Towards True Love 2

Surrender

"Ma, Indy and Rio are still willing to focus on our new pioneering efforts. And again Rio hasn't finished his education yet, the two of us haven't thought about it." I began to make excuses after the soreness in my throat began to subside.

"Isn't it because you have other problems?" ask your mom again for information.

"There is no problem between us, Ma," my umpteenth-time boo.

But my mother was still the woman who gave birth to me. His bond is too strong with me. To my lies he could easily figure it out.

"Whenever you try to cover it up, you can see it, Ndy" she said.

"Ma, I'm not covering anything up. Believe me, Ma." I stared at my mom's bead in the eye. I wish my mom would trust me.

"You can lie to Mom? Mama who gave birth to you, took care of you until big. Indeed, the obligation of a wife is to cover the disgrace of her household. But you're mama's boy, Ndy. How can you solve a problem if you are silent and not trying to find a solution. Tell mama what's really going on" she asked me.

"I'm sorry Indy, Ma. Indy didn't mean to lie to Mama. And so is Rio. We just don't want to overload your minds. God willing, the problems in this household we can solve by ourselves." I remain reluctant to say it, considering that mama has a history of diseases that can recur if you experience mind pressure.

"Did Rio hurt you? Is he scolding you?" My mom wanted to know what was really going on.

"Say, Ndy. Mama won't calm down if you don't answer the truth." My mother's insistence made me melt and could not bear to let the days filled with thoughts of my household. I finally gave up and decided to be honest.

"Actually, Indy's guilty. We were married from the beginning, not once did we do it. Indy made a rule for Rio, a rule that forbids Rio from touching Indy. That's why, until this moment, Indy can not be sure when the granddaughter that you dream of will be present soon," I said at length.

"Astagfirullahaladzim, so it's true mama's guess last night. What did you see last night, is this the answer? The reason why Rio slept on the sofa, is because you didn't allow him to sleep with you?" I could only nod my head to answer my mother's question.

"Your actions are very sinful, son. A wife no longer has rights over her. Because everything she has is the right of her husband so jijab qobul said. My mom was very sad and disappointed to hear that. But anyway, you've been trying to be honest with mama."

"Ndy, good and bad as a wife. Mama and Dad will still be responsible in the afterlife. Father and mother educate you from childhood. God entrusts you to your father and mother to be given education. After that we let you off as Rio's wife. But that doesn't mean our responsibilities as parents are over."

"Why did you make such a rule, Ndy? Shouldn't you have prepared yourself before marriage? Or, don't you love Rio?" Mama's been looking for me.

"I'm sorry Indy, Ma." Only an apology can come out of my mouth. This heart hurts a lot, when it realizes. I am an ungodly child who willfully push my parents into the valley of hell for a mistake they did not commit.

"Say! Don't you love your husband?!" mama said again with a higher tone.

"Ampuni Indy, Ma. Indy can't love Rio yet." Let alone staring at the netra mama, to slightly change my position I do not dare to do it at this time.

"Then why did you receive his proposal?! You've hurt her so much, Indy. My mom is disappointed in you!" My mother's crying broke. I know my mom was very disappointed with what I did. Maybe all this time never once crossed my mother's mind I could do this cruel thing to my own husband.

"Don't tell me you got married because you had to? Because at that time my mother asked you to get married. Right, so?!"

"No, Ma, no. Indy married on Indy's own will. Since Indy was sure, Rio was indeed the right man." This time I ventured to look at my mother's red face because of tears in her eyes. I can't see it, I'm subduing this face. I drowned again in the lap of his affection which I wish was still left after mama knew how rotten I was.

"So what's the reason you haven't been able to love Rio? He is a man you deserve to love. You'll be sorry, Ndy. If until the end of life do not return his love." That mama's words sounded more like an oath to me. Fear suddenly ran through my heart. I don't want to lose a husband as good as Rio. There will not be another man who loves me as sincerely as he accepts me.

"No, Ma. Indy will love Rio. Someday that love will be there for her, Indy is sure. Indy just needs time."

"How will love exist if you don't let it enter your heart? Who is your heart really for? For your husband or for someone else?" Tears that had subsided now began to flow back rapidly considering he who I loved so much until now, Adi.

Even though I covered it with tens of thousands of piles of dried leaves, mama could still find it. Mama knows, I love other people. That's why Rio can't enter my heart. Because the key has been carried away by another man.

"Is Adi the one?" I was surprised by my mother's question. I looked at my mother bravely. No words overflow. But my mother knew for sure I answered her in my heart.

"Remove your tears, your husband and father are home." I followed my mother's orders immediately. Right, Rio's car is already parked in the courtyard of the house. I thought of my two rough eyes soaked in tears. Breathe out a few times quickly to eliminate any remaining exercise. Mama told me to drink a little of my juice to make it quieter.