Trapped by the Wrong Raga

Chapter 16: Not Together

I've lived one month without another beautiful Nayl by my side! It feels so sad! I don't want to know if I still have any hope of happiness? I always look uplifting and cheerful but in fact it's all an endless meeting!

When I returned to my boarding house and drowned in solitude, I could only look back because to cry, it felt like these tears had run out at the beginning of the separation with Nayl.

Once Lily caught me daydreaming with a blank stare when Lily went into my boarding house to borrow a book. I didn't even realize how long Lily had been around me before she finally patted me on the shoulder in a fit of anxiety!

"Vajrian! Oh Allah...! What are you?!!!" hysterical shouting!

"Well!" I was shocked to see Lily already in front of me with eyes bulging with anxiety! "What's up, Ly?" my many.

"What are you, Ra! I was in front of you! I've been calling your name! I waved my hand in front of your face! But you seem to have turned into stone!" lily replied in a high-level upset tone!

"Oh, sorry Ly.." I said sorry.

"You're hypnotized?! I clap my shoulders awake!"

"I'm daydreaming again..."

"Vajrian! What are you daydreaming about?"

I'm silent. My eyes suddenly felt warm.

"Vajria, are you daydreaming about your ex?!" guess Lily is suspicious!

"Far down in my heart, Nayl is still my lover..."

"God...!" lily's eyes widened. "You're serious, Ra?! So you still love Nayl?!"

I nodded lethargicly.

"If you're still in love, why did you break him up?!"

"I didn't kill him. I asked him to leave and he left. No sensitivity at all!"

"Where can he be sensitive?! His soul is a girl! You should have been more sensitive and not let him go!"

"Kok you so as to regret my farewell with Nayl?! Haven't you been the most vocal voicing aspirations for me to leave Nayl?!"

"Yes, but now it's finally like this, you're daydreaming and there's no response when I call! I don't want you to get stressed out, stressed out and end up getting crazy!"

"Unfortunately I seem to have contracted the three things you said just now!"

"Oh my God, Ra! I didn't expect it at all! I think you're okay and it looks like that!"

"But in my heart is a deep wound!"

"You can't be like this, Ra! If only Nayl can bring your world back in color and the sun in your soul shines again, go after him! Get her heart and herself back!"

I'm shaking. "Can't!"

"Why?!" Lily turned her round eyes back.

"Nayl looks very happy without me. Maybe it's better like this next. Maybe during our eight months together, Nayl was actually depressed and unhappy..."

"Oh my God, Ra...!" Lily hugged my body tightly. "I don't want you to fall apart, Ra!"

I hugged Lily. "No, Ly! There are no trials that exceed the limits of our abilities. I believe that! Storms are bound to pass and there will always be rainbows after the storm!"

"You are strong, Ra!"

"I must be strong!"

"Or do you switch your feelings to another guy! Maybe you can move on quickly if you have someone new! You turn the cake back to Alvin!"

"I only want Nayl the beautiful!"

"If you want a pretty one, there's Alfred right?! Want me to know him?! Maybe he can replace Nayl's position in your heart or at least it can be your entertainment!"

"Why? Am I wrong?" ask Lily with a sinless face. What he said just now was a great sin, to me!

"Nayl is not the same as Alfred! Nayl is beautiful! A gift from God! Lha Alfred what the hell?! She's so self-made that she looks beautiful to the point of everything!"

"Nayl is not a beauty?! Make-up, long earrings!"

"Just different!"

"No matter what you say!"

Lily said it was true too. I think I should find some entertainment! Than I was stressed out and ended up in a mental institution!

Incidentally the next day while eating in the cafeteria, a lecturer named Pak Ari came to my desk and greeted me very kindly. Mr. Ari is a lecturer of cultural arts people are eccentric, often wear a round hat with long hair. At first glance his style is similar to Nayl. But of course Mr. Ari is not as beautiful as Nayl! Pak Ari is also one of the lecturers who are popular among students.

"Good day, Vajria" said Mr. Ari.

"Siang sir" I said in return.

"Anyone?"

"Against Lily"

"Can I have a meal at this table?"

"Can, Sir"

Mr. Ari ordered one serving of fried rice as I ordered. He also ordered two ice cubes. "Please drink the mixed ice" said Mr. Ari.

"Here I've ordered iced sweet tea"

"It's okay. Just dickin' all. I have ordered two. Oh yes if you want another message please. I'll pay for the fried rice you're eating right now"

"Thank you sir" I was confused as well, why did Mr. Ari suddenly become so familiar?

And we also had a pretty good conversation about art and music. Until Mr. Ari mentioned about me who was not in my band.

"Yes, I'm no longer a member of the Power band now" I said rather sadly.

"Sadly, when you've become one with the band! You saw your stage act a few times!"

"Well, what else, sir"

"Have you heard that you quit the Power band because you put Nayl first? Your boyfriend is that?"

I took a long breath. "Yes Sir. I did quit the band because I put Nayl first"

"Are you serious about Nayl?"

"We're just going through it"

"But I see you guys haven't been together for a long time, which means you usually look alone when you're jamkos"

"We're in trouble. We haven't communicated with each other for a month and we're no longer together"

"Oh yeah?! How come?!"

I didn't know what to say, I lifted my gaze to the west side of the canteen and instantly my eyes widened!

Nayl! The beauty seemed to be in the corner there and looked towards here with her beautiful eyes looking cold!

"Nayl.." My mind called out her name... Since when were you there, beautiful?!