
I woke up this morning feeling nervous. It's a lot of anxiety because I know the cause. Last night I couldn't even close my eyes quietly.
I was negligent, and I realized it too late. Why did I forget this important thing?
I'm upset with myself. I woke up too early. Even earlier than ART at home. Busying myself in the kitchen to prepare breakfast I did it alone without anyone's help.
I'd like to pick up in the morning. There's a place I really want to go to today. A place that will break my anxiety all night.
Before my husband woke up, I had taken a shower and was neatly wrapped in clothes. I was even ready to go. But why do I feel like time is going so slow today?
My husband also did not show any sign of opening his eyes immediately. Though usually right at dawn, he immediately woke up from the bed.
Ten minutes since the Adhan echoed in the mosque located not far from our house. I woke up my husband. His face looks very tired. Maybe Rio was too much yesterday.
"Abi.. Abi.. Get up," I asked as I stroked his forehead.
"What time is Mi?" the question is still with eyes closed.
"Nearly 5," I replied after glancing at the wall clock in the room.
"Adzan already?" Rio changed his position. His tall body began to squirm on the bed.
"Once more."
"Thank you for waking abi, honey," he said after opening his eyes. Rio instantly kissed my forehead the moment he got out of bed. After that, he walked into the bathroom.
"Umi," he called out when he reached the bathroom doorway.
"Yes?" I looked at him carefully.
"Miss you've had a shower?" askinya.
"It." I answered it briefly.
He walked back to me who was making the bed. Apparently Rio just realized my appearance which was already very neat in the morning blind like this.
"It was fragrant and neat too. Where'd Umi go?" said curious. Because usually when he wakes up he more often sees me who is still disheveled.
"Umi wants to see a friend before going to the store later," I replied lying.
"Early early?" tanyanya again confirms.
"Yes" I answered confidently.
"You want abi interra?" haggling without hesitation.
"no need. Umi alone. Hurry up for a shower or the dawn will soon run out," told me to avoid any further questions Rio might be asking.
My husband just complies. Without another word being spoken, Rio immediately stepped back and walked into the bathroom.
Finished serving breakfast to my husband and in-laws, I was forced to say goodbye. Leaving the two men without waiting for breakfast to finish.
I brought this empty stomach through the streets on my motorcycle. The highway is still covered in a thin fog. Not many vehicles passing by crowded, because it is still at 6 am.
I opened the glass helmet that was half way over my face. The morning breeze hit my skin. Cold, but the coolness I feel still can not dampen this anxiety of the heart.
"Assalamualaikum," I said, pressing the bell.
Before long someone opened the door with his typical friendly smile. He knows me, I know him too. Even though we are not friends.
"Early early?" tanyanya astonishment.
"I made a mistake" I replied without further ado.
"Error?" the question was more confused to see me who looked angry.
"Look at this, I missed it, didn't I?" I said while handing out a paper.
"Oh my God, did you forget?" ask her seriously.
"I was careless." Sesal now runs through my heart.
"You've missed it a month. I can't help you delay another pregnancy. Because there is likely already an egg that has entered and is developing in your womb," she said clearly making my hand shake.
"A-i'm pregnant?" I was nervous because I was filled with fear.
"There is such a possibility. If you want to know for sure, you can get a pregnancy test here." My midwife directed me to a pregnancy test.
I'm not really ready to get pregnant. That's why I prevented it by injecting KB. But now what's going on? I just missed the date I should have re-injected. And carelessly I missed a month.
I came out of the bathroom and passed the urine that was stored in the container. My midwife put a pregnancy test kit into my urine.
My heart really can't beat normally. My palms are getting cold and a flood of sweat. I'm not ready to get pregnant.
I breathed violently after coming out of the practice house. I left the parking lot to go to the store. The sun was shining its warm light. The thin fog that had accompanied my journey was now replaced with a solar flare.
Without realizing it, my husband was following me. He was very curious about my early departure. Moreover, the reasons I gave did not make much sense.
After I got away from the practice I was at, Rio got out of his car. Now it changed Rio who was hunting that place.
"So my wife came here. Is my wife okay?" ask the midwife I went to.
"That veiled woman is your wife?" He turned around asking.
"Right, she's my wife. Is he here because he's sick?" Rio clarified his question again.
"No, he's fine. Don't worry," the midwife replied with a friendly smile.
"Then why did he come here?" Rio still wanted to dig up information.
"He'll tell you himself later" said the midwife.
"Okay, then I'll excuse you. Sorry for interrupting your time." Rio then got into his car again. Today was a pretty chaotic day for my husband. Because curiosity bothers him. He could not even concentrate in class.
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