and body care in order to save for the needs of daily living?Then, will you stop your shopping habits in order to learn to cook for your husband and children?"

I-i know. Clara won't be able to answer all my questions. His face looked like it was preparing to refute me, but it didn't. His face was also unreadable.

"The poor young man was me. And with my wife, I can be who I am now." I continued.

"What's wrong if I like you, brother Hans?"

"What you feel is not like, let alone love. It's just an obsession." I lowered my tone.

In any case, I want him to go well - well out of my life. Not by bringing hatred, especially to Erika.

"I just want to be with you. I never asked you to marry me. As long as you can be friends, and meet you even though you are silent. That's enough....Why is Rika's sister overreacting?" Clara said quietly but quite clearly it sounded in Hans ears.

"I've sacrificed so much for you, that I've been willing to hide - to hide just to meet you."

"So, stop. Stop everyone. Look for single men who love and want to meet your lifestyle. Get married and be happy. Haven't I told you many times that I'm not a good fit for you?"

"Do you mind if I marry someone else?" tanyakanya.

"Absolutely not. That's my hope." I said firmly.

"Have you never been jealous when you found out I was dating someone else?" again Clara asked.

"Never."

"Then why did you kiss me?"

This last question is really striking. There's no way I'm going to make a mistake with him saying that all this happened because he started teasing me. I just welcome the bait. But, men must dare to admit mistakes.

"I was carried away by napsu." I said as I rubbed my face rough, then lowered my head.

"I am truly sorry for any loss caused by my actions. Whatever the compensation is, as long as it doesn't disturb my household, I'll give it."

It's stupid that Clara is offended, I say what I have to say.

There's no answer. I decided to end this meeting. I think silence means to agree.

"alright. We're done, and let's get on with each other's lives."

"I still want to be friends with you."

Oh, it turns out Clara's still trying to negotiate with me.

"What kind of friendship do you expect? No, our relationship is flawed. We can't relate for any reason. After all, aren't you afraid that God is rebuking you?"

"Don't say God in front of me!! Why are you so dirty? You two are a weird couple! The woman is jealous, and the man is too afraid of his wife." bursts Clara in flames.

Whatever Clara thinks, whatever. I don't give a shit. My only wish is to finish this right now.

"alright. The point of our conversation is with or without your consent, we're done. I'll never call you again. I'm sorry for everything. Mr File. I'll sign Lim, after this work with Jennifer."

Without waiting for a response from Clara, I left her after previously contacting Jennifer to take care of Clara. Then I tried to get all my business done quickly today. Next, I will go home to confess everything to Erika.

My head felt lighter, I felt relieved, and my legs stepped unburdeningly towards the car to get home. I miss my wife.

"I'm home, Moms. I came back after I got lost."

Feelings of guilt, longing and relief mixed into one. As soon as I got home, I hugged her tightly, may all my regrets be conveyed.

Duh! As soon as I saw Erika's face, I couldn't bear to tell her the truth. Not what - what, already imagined how disappointed he later to me. Blank's brain. I don't know where to start telling it. Then I decided to take a shower first, who knows the atmosphere will be better at that time. And I meant to tell you after dinner.

Apparently, my decision was wrong. After many days of thoughts and hide-and-seek with my wife, tonight I feel relaxed and then I fall asleep before I can say anything. Yeah, I haven't said anything.

As soon as I opened my eyes, I saw Erika holding my phone. The atmosphere and look on Erika's face I can't explain in words, it feels so strange and strange. In that instant, I knew that I had been caught red-handed.

I'm sorry, I should have apologized and confessed first. That's how life is, there are always surprises in it. When I chose to retreat and quit Clara, Erika found evidence instead. She's a smart, sensitive woman. There was a little change in me, she could feel it. Sooner or later, I'll be found out. If it wasn't for my carelessness, he might have known something else.

And then he told me to have dinner, and I'm more sure that after this he'll talk to me about Clara. He found something on my phone. I finally chose to admit everything before she asked further.

Seeing her angry in silence made me deeply regret my behavior. He neither cussed nor cried, more painful than if he hit me.

In spite of all that I realized, however I regret it all will not be the same. His heart was wounded. As much as I apologize, this mistake of mine has tarnished his trust.

There is nothing more I can do than apologize. It's okay, I understand her hurt feelings so deeply. I will continue to apologize to him, even if I have to do it my whole life.