The Third Party

30. Go away

I continued to accompany Handi in the intensive care room. I didn't want to leave him for a second. I kept talking to him even though there was no response. I kept talking about anything. I don't care if Handi hears my voice or not, she feels the touch of my hand or not, I don't care. I just want to bring her consciousness back.

"Dam ... Build Han. Don't shut up like that. I don't like." I pretended to sulk. I used to do that when I was joking.

Until my voice raspy because it keeps asking Handi to talk while crying tears. If only the officer had allowed me to bring Damar into this room I would have invited him. I'll make Damar cry next to him and immediately wake up and calm him down. If my cry can't make her wake up maybe Damar's cry can. But unfortunately I was not allowed to bring Damar.

"So Ma'am Eka and Mas Harun came. They promise to do their best for you. You must be healed. Now they're coming home to pick up Damar. I'll leave Damar to them so I can accompany you here. You don't mind if while Damar is being taken care of by Ma'am Eka?" Again, it was like talking to myself.

"I have to thank them Han. Ma'am Eka is very good. Your brother-in-law has been very kind to me. Sister Rina and Ms Eka, they were both very good to me. But ... "

"How am I going to face mom if there's no you? Am I willing?" Suddenly Handi returned my hand. I can't believe this. Did he respond to what I said?

I immediately pressed the emergency button to call the nurse. Not long after the doctor and nurse came and asked me to wait outside.

I also obey him. My heart is pounding not because of. There is a glimmer of hope. Handi showed a response, it may be a sign if his condition improves.

It wasn't until five minutes that the doctor and nurse were back out. But their faces showed no sign of glad tidings. I who used to have a little hope suddenly disappeared just by looking at the look on their faces.

"Dok ... What was? Why is everyone out?"

"Sorry ... We've tried our best. But the life of the mother's husband is not helped."

And suddenly everything felt dark, the earth where I stood like a sinkhole. My legs felt so weak that I collapsed.

"Bus ... Is it okay?" Some nurses tried to wake me up. I'm getting back up. With the remaining energy I ran into the room where Handi was stiff. His entire body was covered with a blanket and the wires he had attached to his body had also been removed.

I took off the blanket that covered her face. I looked at his face for the last time.

"Dam ... Awake baby. Why did you break your promise? Why did you leave me first? Build Han ... Please open your eyes ... " I wiped Handi's cheek that looked clean.

*

I sat alone in the hospital hallway staring blankly ahead. I've stopped crying now leaving a puddle and a pale face.

"Emma ... " Baby Rina came to hug me. "Patience is yes ... " I just answered with a nod of my head.

Mbak Eka's drive approached with Damar. I looked at Damar's eyes closely, Handi's eyes because their eyes are very similar, even all parts of Damar's body are exactly the same as his father. I grabbed Damar's body from Mbak Eka's sling. Then I hugged and kissed her face.

"From now on we're just the two dear." I whispered into Damar's ear. As much as possible I won't cry. I have to be strong for Damar because my crying will not bring Handi back.

I followed the words of Mama Eka. Me, Ma'am Eka and Mbak Rina will go home while Mas Hasan and Mas Harun take care of everything.

Just a few steps we walked, my in-laws and Heni and her husband came.

"Handii .. " cried my father-in-law. "My child ... Why are you leaving so soon? Why did you leave your mother, son? Handiii .. "my in-laws' cries are so. "Where is he? I wanna see it? Take me to see him one last time."

And how I don't cry hearing this kind of voice. I, who had so much difficulty withholding my tears, cried again. I approached my in-laws. I want to hug her. We both feel a sense of loss, maybe we can shoulder this sadness together.

"Bus ... Sandy is gone." I wanted to hug my in-laws but she pushed me and looked me in the eye. His eyes showed how much he hated me.

"It's all because of you! If only Handi hadn't married you she would be alive now! If Handi wanted to obey me married to someone other than you, surely he would not be a driver and had this accident! All of this is because you're the unlucky carrier!!!" my in-laws shouted in front of everyone.

"Mom, this is fate. It's nobody's fault." Ma'am Eka tried to calm my in-laws.

"Handi is still young Eka, she can still have everything. Why do we have to end up with a girl like her. And look at it now? It's all because of him!" Back to pointing at me.

I just watched my in-laws keep blaming me.

"We're going home now, don't listen. It's nobody's fault" whispered Rina in my ear. He dragged my body because my eyes were staring at my daughter-in-law. She kept crying and wailing while pointing at me.

Look at Han, who will defend me now? Can you see me being treated like this? You are always there to defend me. You evil Han, you evil!

"Handi is my son, bring his body back to my house! Don't go to his house! Bring me Handi!" the screams of my in-laws who are still over-the-top are heard. I didn't see her face because Sister Rina had already led me away from her.

*

Me and Ma'am Eka also Mbak Rina as well as some neighbors have been waiting for several hours. But Handi's body did not reach home.

Finally, Mbak Eka took the initiative to contact Mas Harun why Handi's body had not reached home. Whether there are still unresolved admissions or other issues.

And we just found out that Handi's body was buried in his mother's house not in this house. We all went to my in-laws' house.

And I set foot in my in-laws' house again. This time it felt strange and strange. I came like everyone else.

Seeing my arrival my in-laws immediately ran towards me. Not to welcome me but to throw me out.

"Go you unlucky carrier! Handi doesn't live long because of you! Don't expect me to forgive you!!!"