Towards True Love 2

Still Selfish

Raindrops drenched the glass windows of the car my husband and I were riding in. This time we were both gone. Although Rio already knew the true condition, but he could not yet remember everything that was lost within his memories. Routine we go to the doctor to do therapy and such.

Throughout the unrelenting driving, the man I always wanted to embrace looked at me. He threw out his sweet smile.

I want to enjoy the beauty that is so clearly presented in front of me. But my heart says, I'll put it off. I had to wait until he really came back.

"Umi" called her softly.

"Hmm?" At first glance I look. But before long this view I diverted to something else.

"Doctors say that Umi is the key to the return of abi's lost memory."

"Really, then?" I don't know where the conversation is going.

"Why did Abi see the doubt in your eyes?"

"Doubts?" I really don't know what doubt he meant.

"Maybe it's just abi's feeling."

"Try explaining, I really don't know the direction of this conversation." This time I forced him to talk.

"I feel that Umi's been away from me lately. Especially when I try to touch Umi. Is there any doubt in Umi's heart that makes Umi behave like that?"

It was not easy to lie to him. I've been trying so hard to hide this feeling. The true feeling I wanted to follow but my heart said no.

"God willing, there is no doubt in my heart."

He just looked at me tana meaningi. We were silent until the car was parked in the yard. Rio as usual opened the door for me.

"Thank you" I said, then passed before him.

The rain fell even more after we performed the Ashar prayer. Rio suddenly just invited me to sit down for tea on the terrace. I didn't reject it, even though I actually had to do another job that was to help prepare dinner.

"What's up, Abi?" I directly poked him with a question because it seemed like Rio was not just inviting me to sit there.

"Can we begin tonight as a husband and wife?"

Is God rebuking me? The thing I was getting old was coming through my husband's lips. Have I made a mistake?

"Abi, shouldn't we focus on recovering Abi's health first?"

For a moment I was silent, digesting all the thoughts raging in this heart. Again I feel that I have not changed. I am still a selfish wife.

"All right, Abi."

"I didn't mean to force Umi. But if there's no doubt, then prove it tonight."

I'm nodding. I don't drink the slightest bit of tea that's still steaming in the cup. I'll be ready to prepare dinner soon.

After that, I waited anxiously for him. I sat in the bathtub squeezing the thin lingerie I was wearing.

I was in this cold bathroom for an hour. The creaking sound of the door that someone opened was followed by the sound of a foot that bushes approaching I heard from inside the bathroom.

"Abi?!" Half-cried I checked on someone who came.

"Umi's inside? Is it finished or is it still long? Abi wants to pee," she said at the door.

"Well, in a minute, okay?"

I'm getting anxious. Somehow I'm gonna show him this face. It felt heavier than what I felt when I first increased my obligations.

This leg felt heavy, like there were dozens of huge stones surrounding it. This hand is also difficult for me to move to turn the door knob.

"Eye?!" He called me again.

"Yes, Abi?"

"Can it be faster?"

"L-yes!" answered doubt. "Bismillah." Kuraih knop and turn it slowly until the door is slightly open.

"Sorry, Umi!" He just barged in without letting me out of that place.

I turned my face away as soon as he stood facing the toilet to urinate. While I forgot, I should have immediately come out of the hiding place behind the door.

Hello, how are you all?

Someone misses me, right? Uh, miss the MCS2 novel hiihi...